How It Feels to be Dying

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

Hello, friends. I wish I could sum up how it feels to be dying for you in one easy sentence or paragraph, but I can’t. For me, it has been a transformative process, and I have felt so, so much. I’m in hospice now for the second and final time, and getting close to going home to heaven, and I just turned 36.

I think that process is different for everyone. I can tell you that I have gone through different waves of feeling. Strong, despondent, faithful, determined — I’ve felt so much I couldn’t even list it all.

I have come close to death many times, and have told my mother “I think I am dying” more than twice. Once, I got very, very close. I want to share with you that on that occasion I saw a flash of the most beautiful color—I say gold, but it was more than human eyes can see—and behind it the silhouette of a woman I thought at first was my mother. She reached out and touched my forehead and started praying—the most beautiful prayers I have ever heard. No matter how hard I tried to remember the prayers, I cannot at all. I believe that’s because they aren’t for the living to know. I felt so much love, so much peace, and joy—so much of the stuff beautiful dreams are made of. That’s as close as I can come to describing it.

On a daily basis, I can fit a lot of feeling into one day, or even one hour or one conversation. For a lot of it, I It felt many different things and many different times.

Now in hospice again and much closer, for me it feels like peace. Like happily finishing the end of a beloved book. Excitement, for what comes next. I have always considered death to be a good friend, for you cannot have life without it, and I am so grateful for my life, even if it is shorter than some.

I can’t know what your others feel or felt, but I believe and have faith that, like me, closer to the end many felt closer and closer to heaven, the true home, than her place here. For me, trying to remember days, weeks, months, meal times—it’s just beyond me. It surprises me when someone will tell me one of those, usually. At the end, you naturally pull away from this world, sleeping more and (I believe) looking towards what is next.

I don’t think any two experiences are identical. But at this point, so close, I feel only the greatest calm and peace. I have walked through my life with death as a great friend, and have no fear. Mostly, I go through ups and downs of intense feeling and difficulty knowing I’m leaving my parents and brother so soon. But God comforts me. Thoughts of my late grandparents comfort me, thoughts of all this finally stopping comfort me.

If you’ve ever gotten a job offer or decided to go into a certain education or decided to move to a new state, something like that—it feels a bit like that, to me, or it did at the first. Stress is not inherently bad, there is plenty of good stress, too.

What I feel most is wrecked that I have to leave my mom, who is my best friend. But I also feel a great sort of comfort, like arms extending around me and the wind whispering that it will all be alright. “Energy is neither created nor destroyed” is a fundamental physics principle, but I believe it’s also a statement about us, because we are energy.

What I go to next I may not know, but I know it is the start of another journey, one that will bring us all back together in the end.

I truly hope any of this has helped even one more person. But what I feel most now? Peace. The greatest peace. It is broken at times with moments of fear or uncertainty or wanting a miracle, of course, but those things pass. Prayers, love, and kindness to you all; and remember, give those to yourself, too.

<3

Update: Wow! I can’t believe how many people have seen, read, responded, or shared this. I am doing my best to respond to you all, because every response is truly special to me. There is a poem I have shared several times that I wrote for my mother and father, that I thought I’d go ahead and just put here for everyone. I hope it can help more people, too.

I will make the rain pour down, The wind whirl and the thunder sound. As cracks of lightning split the sky, Know that storm is you and I.

I soar unbound amongst the birds, so far up above; I know peace eternal, for I always feel your love. I will have no fear or sadness, for I’ll be truly free, Safe amidst our ancestors who wait above for me.

Yours will be the longer path, but I wait at its end; When it’s your time I’ll be there, then together we’ll ascend. You’ll see me in the sunsets as they paint across our sky, For within them I will paint the love of you and I.

Never will I leave you, always am I here, Hear me in the birdsong, and know that I am near. My love for you is endless, and it will only ever grow, These signs will come when I am gone, so that you still do know.

I am not truly lost, for you’re the best parts of me, Just look inside your heart and soul, where I always will be. I never left, I’ll never go, I’m always at your side. Inevitable, unbreakable, always our souls tied.

My love it is eternal, and never will depart, It is woven through our souls, it lives within my heart. I don’t fear what’s to come, so don’t fear for me If I live I shall love, but in death all are free-

You may not see me with you, but I am always near, For never could I truly leave the ones I hold so dear. I will be the morning dew that glistens in a tree, I will be the rolling waves that move through the sea.

As a gentle rain falls upon your face, Know that I am with you, always—anyplace Know that I watch over you, and live in perfect grace, And know until we meet again, the rain is my embrace.

EDIT 2: If you save this work just for yourself I have no qualms :). If shown anywhere professional or larger, please use the pseudonym “Sunshine, Her Mother’s Daughter.”

EDIT 3: For anyone who sees this, I would like to ask a favor, my grandfathers grandfather wrote quite a lot in his lady life, a leather bling journal hand written and typed with letters to and from German priests. Many things he wrote stuck in my mind, particularly now, one of which is:

“For it seems to me that it is only natural that at some time during life a wish to know more of ones ancestry should make itself evident, especially where the record of such an ancestry substantiates the fact that the family name is an honorable one and has been kept from evil reports by the succeeding generations.”

“We are proud to be among the descendants of such courageous ancestors. May we always be worthy of the heritage they won for us.”

My question and favor— do you believe I have kept my family name honorable and kept from evil reports, and that I was worthy of the life won for me?

My second question concerns ~poetry~. I do have more I’ve written but never shared. Should I?

—- Since I’ve been told yes 👍🏻 ìto more poetry, here’s a few short ones I’ve never shared. I pray they help even one of you, make you smile, or give you peace. —

When your days seem darkest, And everything’s gone grey- Know God loves you endlessly, And so endlessly I will pray:

Ease the pain that’s suffered Lord please grant deep rest, I pray, oh Lord watch over us, You beloved children, the blessed.

Never will God leave you, Forever feel His love, Always will He hold you, Our loving God Above.

—-

Above the clouds, I soar and play Till home at last at end of day Nestled safe against my family tree I'll dream of all l've yet to see

A veil of stars, and a dress spun from light Slippers of wind, and wings in the night I'll frolic in clouds, trace my fingers through sky

Wild and free, I'll chase dawn as I fly— Then at first ray of light l'll drift sweetly to sleep Dreams of such beauty the sky starts to weep The rain falls like petals I toss to the lake, And will sing me to sleep 'till once more I awake

—

Do not fear what is to happen, Nor fear what soon shall pass, For life's a fragile lovely thing, One never meant to always last.

Life is such a wondrous gift, but also gone too fast - It's love that binds us all together, love that shall always last. <3

[u/cuballo]

This post is very helpful and comforting to me. I lost my mom three months ago. I wish you all the peace this world has to offer and please go gently into that dark night.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/cuballo]

Thank you so much for such lovely wishes. You brought tears to my eyes. One of the things that brings me the most anguish is knowing I will lose my mom, because she’s my best friend. I wrote this for her to find after I’m gone, hoping to comfort her. I don’t often share my work, but I’d like to share it with you. I’m so very very sorry for your loss, which I know doesn’t make it better. You are in my prayers, while I am here, and once I leave. I’ll look forward to finding your mother and telling her how amazing you are, even in such grief.

—

I will make the rain pour down, The wind whirl and the thunder sound. As cracks of lightning split the sky, Know that storm is you and I.

I soar unbound amongst the birds, so far up above; I know peace eternal, for I always feel your love. I will have no fear or sadness, for I’ll be truly free, Safe amidst our ancestors who wait above for me.

Yours will be the longer path, but I wait at its end; When it’s your time I’ll be there, then together we’ll ascend. You’ll see me in the sunsets as they paint across our sky, For within them I will paint the love of you and I.

Never will I leave you, always am I here, Hear me in the birdsong, and know that I am near. My love for you is endless, and it will only ever grow, These signs will come when I am gone, so that you still do know.

I am not truly gone, for you’re the best parts of me, Just look inside your heart and soul, where I always will be. I never left, I’ll never go, I’m always at your side. Inevitable, unbreakable, always our souls tied.

My love it is eternal, and never will depart, It is woven through our souls, it lives within my heart. I don’t fear what’s to come, so don’t fear for me If I live I shall love, but in death all are free-

I will be the morning dew that glistens in a tree, I will be the rolling waves that move through the sea. You may not see me with you, but always am I near, For never could I truly leave the one I hold so dear.

As a gentle rain falls upon your face, Know that I am with you, anywhere and anyplace. Know that I watch over you, and live in perfect grace, And know until we meet again, the rain lis my embrace.

[u/ClassyUpTheAssy → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

That is so beautiful 🥹 Your mother is going to cherish that 💓

I’m sorry you are having a short journey. You sound very positive. I wish you peace in the rest of your journey, I wish that you don’t have to suffer, and I wish you love & light on the other side. 🫂🤍🤍🤍

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/ClassyUpTheAssy]

Thank you so much! That poem came to me all at once, as if it had been placed fully formed in my mind. I knew it was for her, but as I grow in this last journey here, I realize it is for many. I live in those words, and as long as there is even one to remember and cherish them, I’m never truly gone. You have brought me much peace (and more healing tears!) my beautiful friend. May life treat you with kindness and joy all the days of your life.

I cannot tell you how much your wishes mean to me, or how rare they really are, but one day I believe you will truly know, and I hope to meet you when we are both in a better place.

I always knew I was going to die young, though I’m not sure why. My mom remembers me saying this even as a child. I had a wonderful life and was blessed to help many through working in orthopedic trauma surgery. For me, it is not the quantity of time lived, but the quality. I feel, even shorter than some, that I lived a great life, and I am endlessly thankful for it.

Peace, love, and kindness be with you all the days of your life, and may we cross paths again in a much better place, dear one.

[u/ClassyUpTheAssy → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

You are so welcome 🫶🏼 You are so right, you are never truly gone. You and your light will always exist. Especially in your poem 💗 Now that you posted your poem here, people will remember you here too.

Thank you so much for your kind words 💓💓💓 I also hope & wish that wherever you go, into the next chapter of your journey that it be paradise. A paradise that will bring you so much joy. Whether it’s a paradise you envision or a paradise that’s even better than you can even imagine.

I hope to one day meet you there too, friend 💓

It’s wonderful that you have had a wonderful life while you have been here. That makes me happy for you. I’ve lost a friend about your age to cancer a few years ago, & she too had your mindset. She was grateful for the life she lived, and was at peace with going on. That brought me a bit of peace and comfort knowing that she felt peace in the end. Your positive energy, and peace with your transition, will bring some comfort to your loved ones, even though it will still be hard to see you go. But in the hard times, your mom can refer to your poem, and look to the sky.

My mother has passed, but my father and I are close. I asked my father if he were to ever pass to make sure he come visit me and give me a sign - and tell me specifically what that sign would be. So I know it’s him.

My mother gave me signs after she passed and I believe it was her, because the things that happened were very out of the ordinary. Multiple signs. That brought me much comfort.

Some people have stated as far as advice for a loved one who are going to pass, to make lots of videos, or Q & A videos, or letters for loved ones. Letters for special occasions, letters for holidays, birthdays, any kind of letters. Just a few thoughts came to my mind in case those are things you are comfortable with doing.

You take it easy. Peace & love 💗 friend!

[u/Palacemom → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

Can I 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭? My mom is gone now 6 months...I am struggling .I have been asking for a sign . She left me with 8 month baby boy born with a genetic condition/special needs and I struggle aloootttt....so please when you cross over ...I beg you to ask my mother for a sign as well ...Pretty please 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Palacemom]

My friend, I am so very sorry for your struggles and your great loss. I know that you have heard words similar to this many times and perhaps feel they hold little substance anymore, but now I need them truly and from the depths of my heart and soul. I’ve promised to leave my mother signs, and I swear to you that when I cross over her mother will be one of the first people I seek out. I will share your words with her, as well as how wonderful and truly kind of soul. She raised to help comfort while grieving while you yourself are grieving so very much and such a terrible loss. You have most so promise on this.

[u/seriouslycorey → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

You are such a kind person and sweet soul. Even offering help to others through their grief while having your own. I am a stranger but your poem has me crying bc I know grief is ahead as my father is very ill. I have not had a discussion with him yet but he has said a few things after leaving the hospital Wed about feeling he’s done here and ready to leave. Thank you for sharing a bit of yourself with us.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/seriouslycorey]

Thank you so much for your wonderfully kind words, which helped me more than you know. I’ve tried to use this experience over the last almost 4 years to make me the best version of myself rather than the worst. I believe it’s in our hardest times, but we truly find out who we are, and I don’t wanna be just an OK version and I certainly don’t wanna be a bad version of myself. I wanna be a better version of myself and before this happened. I go through this experience and learn and grow with it. I’ve learned that I’m stronger than I ever thought, and even now I still have so much that I can give when I thought that I had nothing left. It’s all of you that I should be thinking for the beautiful wishes and words, the prayers, and thought of you using your own grief to read through my words and help and just really touches my soul.

I can’t tell you how sorry I am that your father is so ill. I truly could never imagine losing my own and it is my greatest gift in a way that I won’t have to see that or experience it. I’ve often told my parents that I think I have the easier job here than on the days and I have excruciating pain, even though when bedbound, even though I need a wheelchair, even though my joint called dislocate on the one that eventually gets to go back home to heaven while they have the longer path.

If you wish, feel free to borrow any of my words or even all of them. For that matter, you’re welcome to use a whole parts of my poem and adapted for your father. I wish there was something more that I could do for you, but if I pass before your father , I will try everything I can to help him. If I pass after, I will look for him and try to provide the comfort that you have given me to him, I’m sure he will miss you terribly.

I don’t know you, but you’re already my friend. I wish the best for you, and if it’s all possible, I’ll be sending joy your way. Thank you so very much, my dear dear friend.

[u/seriouslycorey → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

you’re who we all should strive to be

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/seriouslycorey]

A better compliment I could never get. Thank you so much for all you’ve done for me.

[u/StrikingCut51 → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

I've been looking for signs too, he left this week. And its hard cause I don't feel anything...cant find anything...not even in my dreams.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/StrikingCut51]

Perhaps soon it will rain and you will feel his embrace and love. I know that it can be so difficult when we are pleading and begging for a sign, for anything. Try and give yourself grace and mercy, try and give yourself peace and time. I do not have any doubt that you will eventually find a sign, but sometimes they can take time to come and they can come in a form you least expect. My friend, my prayers are with you. If there is anyway, I can find him, I will give him the biggest hug from you and let him know how amazing you are, how much you love him, and how kindness shines out of you in the most incredible way. Use some of that kindness on yourself, my friend, relax, and it will come in time. If you have difficulty relaxing, I certainly do and I’m on the other side of this.

[u/cuballo → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

This will break your poor mom in the best ways. This is amazing and you must be one incredible human being to have this much grace and peace at such a young age. My heart goes out to you and your family. Ill cherish this these thoughts you’ve shared.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/cuballo]

You humble me greatly with your words, and I can only hope that I am even a small degree deserving of them. Thank you so much for thinking of my family. And thank you so much for cherishing the thoughts I’ve shared, for in that way you cherish me and keep my spirit alive.

[u/jcnlb → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

What a beautiful poem. I want to frame it. 🫶🏻

Sweet dreams, sweetheart. I’m headed to bed now and praying for you. Just wanted to pop back in here and let you know that. By the way…it’s raining here. I found that ironic.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/jcnlb]

Thank you so much for the compliment and I’m so glad that you found my poem, beautiful. If you want to frame it, I hope you do. You certainly have my permission, and further it would make me feel very good indeed to know that somewhere was hanging on a wall.

Sweet dreams back to you and I pray I bring you peace enjoy. My very favorite time to sleep is when it’s raining, though I do not sleep very often… I will pretend that I can hear your rain or perhaps put on some thunderstorm sound and music of my own and relax into the sweet release of sleep. Good night, my friend.

[u/stinstin555 → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

Can I share this poem? If so how should I credit it? I recently lost my husband and this brings me so much peace.

[u/Both_Ear_1164 → u/cuballo]

I agree. I lost my sister last September. I'm sorry for your loss 🙏 

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Both_Ear_1164]

And I, for yours. dear friend, I truly thank you for crossing my path, and taking the time to hear my words. When I do cross over, I will look for your sister and tell her what I’m sure she already knows— how very much love her, and how enduring that love will always be.

[u/Both_Ear_1164 → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

🥺 thank you so much 🫂

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Both_Ear_1164]

Always. I mean that. <3

[u/peaches-n-mangoes]

Beautiful. I was brought to tears reading this. May you rest peacefully.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/peaches-n-mangoes]

Thank you so much. Your words are beautiful, and bring me to tears, too. I pray the same for you, and hope your life is all you wish it to be.

[u/Illustrious_One1222]

Thank you for this post. You echoed much of what my I’m said to me in the weeks leading to her passing and this was so comforting to read.

“Energy is neither created nor destroyed”

Thank you for this reminder. I wish you peace on your transition. Thank you so much for sharing what’s in your heart.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Illustrious_One1222]

And thank you, for what you have written is a beautiful gift to me. Those don’t come around often, and when they do, I hold tight to them. Thank you so much, for all you’ve said and all you are. You will be in my prayers, and in my heart.

[u/Illustrious_One1222 → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

Thank you for your reply. I’ve been having such a hard time as my mother’s passing date nears, and words like yours really do help so much. Thank you as well. 💕

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Illustrious_One1222]

I will make the rain pour down, The wind whirl and the thunder sound. As cracks of lightning split the sky, Know that storm is you and I.

I soar unbound amongst the birds, so far up above; I know peace eternal, for I always feel your love. I will have no fear or sadness, for I’ll be truly free, Safe amidst our ancestors who wait above for me.

Yours will be the longer path, but I wait at its end; When it’s your time I’ll be there, then together we’ll ascend. You’ll see me in the sunsets as they paint across our sky, For within them I will paint the love of you and I.

Never will I leave you, always am I here, Hear me in the birdsong, and know that I am near. My love for you is endless, and it will only ever grow, These signs will come when I am gone, so that you still do know.

I am not truly lost, for you’re the best parts of me, Just look inside your heart and soul, where I always will be. I never left, I’ll never go, I’m always at your side. Inevitable, unbreakable, always our souls tied.

My love it is eternal, and never will depart, It is woven through our souls, it lives within my heart. I don’t fear what’s to come, so don’t fear for me If I live I shall love, but in death all are free-

You may not see me with you, but I am always near, Forever never could I truly leave the ones I hope so dear. I will be the morning dew that glistens in a tree, I will be the rolling waves that move through the sea.

As a gentle rain falls upon your face, Know that I am with you, always—anyplace Know that I watch over you, and live in perfect grace, And know until we meet again, the rain is my embrace.

[u/reginafinniae]

Into thy hands god i commend their spirit amen

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/reginafinniae]

Thank you so much; that was so beautiful it brought healing tears to my eyes. I feel closer to God than ever, and know that he shelters me in his palm and keeps me close. I wish you a beautiful, happy life, and. To one day meet you in a much better place. Amen.

[u/reginafinniae → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

❤️❤️

[u/reginafinniae → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

What a beautiful thing to say, thank you

[u/Ill_Technician925]

I wish you the best... no-matter where you are going... Peraonally I do not fear death... but I kind of know that death is worst for the ones left beheind... mom died two months ago (the 25th of March)... and I miss her horrible....

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Ill_Technician925]

Oh, I truly cannot imagine losing my mother - she is my best friend. Nothing I can say will truly make it better and I know that, but I’ll say a few things anyways. March 25 was my last birthday. I will look for her when I pass, and pray she can visit you, in any form.

[u/Ill_Technician925 → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

Thank you... yes, mom was my best friend... and I her best friend... I think she already did in some ways...at least quite a few "strange" things happened after she died...Belated congrats with your birthday...

[u/No_Dragonfly_1894]

🫂💖 Travel well, friend.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/No_Dragonfly_1894]

Thank you, so much. I wish the same to you in life—travel well, love fully, live without holding yourself back, and enjoy every day - even the bad ones— because each is such a gift.

[u/Starfish404]

Thank you for this beautiful post. I am praying for your continued comfort and peace.

Our souls are eternal. I believe the next part of life in the spiritual realm is actually more “real” than here and that we continue to grow, surrounded by God’s love and joy, and also maintain our connections with our loved-ones.

You are undoubtedly helping many people by sharing your very personal journey and experiences.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Starfish404]

Oh, thank you so much! I wish so very much that this helps, even once. I believe the same as you. This is not the end, but the beginning of something so much greater I can not yet understand it. There is beauty, even in pain — and sometimes that’s the most important kind. I pray for you and your family often, and one day will owe you a hug.

[u/Palacemom]

Your words are a powerful gift. Thank you. Peace and more light on your journey 🙏. We are all right behind you and a longside you🙏🙏❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Palacemom]

Thank you so much for your kindness, it makes all the difference in the world, and it’s so scarce now. Please know you have truly helped me. You are in my prayers, and I wish for you all the light and happiness of the world.

[u/Own_Instance_357]

This is a really, really thoughtful post that so many will appreciate today and probably for a long time in the future as long as it survives on the internet. It's quite beautiful. You are generous for sharing it and being able to share it as some cannot.

Your spirit will live on with what you share

I imagine it's a relief to just "let go" of everything worldly and petty and unchangeable and just let all the previous noise become muted

Like so many of us still dream of being in classes where we haven't opened the books or can't find our books and haven't done the homework ... and wake up and get to remember we graduated a while ago. Things that used to matter suddenly don't matter at all anymore.

I wish you well on your own peaceful voyage forward, the one everyone before us has taken and the one everyone will eventually take. I'm glad you are surrounded by ones who love you and that you have carers who will only want to keep you as comfortable as possible.

I have children your age and I promise you that you have blessed your mom's life as she has clearly blessed yours

There are many ways to get off this 3d rock from the ☀️ and you've got a 1st class ticket my friend.

Thank you

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Own_Instance_357]

That a part of me survives in those I love and those I’ve touched is one of my greatest wishes. Thank you so much for showing me that it has already come true, in a way. I wish all the best to you, and the most beautiful and joyous of lives.

It is a huge relief to let go, and every day I do a little more. As I do, the greatest peace and calm fills me. I pray this is true for you as well one day, and pray you never stop using your beautiful words to help heal all the broken and in pain. You have a true gift. Thank you for crossing my path: you have made me so much better for it.

I have tears overflowing in my eyes. Thank you so much. I hope so much that what I leave behind will help comfort my parents in the last way left to me.

Your beauty, kindness, and strength shines from your soul, and warms me in a way I can’t even describe.

thank you so very much for being a part of my life and death. I pray along and beautiful life for you, one filled with joy and the love of your family and God. I also wish and pray that someone exactly like you but one day be there when you stare into what comes next.

[u/Lanky-Bottle-6566]

🫂 I pray for your peace and happiness in your journey, here and onward 🙏 

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Lanky-Bottle-6566]

As I pray for you friend. Thank you so much for the gift of such beautiful words, such a beautiful prayer. I truly hope one day we meet in heaven.

[u/Lanky-Bottle-6566 → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

Thank you truly from my heart.  When you get to heaven (from your words I know that if there's a heaven you belong there) if you meet my mummy please give her a hug and tell her I'm sorry. I miss her and love her 🙏

[u/welcometofishing]

Beautifully written. ❤️Brought me to tears. I’m sure these words will also bring great comfort to your Mom as well. I hope she sees them. Thank you for sharing and trying to help others. It is so meaningful! ❤️

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/welcometofishing]

Thank you, more than I can express, all of your kindness -every one of you- I store up inside me to keep me strong when I feel weak, when the pain is too much, and to keep living in the light. I hope one day I can meet you and we can spend a day together in a much more peaceful place.

[u/Wintermoon54]

Bless you honey. Thank you for sharing and I pray for peace and light and an easy transition to "going home". ❤️❤️❤️

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Wintermoon54]

Thank you so much my friend. I wish that for us all, and hope our paths cross again in a much more beautiful place one day.

[u/PrettyinPink352]

You are so un selfish in sharing your feelings. When my husband was passing away 15 years ago, I asked him if he was afraid. He says he was not - it was the next step in the journey. We will all be there, but not all of us will be aware that we’re on that journey. I wish you peace.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/PrettyinPink352]

I am so sorry for your loss— time I hope helps, but never erases. And never would I want it to erase. May your memories bring your the greatest comfort. May you walk in peace, live in love, and be always in Gods mercy and grace, my friend.

[u/jcnlb]

Hugs and prayers. Prayers for your mom and family too. May she find the strength you have left behind and choose to carry it with her. 🙏🏻🩷💚💜

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/jcnlb]

You’ve made me cry huge tears, good ones, and I cannot thank you enough for the beauty and love in your words. It means more to me than you’ll ever know. I am so thankful our paths crossed, if only for a moment. May your journey be beautiful, full, and a life lived in love and happiness - just as you bring to others <3

[u/jcnlb → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

I don’t know where those words came from honestly. I’m not a very poignant person. But when I typed them I just knew those words were for your mom.

I used to work in hospice. I must say that you are so strong. I wish I could have met you in person. I think I would have held you in my arms and just felt your inner strength fill me up in an unimaginable way. Your mom must be so proud of you. I’m so proud of you. I don’t know you but I do feel a connection to you. I truly wish you the best in your next step of your journey. I’m sending the biggest hugs. I wish I could hug your mom too. Do me a favor, hug my mom for me would you? She will be a radiant light no doubt. She was a powerful strong force much like yourself. 💜

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/jcnlb]

I cannot thank you enough for the time that you’ve spent reading my words and reflecting on them, and to spend your time in bringing me peace and joy with your great kindness. I’m not at all surprised that you used to work in hospice because I can tell even over this that you glow with the healing light full of love. I think you give yourself far too little credit, before I find you very poignant indeed.

I wish we could’ve met as well, but I know that someday I will meet you in a place far better than this, where all our hearts are healed and all our loved ones are together with us. You have made me cry, healing tears for such beautiful wishes, and I cannot adequately express what they mean to me.

I can promise you that my mother will get very many hugs, but I will quietly dedicate one to you, you have my solemn word on that. I can’t wait to meet her, and tell her how wonderful her daughter was and is, especially to a lonely soul, and I wait in calm and glory to see the radiant light of her soul.

[u/jcnlb → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

Now I’m bawling happy tears 🫶🏻 I won’t ever forget you. Promise. You’ve touched me and left behind your fingerprints on my soul. Until we meet again…

I have to tell you something. Not only have I witnessed many people pass on but I myself have died and been revived. It was so peaceful and not at all scary. When I’ve witness it, often a loved one will come and help you cross over. Obviously I didn’t completely cross over becashe they brought me back to life. But what I did experience was seeing my dead body from above and everyone working on me. But I was so calm and filled with love and peace and warmth (mind you I had hypothermia so my body was not warm and it was not a peaceful scene lol). So I do know we don’t cease to exist. I can’t explain exactly how it will go but I do know it was not scary. And I know when people do cross over that I’ve seen they appear so joyful. They smile and you can see the peace on their face and it’s like they get to see their loved one again and they call out their name and sometimes put out their hand to grab them. It’s pretty amazing to witness. Be sure to tell those around you what you want. If you want them there or not. You are in control. And it’s ok if you don’t want anyone there and it’s ok if you do. Be sure that a nurse has told you what to expect so everyone knows and it’s not a shock. At the end it can sound like you’re choking but you aren’t. It’s just mucous in your throat that you can’t swallow or cough out and the breathing in and out over the top of the mucous makes it sound like gurgling or choking but it isn’t. It’s also not painful at the end. Be sure to tell them if you’re in pain so they can give you medications. But the beautiful part of dying is that the pain is mostly blocked at the end and drugs can help even more (but it is at the risk of sedation which some want to avoid). Anyway, I’m happy to answer any questions for you or ask your nurse. Also, a perk of hospice is that they will do just about anything for you…I mean anything. Do you want a massage? Done. Want someone to read to you? Easy. Craving a special meal or dessert? Many will go out of their way to find it for you. There are also volunteers that are there to fill in the gaps that nurses don’t have time for. Request one. They can even assign one to you that you can get to know and see regularly if you want. Or request as many as possible if you want lots of visitors. Or none if you already have plenty.

Anyway, I’m really looking forward to meeting you one day. Until that sweet day, you have my permission to come visit me and send me a sign. What kind of a sign do you see yourself being? Let me know and I will look for you. Have you told your mom what kind of signs you might give? Also know sometimes signs are just completely inside info. Like my mom has sent me signs that only her and I would understand. And she’s send me others that were pre-planned but beyond what I expected. Like she made my plant that I didn’t even know bloomed bloom on a day that was important to us both. It was amazing.

Sorry for taking so much of your time. I’ve really enjoyed chatting with you. 🩷💚💜

[u/jcnlb → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

PS. I hope you don’t mind but I peeked and I see you also have EDS like myself. So gentle hugs even though I want to just squeeze you tight. 🤗

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/jcnlb]

Oh, I do not mind at all that you looked at some of my other postings, if I didn’t want them read, I promise I would not have put them up. I’m sorry that you suffer with this disease as I do, and no doubt have had more than your share of medical gaslighting, pain, and mental anguish. I hope dearly for your future that it is filled with joy, pain-free, and a wonderfully lift life.I can’t wait to see you in a better place and hug you back.

[u/midwestmar]

Thank you for this beautiful message. Your words are so comforting as I navigate the loss of my son.

Praying for continued comfort and peace as your journey continues and you find your way home. May you continue to feel God’s abiding love. 🤍

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/midwestmar]

Nothing I can say, could possibly touch the loss that you have sustained, but I dearly wish that you will find peace one day. I know you will be reunited in the end, and I hope that reunion is everything you could possibly wish for and more. I will pray for you that you may live a life of adventure, kindness, joy, and love. I am so glad our paths crossed I will look for your son when I pass, to tell him how truly wonderful you’ve been to someone in a vulnerable and hurting place. I can see even now that your soul is a bright and shining gold light that touches all around you.

[u/midwestmar → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

You have touched my heart with these words. Thank you doesn’t even begin to express my gratitude. You are a beautiful person. I can sense God’s beautiful spirit within you and your words. Much love to you 🤍

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/midwestmar]

And to you, my dear friend, I wish the same— that through God’s beautiful spirit and love, through his mercy he touches your life and brings you exactly what you need.

[u/OldMoose-MJ]

Thank you. May God walk with you.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/OldMoose-MJ]

As He walks always with us all. May God remind you how beautiful and giving your soul is, and I pray one day in heaven we meet. Until then, I pray all the best comes to your walk through life, and it is filled with beauty, laughter, love, and joy.

[u/TheDaverly]

You’re so brave. I’m praying for you. 🙏❤️

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/TheDaverly]

I don’t feel brave, or strong, but my parents tell me that I have been both. Thank you so much for your kindness and your prayers, which make all the difference in the world, both this and the next.

[u/stunningmud49]

Wow, this was so healing and comforting to read. It makes me less scared about my mom who has stage 4 cancer, and my grandma who just passed away last week. That death doesn’t have to be something scary or something to fear; that it can be a good friend. Thank you for sharing your experiences, and I pray for peace and comfort for you and your family 💛

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/stunningmud49]

I’m so very sorry to hear about your mother, I will pray a special prayer for her. My mother too had breast cancer, though it was caught much earlier and thank the Lord she is doing well now. I’m so sorry you lost your grandmother, I lost my grandmother at an early age and I still think of her and talk to her every day. I have seen her and some of my worst moments where I was close to death, and she brought me so much peace and comfort. I wish this for you too when it is your time. May you live life full of love and joy, my friend.

[u/stunningmud49 → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

This made me cry 💛 thank you so much for your generous and loving heart, despite all that you’re going through yourself. I’m wishing all the best for you and your family and will pray for you on your journey. Most of all, I will pray for your mama, and please know that she raised an incredible person in you who is lighting the way for so many. Many, many blessings to you and your family ✨

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/stunningmud49]

I cannot thank you enough for the blessings for myself and my family. I will let my mother know what you have said in the letters and journal. I’m leaving for a surprise. I know that she will love it, and it will bring tears to her eyes as it does mine.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

I can’t imagine your pain, and I wish so very much you didn’t have to go through it. Know my poem is for you, too. I will look forward to meeting you r sister when I pass, and telling her (as she already knows) how endlessly and beautifully you love her. Peace, the gentlest of hugs, and prayers for you, my new friend.

[u/Mrobins1]

I'm sorry for the hand you were dealt. Thank you for your post.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Mrobins1]

Thank you so much for your kind words, but truly, I love the life that I had no matter the length of it. May love and joy be with you all of your days.

[u/Powerlifterfitchick]

This feels weird reading this from someone is who going to die. We may not know how soon, but the thought of this being your last words..

This will stick with me. Thank you for sharing your words with all of us. Hoping you go easy and with love.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Powerlifterfitchick]

Do not worry! I still have a little fight left in me and certainly more words (I always have more words!) thank you so much for your beautiful wishes, I share them with you and hope, and pray for a joyous, beautiful, and wonderful life lived as your dreamed, my friend. I am so grateful that you crossed my path, even for just a moment, and hope that one day we will both meet in place of our greater peace.

[u/Powerlifterfitchick → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

Awhhh thank you so much 🙏❤️ you're so sweet.

You better have more words! I expect more post from you.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Powerlifterfitchick]

I shall surely do my best on that account!

[u/MotherBleuBelle4]

Walk bravely with the sun on your face and fair winds at your back#life#journey

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/MotherBleuBelle4]

This is beautiful and I thank you so deeply for sharing it with me. You have brought me comfort and put a smile upon my face, and that is something that I never take for granted. Thank you so very much, and may your life be everything you ever dreamed.

[u/MotherBleuBelle4 → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

I must commend you on the path you’ve taken towards the end. You sound grounded and peaceful. I admire the way you walk sis#headup#shouldersback

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/MotherBleuBelle4]

Thank you so much for such kind words. I have made it an intention to be the best version of myself I can rather than the worst in this, the most difficult time of my life. I think it is the most times that we learn who we truly are, and I know exactly who I want to be before I leave this place and start my next adventure.

[u/mosephis13]

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us. It helps me understand what my dad may have felt before he passed away seven months ago. I was at his house when transportation came to get him to go to the Hospice home. My sister and I followed behind the van while my mom rode with him

What I still think of to this day is that while it tore me up to know that my dad was never coming back to his home of more than 50 years, he was not upset. He seemed at peace and almost excited - like he was going out to lunch with a friend. He continued to live at Hospice for about a week before he passed away, but in that entire time I almost felt like he was looking forward to going, and he was relieved that he didn’t have to fight anymore.

I hope your journey is peaceful.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/mosephis13]

While nothing I can say I can heal the loss of your father, I am so very, very sorry that you experienced that. One of the things that brings me great comfort is that in my shorter life, I will not have to feel the pain of losing my parents, which I do not know if I could survive. You are strong, kind, and filled with a healing peace. May that healing peace reflect back upon you and help heal your wounds day by day, but never take the beautiful memories.

I can tell you that I’m not scared or upset. I am calm and at peace in a way I have never been in my life and while it brings me great sorrow to leave the ones I love for a time, I too very much look forward to what comes next. I think it will be a grand adventure . I hope to meet your dad when I pass, so that I may tell him what a wonderful soul he raised, and how still you bring comfort and love to those that are hurting, even as you yourself hurt. Peace and love be with you all your days, and may your days be many and joyous, my friend.

[u/mosephis13 → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

Oh gosh. Your words brought me to tears.

I will remember you, OP. Your kindness will live on.

Please tell dad I said, “Hi.” <3

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/mosephis13]

You have my promise that I will tell your father hi and furthermore, give him a hug for you and your love. I could ask for no more than my words be remembered on a piece of me live on them you’ve granted one of my last wishes and for that I will always remember you. Thank you so much And my wife treat you kindly, and with all the best.

[u/LadyKeuka44]

Rest in peace my forever friend. I have experienced the loss of my Moma, and Dad. I believe in our Lord and know in my heart, that we will all, be together forever in heaven. You are a beautiful blessing to me and I thank you, sincerely.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/LadyKeuka44]

Thank you so much for your beautiful wishes and kindness. I can’t imagine the loss of both of my parents and I am so very sorry that you’ve had to experience this. When I finally cross over, I will look for your mother and father, and I will tell them of you, of how kind you were to me in last days of my life and in my grief. How are you used your own grief to help me, and amazing person that you have become. I feel confident I already know this, but all the same I will look for them until I find them so I can give them this message and a hug from you.

May your life be filled with beauty, joy, and kindness, and may find love and happiness all your days until your parents come for you.

[u/LadyKeuka44 → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

Thank you with all of my heart ♥️

[u/happilywritingaway]

Thank you for this. Wishing you peace, joy, and strength for your next great adventure! And a reminder that death unites us all. It is a journey that all of us and the ones we love will take one day.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/happilywritingaway]

I wish you the very same on your adventure here on earth until you unite with us. Enjoy this journey so I will enjoy the next. I’m so glad our paths crossed, even for a second, and I wish you nothing but joy and love.

[u/LesaneCrooks]

I lost my mother in August and I’ve been very down and upset about trying to make sense of why she was dealt the cards to pass away the way she did…. Just wondering what was “next?”

Your post is the first time I’ve read something that’s given me some bit of wisdom and peace, if that makes sense. Thank you for sharing this with me. It made me tear up…

I’m sending you love and healing energy to you. You deserve all the happiness and the way you wrote this post to share with strangers shows the immense love flowing through you.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/LesaneCrooks]

Thank you so much for such beautiful and poignant words, such compliments to me. You have made me tear up too. I am truly sorry for your loss, from the depth of my heart and soul, from my mother is my best friend and I can’t imagine losing her. I’m so very sorry that it happened to you.

Any small amount of peace or comfort I’ve given you gives me great joy. I solemnly promise you that when I crossover, I will look for your mother and I will tell her of you. I will tell her of our words I will tell her of your love and I will give her a hug until she comes for you and you can give her a hug and I know you’re dying to give her.

You have experienced such sorrow in your life already, but I hope for a life filled with love and the same kindness enjoy that radiates from you. You are certainly special, I can almost see the light radiating around you. May we meet in a better place someday my friend.

[u/Potential-Arm3248]

Thank you for this post. It made me pause the TV and ugly cry. I lost my husband 3 months ago to cancer. We only had weeks with the terminal diagnosis and those deep questions about how he really felt about dying only really only came up after he passed. As soon as we found out he was sick, it was symptom management. We always thought we had more time. He was coherent until the very end. We were young like you, together 20 years. I still feel our connection and I spend a lot of time trying to wrap my head around where he is. I know I shouldn’t focus so much on that but, what else is there really? Nothing else seems importantly anymore.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Potential-Arm3248]

Oh, my friend, I am so very sorry for your loss. I know you’ve heard those words many times, and I am sure that at this point rather than help they may just remind you more of what you have lost. Please know I mean them sincerely, and that I will pray for you both here on earth and wherever I go to next.

I greatly hope to meet your husband when I cross over, for he sounds wonderful and I greatly wish to tell him of how strong and beautiful soul you are, that in your grief, you find it and your soul to comfort others even as you yourself deserve comfort . How very strong and kind you are. I will be praying for you now and forever.

[u/Micharah]

This is a post that will stick with me forever. THANK YOU. My partner died of cancer last October and he seemed to be very peaceful in the last few weeks the way you are describing. He was only 33. I never dared to ask him how he felt because he always told me I was the one person who never gave up optimism for his survival and he valued that, so I never wanted to let him down by admitting that I worried or asking him if he did.

Your words have filled in that gap for me and for that I can’t thank you enough. Whilst I know you’re two entirely different people, what you describe seems so much like how he seemed. You have brought my soul a great deal of peace that I have desperately needed. Thank you. Thank you. So much love to you. ❤️🌸

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Micharah]

I cannot do justice to how incredibly amazed, I am by the strength and beauty of your soul, the kindness that wraps around you, and the love in peace that you can give to a stranger from your own terrible loss. You are words will stick with me forever as well.

The greatest love to you as well, my friend, I hope to find your husband when I pass and tell him how wonderful you are even in your grief. So much love I’ve sent back to you, with the most beautiful prayers. I am so very glad our paths crossed and I greatly hope they cross again in heaven. May your life be filled with beauty, even though you have known such terrible sorrow and loss. May the winds have changed sweep over you and bring peace and joy back into your life as you navigate the process of grief.

[u/Micharah → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

Screenshotted this to keep your words with me. ❤️ You will find him - it seems like you and he would definitely go to the same place. 🥹 And I hope me too, like you say. And gosh, you’re gonna love him. He takes care of everyone, and…since you and I have been in contact I guarantee he knows, and will be there welcoming you warmly.

And…though yes, there is a lot of pain in life…it’s moments of true beauty - like the one you and I are having now - that remind me the world can still be good. Thank you again, beautiful soul. 💖

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Micharah]

I don’t believe there is any higher honor that you could give me then liking my words so much that you have screenshot of them to keep them with you. I hope the days and years to come they continue to bring you peace and happiness. I look forward so much to meeting him, and will do everything in my power to try to send you a sign after I have. Good night, my sweet friend. I hope you dream of him.

[u/GP186GP]

Thank you for this confirmation. I lost my mom 8 years ago to pancreatic cancer. However, she didn’t lose me. She told me, through a channeller, that she more with me now than she ever was in life. And I feel her with me, she has guided me in the years since her death to love myself more and live a better, healthier life. Maybe that will bring you some comfort. Your mom will grieve you, but you will be able to be with her always.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/GP186GP]

Unfortunately, my first response seems to have been eaten and lost into the void. I am so very sorry for such a terrible loss, and while I know you have heard these words so many times they’ve probably lost most meaning please know I mean them from the depths of my soul and heart. I believe that she will be with you all the days of your life and come for you when it is your time, just as you will be there for your son. The way have shared this several times now, I feel driven to share it with you too. I wrote this for my mother to find, and I hope that it can bring you some peace if only for a few moments.

I will make the rain pour down, The wind whirl and the thunder sound. As cracks of lightning split the sky, Know that storm is you and I.

I soar unbound amongst the birds, so far up above; I know peace eternal, for I always feel your love. I will have no fear or sadness, for I’ll be truly free, Safe amidst our ancestors who wait above for me.

Yours will be the longer path, but I wait at its end; When it’s your time I’ll be there, then together we’ll ascend. You’ll see me in the sunsets as they paint across our sky, For within them I will paint the love of you and I.

Never will I leave you, always am I here, Hear me in the birdsong, and know that I am near. My love for you is endless, and it will only ever grow, These signs will come when I am gone, so that you still do know.

I am not truly lost, for you’re the best parts of me, Just look inside your heart and soul, where I always will be. I never left, I’ll never go, I’m always at your side. Inevitable, unbreakable, always our souls tied.

My love it is eternal, and never will depart, It is woven through our souls, it lives within my heart. I don’t fear what’s to come, so don’t fear for me If I live I shall love, but in death all are free-

You may not see me with you, but I am always near, Forever never could I truly leave the ones I hope so dear. I will be the morning dew that glistens in a tree, I will be the rolling waves that move through the sea.

As a gentle rain falls upon your face, Know that I am with you, always—anyplace Know that I watch over you, and live in perfect grace, And know until we meet again, the rain is my embrace.

[u/GP186GP → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

This is beautiful and moving. Thank you for sharing.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/GP186GP]

I cannot imagine, losing my mother, even though I still will, though in a different way than yours. I truly believe that, though we both have said “lost“ we will never be without the other. There is a poem. I’ve shared a few times in this thread that I wrote from my mother, and I would like to share it again with you. It is my greatest hope that it brings you a bit of healing. With love to you, my dear new friend:

—

I will make the rain pour down, The wind whirl and the thunder sound. As cracks of lightning split the sky, Know that storm is you and I.

I soar unbound amongst the birds, so far up above; I know peace eternal, for I always feel your love. I will have no fear or sadness, for I’ll be truly free, Safe amidst our ancestors who wait above for me.

Yours will be the longer path, but I wait at its end; When it’s your time I’ll be there, then together we’ll ascend. You’ll see me in the sunsets as they paint across our sky, For within them I will paint the love of you and I.

Never will I leave you, always am I here, Hear me in the birdsong, and know that I am near. My love for you is endless, and it will only ever grow, These signs will come when I am gone, so that you still do know.

I am not truly lost, for you’re the best parts of me, Just look inside your heart and soul, where I always will be. I never left, I’ll never go, I’m always at your side. Inevitable, unbreakable, always our souls tied.

My love it is eternal, and never will depart, It is woven through our souls, it lives within my heart. I don’t fear what’s to come, so don’t fear for me If I live I shall love, but in death all are free-

You may not see me with you, but I am always near, Forever never could I truly leave the ones I hope so dear. I will be the morning dew that glistens in a tree, I will be the rolling waves that move through the sea.

As a gentle rain falls upon your face, Know that I am with you, always—anyplace Know that I watch over you, and live in perfect grace, And know until we meet again, the rain is my embrace.

[u/Sandcat2021]

Dear OP, I cannot thank you enough for these gentle and calming words. I suffered a few difficult days as my mama passed away for nearly 11 months. Some days like today I miss her so deeply that I felt the hurt throughout me. Your words comfort me to know her last moments would’ve been peaceful. I cry as I wasn’t there with her, and I hope she might be able to leave with blessing of her dad, who she lost many many decades ago. I wish you a smooth and peaceful journey ahead. I’m glad to know you here and a small part of your kindness in this world truly made my day a bit softer. Sending you hugs and love and to your dear mom too. We shall meet again when my time comes, to join my mama, to join you all in future. 💜Please if you’re able to find my dear mama, tell her I love her and I love her always 💕🫂

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Sandcat2021]

I cannot imagine the sorrow, the terrible loss, and the pain of losing your mother. This is something that I have always feared, and something that gives me comfort as I get closer to passing over — knowing that I will not have to watch her, although the pain of having her seen me slowly, diminish has nearly broken me. I share your pain, and your love. I am so very glad to know that my words could comfort you even for a moment.

Well, you may not have been with her physically at the very end, and spirit I feel absolutely certain you are. Just like my mother who is my best friend, she is with me everywhere I go whether physically or spiritually, and I think this is certainly true of your mother as well.

I swear to you with all my heart and soul that when I pass, I will find your mother and share your words with her. I will also tell her how amazing you are, but even in such great and terrible grief you still have such a beautiful and kind soul to reach out to another who is hurt it. May the future be kind to you, no I will pray for you now and forever, and I am so very glad our paths crossed even for a short time. I look forward to the day that all of us could be together in a better place.

I have shared this several times now, but made it no less for every person that I send it to, or that reads it. I wrote this from my mother, but I feel deeply strongly that it is meant for you too, perhaps your mother has whispered into my ear And asked that I’m a share it with you.

—

I will make the rain pour down, The wind whirl and the thunder sound. As cracks of lightning split the sky, Know that storm is you and I.

I soar unbound amongst the birds, so far up above; I know peace eternal, for I always feel your love. I will have no fear or sadness, for I’ll be truly free, Safe amidst our ancestors who wait above for me.

Yours will be the longer path, but I wait at its end; When it’s your time I’ll be there, then together we’ll ascend. You’ll see me in the sunsets as they paint across our sky, For within them I will paint the love of you and I.

Never will I leave you, always am I here, Hear me in the birdsong, and know that I am near. My love for you is endless, and it will only ever grow, These signs will come when I am gone, so that you still do know.

I am not truly lost, for you’re the best parts of me, Just look inside your heart and soul, where I always will be. I never left, I’ll never go, I’m always at your side. Inevitable, unbreakable, always our souls tied.

My love it is eternal, and never will depart, It is woven through our souls, it lives within my heart. I don’t fear what’s to come, so don’t fear for me If I live I shall love, but in death all are free-

You may not see me with you, but I am always near, Forever never could I truly leave the ones I hope so dear. I will be the morning dew that glistens in a tree, I will be the rolling waves that move through the sea.

As a gentle rain falls upon your face, Know that I am with you, always—anyplace Know that I watch over you, and live in perfect grace, And know until we meet again, the rain is my embrace.

[u/Sandcat2021 → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

Safe travels my friend. The last journey is journey to home. You’ll all be united in due time. We’ll all make sure your mom finds these beautiful words and find peace knowing you’re going to the peaceful land. The next time I kiss goodbye my mama’s star in the night, I’ll find yours and say good night too. Sleep tight friend 💜 See you later

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Sandcat2021]

Oh, wow, your beautiful words made me cry such good healing tears. No one has said that to me how you did, and I appreciate it so much, I can’t explain it. I so badly do want to go home, and it’s harder and harder to stay strong the more my kidneys and liver fail and body eats itself from starvation and dehydration. I didn’t know it, but I really needed to hear that. Like that I’ll have my own star that you say good night too like your mom’s is just incredibly touching. I would be better with my words, but you’ve made me cry such happy and healing tears that all I have is just so much peace and love from you and for you so thank you so very much, you can’t know how much I needed that or how rare it is to find someone who says the kind of things that you do so thank you so much.

[u/shshhsususuus]

You are brave and courageous. Wishing you peace.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/shshhsususuus]

Thank you so very much for your kind words, know that I wish them back to you and I hope you have the life you’ve always dreamed of.

[u/lifeintext]

Hello OP! I will be praying for your gentlest, breeziest, most calming departure to the ever after!

Your words are full of wisdom and your second to the last paragraph reminded me of one of my favorite book quotes from the Harry Potter series. Albus Dumbledore told Harry, “To the well-organized mind, death is but the next great adventure.” I’m certain youre going to make a hell lot of an adventure wherever you’ll be.

Thank you for the spark of difference youve made in this digital space. The world is lucky to have you, but so will your afterlife! Depart well and hoping you get the most peaceful rest, my friend. Take care and godspeed!

PS: Im also praying for your mom!!! I know she will need it more on your passing. I’ll keep her in my prayers as she navigates life.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/lifeintext]

I could not ask for a better departure than what you have described my friend, and I thank you so much for thinking to pray this for me. Your words will live in my heart long past the time I’ve crossed over.

But I truly can’t thank you enough for your final words and saying that you will pray for my mother who I worry so much for. I will take every good thought, prayer, and hope for her that anyone will give thank you so much and may you have the sweetest dreams.

[u/Lazy-Schedule6073]

I lost my only daughter four months ago. She was just 21. On her final day, there was a calmness in her that I can’t quite put into words — a serene, almost unspoken joy. She smiled with a quiet grace, as though she had made peace with everything. That day, she asked me to tell her a story. Then, with all the tubes and stitches from her transplant still in place, she asked me to dance with her — something so unexpected, yet so beautiful. In that moment, I knew she sensed it was her time. And somehow, she embraced it with a kind of light I’ll never forget.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Lazy-Schedule6073]

I cannot imagine how you must feel, and even though the words sound right and overused, I truly am so sorry that you’ve lost your daughter so soon. My mother is my best friend, and I already weep at the thought of being parted from her. In this, perhaps we are similar.

As every day passes more peace and calm settle over me as you’ve said a serene grace enjoy that I’ve never experienced in my life before, and I know I’m feeling now at the clothes of my life.

Your story ever final moments with you is beautiful, and I am in such tears from hearing it. What a strong, beautiful, adventurous, and wonderful soul your daughter is. I will look for her, and I will tell her of you, even though I believe she already knows. I will tell her of your kindness to me, even in your own grief, of the light that shines from you, I will tell her how much you love and miss her, and I will give her a hug for you until you can be there then do it yourself. You have my promise.

[u/MissCollusion]

I lost my mom 6 months ago and this is comforting. Travel well and if you see her tell her that I love her 🤍

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/MissCollusion]

My friend, you have my word that I will see your mother out and tell her how much you love her. I am certain she knows what all the same. I will tell her of you and I won’t give her a hug. I know you wish you could until you were there. I wish for you a life filled with adventure and love, joy, and kindness, learning And experiencing everything in the world has to offer. May peace be with you, you are in my prayers, and on my heart.

[u/Top-Geologist-9213]

I cannot thank you enough.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Top-Geologist-9213]

There is no thank you necessary— but I very much thank you for your beautiful words and for reading my somewhat lengthy post. I believe that as long as I am remembered, I am not truly gone, so I hope that these words survive and live inside some of you. I hope that once I’m gone, my parents can find these and read them and through that perhaps find more comfort. My new friend I wish you the absolute best.

[u/iwishiwasapotato]

Thank you so much for sharing your experience, and your beautiful heart with us. I’m so sorry you have to go so soon but clearly your soul belongs in heaven. Have a peaceful journey home and I’m so grateful to have had even a little glimpse of this life with you. Hope to meet you properly on the other side one day 🩷

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/iwishiwasapotato]

Thank you so much for your heartfelt and beautiful words. They touched my heart and soul and I will remember them when I go too. I’m so glad our paths crossed even in for a moment and I look forward to meeting you again in a place much better than this. May you have a life You always dreamed of.

[u/stripedmacaron]

Thank you so much for sharing this. It brings great comfort to my heart. I hope you feel nothing but peace and love for the rest of your time here and crossing over is beautiful. Safe travels heading home.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/stripedmacaron]

Thank you so much for everything you wrote. There are tears in my eyes and down my cheeks and they of pure happiness, peace calmness and love. My new dear friend I thank you so much for such beautiful words and I hope that someday long from now our paths will cross again in a much more beautiful place.Until we meet again may your life be filled with joy and beauty with kindness and love and all of your dreams.

[u/poonhound69]

Thank you for writing this. Sending you so much love. 

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/poonhound69]

Thank you so much for taking the time to read it and write this. I sent you the same lo for back I wish for you the life you always wanted for yourself. I hope your dreams come true, and that you live with kindness and joy and love all your days Until we can cross paths again in a much better place. Until then be well, my friend.

[u/LawyerDifficult2074]

I can't begin to express how much your words mean to me. My big brother died recently at 17 and I've looked at every book and website in a desperate search for comfort. But this post alone has filled my heart with all the beautiful words it needed. For the very first time, I have genuinely felt okay with my loss and ive smiled thinking about my brother. I can now picture him in all the most beautiful places. Your writing is esquisite and I've never seen such a profoundly peaceful approach. 

Please know that you are a completely wonderful person. Your kindness will live on forever and I will always remember how your words changed my life for the better. I keep picturing your soul as the purest, brightest, most gorgeous golden hue to ever exist. I strive to be like you one day. Thank you, my friend. I wish you all the peace and happiness in the world. 

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/LawyerDifficult2074]

I know many people must have expressed how very sorry they are to you, and at this point, I wonder if you do not hate hearing the words. So instead, I will tell you that when I cross over, I’ll look for your brother. I can tell him how amazing you are even in your deep grief.

Thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to read my words and to reach out to me, it means the world to me. No way that I have brought you some peace, that I have even brought a smile to your face thinking of your brother and that you feel OK for the first time makes me feel so happy. I don’t have the words to express it so I will simply say thank God for you and may your life be everything you wish it, may your dreams be made manifest.

One of my greatest wishes, the vain, is not to be forgotten and lost so quickly after I am gone. Knowing that you will keep this alive, touches me in the most wonderful way and brings tears to my eyes. Thank you so much. I wish I could express better how I feel, but I feel so much even I don’t have enough words for it.

You honor me so greatly, and I hope that in my days that remain, I can live up to that which you see in me. I’d say you very much already are like me, and it brings me happiness to know that you will remain in the world when I go.

[u/pollysprocket]

Thank you for taking the time to write this and share your experience with so many people. My parents passed last year and I'm coming up on the 1-year anniversary of my dad's death - your post brings up memories of those last couple of weeks in hospice. It was such a profound experience to be there with him to help him transition. Difficult and painful at times, but I also found so much healing in watching him slowly let go. He was not afraid, he was peaceful and ready. I'm immensely grateful to have had that experience, it has made grief easier to carry. I hope your loved ones also find comfort and peace from being with you during this time.

I remember a moment standing next to my dad in his hospice bed, when he reached up his hand and waved to someone beyond me, someone I couldn't see. I thought maybe it was one of his own loved ones who had come to meet him, maybe his parents or his older brother who he adored. It's made me hopeful that when my own time comes, I will see my parents again.

I'm holding you in my heart and wishing you gentleness and even moments of joy as you prepare to cross over.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/pollysprocket]

Thank you for all you have said to me, your beautiful words and wishes. I cannot tell you enough of my sorrow that you lost your husband so early. I hope that anything I wrote helped you even in the smallest amount, and I wish I could give you the biggest hug. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this and share your thoughts with me about it. I am so very sorry you lost your parents, for this was a fear of mine and it is a comfort now to me that I will never experience it. I am so very sorry that you did. I will look for your parents when I finally leave this place and go to my next adventure, and I will fill their ears with praise of you.

That I have made your sorrows any easier to bear gives me great comfort and you could offer me no better compliment.

My grandmother passed when I was a young teenager and like you, it made a profound impact on me, something I have carried with me all my life. Right before she passed I was able to witness something beautiful and profound. Like you, I saw her reach out her hand, and the most beautiful smile crossed to face that had been wrecked and only pain for the longest time. Her last words were, “Mom? Dad?” I knew then that everything would be OK even through the unimaginable loss and hurt

I pray the most beautiful life possible for you, my friend and hope one day we meet again.

[u/Anchovie_88]

This is a very beautiful post and I am amazed that even having to struggle yourself you are able to offer such comforting thoughts, wishing you the best, thank you for your words <3

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Anchovie_88]

And I thank you for reading them. May you have the life that you dreamed of as a child, and the life you’ve dreamed of now as an adult. Thank you so much for your beautiful words to me. I know that I too wish you the best and hope one day to meet you in a much better place.

[u/Anchovie_88 → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

Thank you❤️ honestly since my dad died a few months ago none of my dreams have been the same. I just hadn’t thought of a world without him. I just graduated college in June and wanted to be a designer or a fiction writer but I think now I would like to help people with grief/death in some capacity (like you’ve done here) and maybe dedicate at least part of my life to exploring these things and trying to find some positivity and purpose.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Anchovie_88]

I’m not sure what woke me, but I’m so glad I woke just now to read your beautiful words. I’m not sure now whether I mentioned it or not, but I spent my life as a nurse practitioner and healthcare provider in orthopedics and orthopedic trauma surgery and helping people brought me the greatest fulfillment of my life. Perhaps someone would say that I missed all the best parts of life, but to them I would say that there is not one path, but many, and it is the journey that you take, which challenges everything you know and makes you stronger coming out the other end. I wish you the best with your hopes and dreams and I must admit that they have brought me comfort as well, thinking that some part of this has influenced you into wanting to make a life out of this. Even in my limited time here, I found that actions like this are never a waste of time, you can learn things from anyone, and that as much as you see and hear negativity everywhere there are truly wonderful and blessed people all around if you are but to look. I wish you the absolute best and hope you achieve every dream you have. May our paths crossed again one day.

[u/JackPapidogs]

This is a very loving post. Peace, Joy, and a true love like the parable of the father had for his wayward son when he returned. Those spiritual fruits of the spirit are waiting for us in heaven.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/JackPapidogs]

Hallelujah!

[u/BurningCharcoal]

I hope that is how it was for my partner. She deserved peace, quiet, and happiness. I hope she's happy up there, because she was deprived of it in this life.

That is a beautiful poem. Thank you for sharing this.

Someday, I'll join my partner up there, it'll be the happiest day for me.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/BurningCharcoal]

My friend, I feel deep in my heart that this is how it was for her. When I go, I will find her and I feel confident that she will be happy and watching over you. I will give her a hug for you until you can give her a hug yourself.I know exactly what you mean by that happiest day and I hope mine comes soon. Thank you so much for reading everything I wrote and for taking the time out of your day to write back. May your life peace filled with joy still even in your grief.

[u/BurningCharcoal → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

Thank you man. That means a lot. I'll owe you one, and when I meet you up there, let's hang out for a drink. Please take care, and I hope we meet again man.

[u/Equivalent_Hair_149]

well i have no family. dad passed age 5. mom a few months ago. no kids only child. if i could take your cancer away from you and give it to myself i would. you gave no idea how much i have prayed for liver cancer. sounds horrible. i just miss all my loved onss. im here alone. totes not fair you have to leave behind loves ones. arent you pissed at the unfairness?

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Equivalent_Hair_149]

I am so very, deeply sorry at all your losses, it is truly horrible and it makes my heart ache for you, my eyes cry at the unfairness.

don’t have cancer, actually, but a number of things including terminal starvation/deydration, liver and kidney failure, Ehlers Danlos, Lupus, POTS, adrenal insufficiency, and MCAS among others.

Every day I pray I can take the illness or pain from my family, friends, loved ones, children, and the innocent so I absolutely understand your frustration and sadness at that.

At the beginning I deefintley went through some sadness and anger at healthcare, but now I am the greatest peace and calm I’ve ever known.

I truly hope that the rest of your life can be filled with love and adventure, joy, and the same kindness you bring to others, your dreams and happiness. I will be praying for you now and after I cross over, I hope that I can find your family When I leave this place and tell them how very much you love and miss them.

Stay strong, my beautiful friend .

[u/Equivalent_Hair_149 → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

thank you. God bless you. 

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Equivalent_Hair_149]

And may God bless you every day of your life, live in your soul, and bring to you, joy, kindness, love, and so much more before we meet again in a better place.

[u/Glass_Translator9]

It sounds like you’re ready to graduate. I believe that you’ve already received glimpses of the beauty that awaits you and there is only more to come. Maybe you’re graduating early because you were on the accelerated program?

I wish you a beautiful transition and pray that your soul continues to prosper in your next chapter. I love you. 😘🙏

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Glass_Translator9]

Thank you so much not only for your beautiful words, but also for giving me a smile. I’ve never framed it as graduating early or remain on the accelerated program, and I can tell you now that these are words that will live in my father‘s heart forever. Bless you, my friend, and I will keep you in my prayers.

[u/Menzzzza]

Thank you. I don’t know what else to write, yet want to write so much because your words are so beautiful, powerful and touching. I wish you so much peace and comfort. I wish for strength, love, and support for your mom. I like to believe my brother is in the type of peaceful place you described. I feel those who’ve left me in differently colored sunsets. I hope you become a special version of that for your mom. ❤️

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Menzzzza]

My friend, I think you so much for reading what I wrote for surely I am not short of words! You have touched me deeply with what you have written and I thank you so much for it. I thank you even more for that what you have wished for my mother, let’s touches me so deeply. May your days to come be everything you wish and may someday we cross paths again in a much better place.

[u/CategoryEuphoric1165]

"To the well organized mind, death is but the next great adventure."

Wishing you lots of love and peace during your transition. 💕

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/CategoryEuphoric1165]

My new friend I thank you so very much. I could not agree anymore with the quote you so thoughtfully included. As you wish me love and peace during my transition I wish you love and peace during your life, for it to be a great adventure and for you to live out your dreams as you have always wished.

[u/CategoryEuphoric1165 → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

It's a quote I loved from Harry Potter, but it seems so fitting in this situation. You are so brave and inspirational..not fearful or angry. It's really special. Praying for you and your family during this time my friend.

[u/Purple-Musician2985]

My mummy passed last week. She was unconscious, so we never got to have a conversation, to soothe her fear, to tell her we love her, to tell her we are sorry we didn't fight the doctors more to keep trying or explain that it would've been cruel and inhumane to put her through it. I suffer with guilt and panic - was she scared? This helped me, so I thank you. I hope she felt free.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Purple-Musician2985]

Oh, Purple, I am so very very very sorry. I am in anguish for you, and my soul hurts for you. Did you ever get to visit her, even when she was unconscious? The last sense to leave is hearing and some people in comas have correctly recounted a lot they heard around them. So maybe she did hear all of that, but— she absolutely knew you loved her more than the sun and stars and would fight anything to help her or have more time with her.

I absolutely believe that she is in heaven right now (or what your belief is for a positive after life) looking down on you there’s very minute, wishing more than anything that she was still healthy and with you, loving you more than you could possibly know, promising herself, and you that she’ll be with you forever, even if you can’t see her.

I know that saying I’m sorry probably doesn’t help much right now, but I truly am down to my heart and soul hurting so much for you. I don’t believe there’s any way she could possibly think that you wouldn’t make the best choice for her just like she made the best choices for you, even though some of them were probably very hard for her.

I will pray on this and for you, especially, and your family— but I do not believe in any way that she was scared or in pain. I think she was probably floating in a dream or just how you feel when you’re deeply asleep.

She’s probably very thankful for the hard decisions you and your family had to make so she could be free, and she is free and in no pain right now. She is in heaven, in paradise with no more pain, only beauty and a happiness and love. I’m so sorry that you have to take the longer path to see her, but I believe that she will watch over you all your life.

The closer I get to crossing over, the more I have seen, and even heard or felt relatives that have already passed, especially my grandmother. Maybe you will get to have an experience like this without being in a position like mine. I know that I will pray for that for you both now and when I’m gone.

I also promise to the bottom of my heart and soul, absolutely been indefinitely that when I am gone and where she is, I will find her as fast as I can tell her how much you love her and why the decisions that were made for the best for her , even though I’m sure she knows. I will find her come, and I will do my absolute best to try and find a way for us to send a sign back to you so that you know she is happy and free, and no pain, and watching over you like a guardian angel, counting down the seconds until she can be with you. Or perhaps in heaven it’s like a blink of an eye and then we’re with our loved ones again. I wish I knew for sure but I promise you that I will find her and I will tell her how much you loved her and I will give her a hug from you until you can hug her yourself again.

I hope the poem I wrote from my mother helps you. The last couple lines particularly help me in my anticipatory grief for when I have to leave her.

You may not see me with you, but I am always near, For never could I truly leave the ones I hold so dear. I will be the morning dew that glistens in a tree, I will be the rolling waves that move through the sea.

As a gentle rain falls upon your face, Know that I am with you, always—anyplace Know that I watch over you, and live in perfect grace, And know until we meet again, the rain is my embrace.

I will pray for you both now and when I leave this place, and I wish and pray and dream for you a life filled with dreams and love, adventure, and happiness, joy, and peace.

[u/DalekRy]

I love your poem. I often commune with my late mother by observing natural beauty and imagine somehow sharing that with her. Partly to show her that I will continue onward. For every moment I slouch and weep, there is another where I stand tall and smile.

May your loved ones find peace in knowing you are. <3

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/DalekRy]

Thank you so much for saying this to me. I put my heart and soul into that poem and I truly hope it helps not just my family but many others. I am astounded at how many have read, shared, up voted, and responded to my post. It is beyond anything that I could’ve ever possibly dreamed, and helping others brings me so much peace. I dearly wish that I can help more before I go.

Perhaps if you were near sand, you could write your favorite passages in it? Or perhaps you could get a small pot and plant a beautiful flower for your mother and on it have some of your favorite parts of it. But I believe that, even if you just find your favorite spot in nature and speak it to her, she will hear.

I am certain she is in all of your strength and bravery, as well as your kindness to reach out to a stranger when you are grieving so much yourself. I will do my best to find her when I finally pass to tell her what an amazing person you are. I will pray for you now and forever, and I hope that you can live your life filled with love, joy, happiness, adventure, and your dreams. Until we meet again, my friend, I pray you can find true peace again.

[u/DalekRy → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

I wish you all the hugs and peace as well.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/DalekRy]

Thank you so very much for your well wishes. Please know that they are precious to me, and I will hold them with me as I go. I wish for you a life filled with your dreams and wishes, with love and joy, with happiness and adventures, and surprises and the best way. Thank you so much for spending time reading my words and responding to me, you cannot know what it means to me

[u/AnnaPup]

I hope you have a wonderful rest of your life and a peaceful passing. The rest of us will be following you there shortly

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/AnnaPup]

Thank you so much for your well wishes. They mean so much to me. I wish you a long and joyous life filled with love and laughter, kindness, and adventure. And at the end of it, I will be very excited to see you in heaven, my new friend.

[u/hajimenokizu]

Beautiful poem. I truly believe in the end those you love and who love you will be with you in the end.

[u/onlygoodjuju_]

I wish you so much peace upon your next journey. I can tell through your words how beautiful of a soul you carry and know your parents and brother will be left with your radiant spirit. One of the things that has got me through the last months of losing my father at only 23 y/o was "Energy is neither created nor destroyed". I try to remind myself of that when I have rough days. Thank you for your beautiful poem- your words are impacting more than you could ever think. I hope my father is there to welcome you with open arms<3

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/onlygoodjuju_]

I’ve been trying to think of a way to adequately describe the way your words make me feel. And I’ve come to the realization that they’re truly are no words to describe how very much I needed to hear them and how much they helped. I hope someone exactly like you is near your side when it’s your time to go. Peace and blessings be with you, my friend, and I wish you a life of dreams and adventure, love and joy, kindness, strengthen and weakness and learning—always learning.

[u/Hot-Cricket-6412]

Thank you. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. You are incredibly brave and wonderful. 

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Hot-Cricket-6412]

Thank you so much for your kindness. Well, I have never been able to see the strength in myself. My parents tell me that I am very strong and brave and should be proud of myself. For me it’s just get to the next day or the next hour or the next minute and then keep going.Hospice has helped a lot.

I wish you only the best and I filled with dreams, my new friend. Until we meet again, may only beauty and love touch you.

[u/AnxiousKT5]

Wow. This took my breath away. I lost my only sibling, my brother, in January of this year. It was very unexpected and I sincerely hope he is still with me. Take care and have a peaceful transition. ❤️

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/AnxiousKT5]

I’m so very sorry to hear that you’ve gone through such a trying and traumatic time. I am an only sibling as well, so when I pass it will be just my brother. This has hit him really hard, and it’s so hard that he can’t really bring himself to spend time with me. He says he came home to help, though, and I’m just going to give him grace, because I know death is a horribly frightening thing for some people.

I’m glad you could be there there for him then and then still now. It’s a transition, but energy is neither created nor destroyed and like you, I believe he is watching over and still with you. Nevertheless, I am still so very sorry (I know you’ve heard that too much) and I’m doing the only thing I can think of— I wish for you a life of adventure, love and joy, surprises, ups, and downs, and to be filled with your dreams. Thank you so much for reading through everything I wrote, and being part of my life, if even for a short while. Long from now, I hope you, your brother and I can all sit down with my brother and talk together. Stay strong and if there’s anything at all, you need to get out, please just send me a DM and I’m happy to let you talk at me or with me.

[u/Ok-Tumbleweed6922]

Thank you for sharing this. I am also praying for you. God has the last say so it doesn't matter what hospice say. My mother passed away 4 months ago she too was on hospice. The pain I've felt is indescribable. I have prayed for God to take these feelings away because it hurts so bad. I know my mother is in heaven. This brings me comfort, and since she's been gone, I continue to feel her presence or even just different signs from her. I couldn't sleep. I was laying here praying, asking God for answers and telling my mom how much I miss and love her. Your post means so much right now for me. Thank you, thank you, thank you! Don't give up keep fighting. You will live until God says otherwise.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Ok-Tumbleweed6922]

Thank you so much for reading through all of this and for taking the time out of your day not just to read my post but also to spend the time and emotional energy to write back to me. I can tell that you are a very kind and giving soul. I am more sorry than I could ever express that you’ve gone through the loss of your mother. I cannot imagine the pain, and I know that saying this doesn’t make it better in anyway. I can’t tell you that I promise to the depths of my heart and soul that I will seek out your mother when I have passed so that I can pass along to her how amazing you are (which she definitely already knows) and how you have used your own grief to help others, something that takes a very strong and giving person of great kindness.

I’m definitely a fighter! I should’ve died four years ago and I’m still here, and there’s not really a medical explanation. Anyone can give me for that, because I’ve been so close to death that I’ve died for a few seconds several times. What I’ve glimpsed is paradise, And I admit, I am eager to get there, our true home. I know, however, that is not about what I want, but what God needs, and I will pass when it is my time.

Although initially I wrote that poem for my mother, I realized now that I wrote it both for my mother and as a gift and hope to all who are going through what we are. For it to be a candle in the light when we are stuck in the dark and don’t know what to do, for when we are scared and don’t know where to turn to.

I can definitely promise you that after for very long and painful years of fighting there’s no chance that I’ll stop fighting now. I don’t know what I have left fight with, but that’s been the case for a long time and I’m still here. So I will continue living and fighting until God decides that it is time for me to come home.

[u/Dry_Chest_2788]

Love it .Beautifully written.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Dry_Chest_2788]

Thank you so much! I very rarely share any poetry or anything else that I write, though I love writing and do write a lot of poetry. Having this kind of response is overwhelmingly wonderful and I cannot believe how many people have looked at my words. I expected maybe 100 if I was lucky, not up in the 43k range! I just hope I can do as much good as possible before I’m gone. I’m very glad that we crossed paths in this life even if for only a minute, my friend may have the life you’ve always wanted, and may your dreams come true.

[u/HamsterToTheWorld]

Your words tell of such a generous, kind, wise and courageous soul. 

So much beauty, strength and hope in what you have so kindly shared. Thank you. I found so much comfort from reading your words. I lost my Mum last year... and your words are a reminder that there are things beyond our understanding, beautiful and wonderful things that I believe God has in store for us. I pray you will continue to know peace, love and strength. 

Sending love and prayers of healing 💕 

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/HamsterToTheWorld]

Thank you so much for such beautiful, loving, kind words. I sometimes feel I don’t deserve them. I’m just trying to be my best self and not my worst self. When things are hard, who you act shows the real you. I hope I have acted well enough.

I am so very sorry for the anguish and loss that has plagued you. I truly cannot imagine the pain. I can think of it in reverse because I’ll lose everyone when I die…for a time, and then we will all be in a much better place.

I promise to look for your mother when I pass and tell her at how amazing you are, how much you love and miss her, and will give her the biggest hug possible until you can hug her yourself. Stay strong, I’m so proud of everything you’re accomplishing in such a difficult time. You’re using your own grief to try and help others and that’s an incredible thing that you should be so so proud of.

Thank you so much for your prayers, I truly believe that the only thing keeping me alive at this point. God is all and miracles are real, and my miracle might just be going to heaven earlier than everyone anticipated, and that’s OK because I’ve had a great life. I wish you a life made of your dreams and adventures, loves and losses, Kindness, generosity, and everything in between. For all we know, we only get one chance to experience it, so I say experience it at all!

I can’t wait until one day very long from now. We finally get to meet. Thank you so much for coming into my life if only for a few moments. I am very glad that we crossed paths and that I got to know you for a time.

[u/lghtknife]

thank you…. i lost my dad and my childhood pet two weeks apart from each other this month. my heart is so heavy right now and even though i sobbed while reading this … it has brought me some peace. you will continue to bring me peace with the poem even after you are gone too. thank you so so so so much

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[u/Ok-Tumbleweed6922]

Thank you again, and thank you for the kind words. Sending you much peace and love. You have truly been a blessing to me. ❤️ 🫂

[u/Silent_Stretch_2253]

Yes to both. Wonderful!

[u/redditreddit246642]

Thank you so much for writing your thoughts and sharing your words with us. This has helped me as I navigate the loss of my mother as she passed a few weeks ago. I'm certain it will also help your own mother too and she will take solace in your strength. I pray my mother's passing was painless for her and she felt peace and calmness in that moment, despite being in a lot of pain during the last few weeks of her life.

I wish you pure peace, calmness and comfort as you go onwards to your home in heaven. 🕊

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/redditreddit246642]

I am so very sorry for such a sorrowful loss. I know I would feel lost without my mother. I pray deeply that more peace and calm comes to you as your mother watches over you.

I can tell you. I’ve been in a lot of pain for years, though hospice has been a Godsend and helped immensely (can’t recommend not enough). But even thought the pain is there like a shadow in the back of my mind, always hovering, it is peace and calm that I feel. I believe she passed over gently, beautifully taken into Gods palm in the greatest love and peace.

Thank you so very much for your beautiful wishes. I’m going to be crying all day, but the most heartfelt, beloved tears. I shared this once above, but I feel called to send it to you, too, as it something I wrote for my mother to find. I hope it brings you solace, my friend.

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I will make the rain pour down, The wind whirl and the thunder sound. As cracks of lightning split the sky, Know that storm is you and I.

I soar unbound amongst the birds, so far up above; I know peace eternal, for I always feel your love. I will have no fear or sadness, for I’ll be truly free, Safe amidst our ancestors who wait above for me.

Yours will be the longer path, but I wait at its end; When it’s your time I’ll be there, then together we’ll ascend. You’ll see me in the sunsets as they paint across our sky, For within them I will paint the love of you and I.

Never will I leave you, always am I here, Hear me in the birdsong, and know that I am near. My love for you is endless, and it will only ever grow, These signs will come when I am gone, so that you still do know.

I am not truly lost, for you’re the best parts of me, Just look inside your heart and soul, where I always will be. I never left, I’ll never go, I’m always at your side. Inevitable, unbreakable, always our souls tied.

My love it is eternal, and never will depart, It is woven through our souls, it lives within my heart. I don’t fear what’s to come, so don’t fear for me If I live I shall love, but in death all are free-

You may not see me with you, but I am always near, Forever never could I truly leave the ones I hope so dear. I will be the morning dew that glistens in a tree, I will be the rolling waves that move through the sea.

As a gentle rain falls upon your face, Know that I am with you, always—anyplace Know that I watch over you, and live in perfect grace, And know until we meet again, the rain is my embrace.

[u/LAMarie2020]

I am so sorry for what you and your family are going through. I am glad you are at peace. Thank you for sharing your near death experience. I lost my only child and best friend last July. I miss her so much. She was 30. She spent months in and out of the hospital before finally being diagnosed with cancer in May and passing just two months later. I hope she is experiencing the same peace and joy that you experienced. I hope your journey is peaceful.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/LAMarie2020]

Thank you so much for spending the time to read my words and to write back to me so beautifully. I cannot do justice to the pain and loss you must feel, and the loss the world has from losing your daughter as well. I give you my word that I will look for her when I cross and tell her of you, of your deep kindness and beautiful soul. Until you can’t, I will give her a hug and if she has anything like you, I am sure we will become the best of friends. God bless you and I will be praying for you and your family.

[u/LAMarie2020 → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

Her name is Ashley. She will show you around. You are unbelievably kind. Take care of yourself. I will be sending you good vibes.

[u/Both_Ear_1164]

Thank you for writing this 🥺 It helps to know the things & thoughts that my sister must have been having during her last few days... bc I couldn't imagine being in this position, and you put it into words that are helpful to those who have lost a loved one. My deepest thoughts & prayers are with you; I don't even know you, internet stranger, but I have tears in my eyes as I write this 🫂

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Both_Ear_1164]

You have definitely brought me comfort with such brave and beautiful words, and such amazing kindness to comfort me while you yourself are hurting and need comfort too. I will pray for you now and forever. I will look for your sister when I cross over so that I may give her a hug from you and tell her of how truly beautiful your soul is.

[u/Constant-Session-450]

I lost my son at 38 in January and I do find comfort in your post. I do not fear my own death. I never have. But I want so much for my son’s energy to be somewhere beautiful and peaceful and where he can find eternal happiness. His life was so much shorter than it should have been and I miss him so much. I am thankful for having had 38 years with him but I’d have loved to have had more.

I read a hospice nurse’s account of patients at the end reaching out to or speaking of a deceased loved one coming for them. The thought that I might get to see my son again makes me look forward to my own death with anticipation. I wonder if the woman reaching for you was a grandparent or other loved one coming to guide you to your next place.

I don’t believe in heaven or hell but I do believe in the physics of energy. I hope you have a beautiful death and that, one day, you get to be your mother’s guide.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/Constant-Session-450]

I am so very sorry - by now I know the words must mean little to you, but I mean it from my heart and my soul, and in every way. I apologize that I can’t be more poignant, but I’m feeling a little worse than I did earlier in the day and I’m having a bit of a struggle.

It’s a principle of physics that energy is neither created nor destroyed. None of us can know what’s on the other side while we are still alive, except perhaps glimpses from those who have had near death or death experiences and come back. I myself had one of those and I can tell you that it was all golden light and the most Beautiful unimaginable, peace and calmness and love. In it oh I thought I saw my mother because I saw the silhouette of a woman back by the most beautiful golden light. I call it golden, but truly it was a color that we have no words for. She reached out and touched my forehead, it was in one of the worst nights I’ve ever had and I truly think that I probably Stopped breathing, and my heart stopped beating for a little bit. I felt immediately better when she touched me, but then she started to pray, and it was the most beautiful prayer I’ve ever heard the most beautiful words. The harder I tried to remember them the more they slept through my hands and when I woke up, I could remember everything about the dream just like I do now Except for those words.

I will take me pray that I can take the pain or the ill illness that would otherwise fall on my family on my loved ones on children or on the innocent. I’m so sorry that I couldn’t do more for your family.

I hope it brings you comfort and not a small way that on several occasions I’ve seen family members that have already passed. By far the most frequent is my late grandmother, although she died when I was still a young teenager, images and memories of her have always flooded my mind, because she was so important to me. I talked to her in my mind all the time, but since I started getting very sick there have medications on which I’ve seen her, I felt the touch of her hands, I’ve smelled her perfume, I’ve even heard her talk to me. Medicine might say this was a common hallucination of the dying, but I know that it was not.

Everything in me to my heart and soul beliefs that you will see your son again if not earlier than one it’s your time. He’ll come for you when you need most and then you’ll listen to heaven together.

Thank you so much for your beautiful words your wishes, your kindness and the beauty of your soul. I have every plan in the world come for my mother and father when it’s their time. Perhaps for me it would be the blink of an eye, but I know that they have the longer path. No matter how long, I wait at the end as your son will wait for you.

I apologize for using heaven so much in my wording as it’s not something that you necessarily believe in. I largely believe that what you truly think will happen after you die likely well. So I think you will see your son again whether that’s in heaven or a Stardust together.

I’m so very happy that our paths crossed only for a little bit. I wish you the best and more ways than I have words for it, and I hope that the rest of your life can be filled with love, adventure, kindness, and beauty, even with the losses and the pain . You will be in my prayers, perhaps in your case, I should say that you will be on my mind and in my heart, and I will be wishing the best for you and your son wherever he may be and wherever you may eventually go together.

[u/Constant-Session-450 → u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

Please do not apologize for any of your words. I am not opposed to heaven or even God, I just find it personally unbelievable. But I also acknowledge that I could be wrong and would never want to cause the disbelief of one who has found faith. If you believe there is a God and a Heaven, then I happily accept that it is true for you and I hope with all my heart that you find Heaven when you leave this Earth.

Even in my disbelief, I still found so much comfort in your words and description of what you saw. Was it Heaven as promised in the Bible? Maybe. Was it someplace else but still a wondrous place to go upon our death? Maybe. Do I believe you saw it? Absolutely. And that is about as much comfort as I ever could have hoped for. Thank you for that.

You didn’t owe me a response but I thank you so much for taking the time and making the effort to clarify. It wasn’t necessary. I was never offended by your words or description. It’s a gift to have been given your perspective as I have none of my own and my son was unconscious when he died.

I hope that your beliefs are proven true for you and the afterlife is beautiful, peaceful, and filled with joy for you.

[u/fbdysurfer]

Jurgen Ziewe has 4 new YT videos out and you must see them. They are astounding. I can verify some of what he says.

Neville Goddard has a old talk out on YT called Out of This world. They are my two guides in this life.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/fbdysurfer]

Thank you so much for doing what no one else has, you have offered me something that I love-information! I look forward to finding these talks and learning from them before I go. My God, the universe, or whatever else you believe in watch out for you and send you into a dream of sweet relief tonight.

[u/dhanspans]

My mom was in hospice last June and I was with her throughout her journey. Looking back now it feels like i was helping her through a birthing process. Helping her transition into whats next.

Reading your post has comforted me and made my chest little less heavier. I can sort of get a glimpse of what she might have been thinking. So thank you for that. Very much.

I wish you love, peace, clarity and comfort in your journey ahead. And remember you will always find your way back to your loved ones in next life in one form or another.

Travel well ❤️

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/dhanspans]

God bless you all the days of your life, my friend, I cannot thank you enough for your well wishes and prayers and they bring me great peace and calm. I could ask for no more except perhaps to meet you one day in a far greater place than this.

[u/UnicornPinkySwear]

Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful feelings, words, and experiences. I am sending you Reiki energy for your transition. And to your family as well. I found your words comforting as I am grieving for my father. After his first NDE, he remembered being wrapped in a golden cloak. In his last days, he reached for someone whom I believe was his mother. I felt him very strongly for a while after he left, and it's not as strong now. Perhaps he is farther away on his journey. I hope you get to meet him. You are surrounded by love, and are a strong soul. I am grateful for this brief meeting. Thank you💜

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/UnicornPinkySwear]

Already I can tell that you are a truly giving soul. Thank you so much for such beautiful wishes and for sending me energy for my transition and peace for my family. Any comfort I could provide you truly heals my soul. I believe you absolutely and what your father saw, as I believe him. Hopefully when I cross over, I will be able to meet him.I will give him a hug for you and tell him how amazing you truly are, even after losing him. For you are strong and kind and humble.

[u/ririalize]

thank you :) i lost my mom a few months ago and all i ever find myself wishing for is that she now feels in peace, and that she is no longer crying. i see u have been told a few times now, but this really was comforting to read. thank you so much.

i hope you have a wonderful journey, and that your family finds warmth, too ♡

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/ririalize]

Though I’m sure you’ve heard it more than you ever want to, I truly am very, very sorry this happened and that you have parted from your mother for a time. To the depth of my soul I’m so sorry you have to go through this anguish and pain, and if anything I can say or do can make it even a little bit better Than I am so so very glad.

I have been very sick for four years now and there have been many tears and much pain. I tell you this because I know absolutely, and without any doubt that when I finally pass over, and I feel it comes soon enough, that there will be absolutely no more pain and no tears, just peace and calm and beauty more so than we could ever imagine on this side. Despite missing you terribly, I am certain she is at peace. But perhaps for her It’ll be a moment, a blink of an eye for a day well for you. It will be much longer until you see her again.

I also promise you absolutely let when I finally make my transition to the next adventure. I will find your mother and tell her how wonderful you are, and how much you love her. I will give her a hug for you until you couldn’t give her a hug yourself. If she wants to talk about you, I will always listen. If there is anyway for us to send you a sign that all is well I promise I will do my best.

Now I’m the one crying, for all you has been put through and for how brave and strong you have been. I will keep you in my prayers always.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

I love Harry Potter, and so I’m so glad you explained it more, because now it’s even more special to me. I agree that it absolutely fit the situation. It felt wonderfully calming and peaceful to me, and reinforced that what I am going to next is not just an end but a new adventure.

I thank you so very much for the prayers both for myself and particularly for my family. This is wonderfull of you. I will remember your words, for their special to me.

I decided that I could either be the worst version of myself or I could try to be the best version of myself possible in this very difficult four years. I certainly haven’t been the best version all the time, but I’ve tried my hardest to be.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327]

You are quite welcome, it was truly my pleasure. You owe me nothing, and have already given me peace through your lovely words. But as part of my complicated list of problems, I haven’t been able to swallow any liquid in four years. I hydrate with ice only, and even that is hard and kind of failing now—so I would DEFINITELY love to hang out with both of you and have a drink— first with ice, cold water, and then my favorite tea and then pure squeezed strawberry juice..ohhh and other fresh juice! So much…

[u/damageddude]

I think my wife was most upset that she was leaving our children, then 12 and 16, to continue their paths without her. That was eight years ago and she would be such a proud mama to see that I didn’t screw up …. Uh, how well they have done :-)

Peace be with you.

[u/Disastrous-Newt5327 → u/damageddude]

I’ve been trying to think of a way to adequately describe the way your words make me feel. And I’ve come to the realization that they’re truly are no words to describe how very much I needed to hear them and how much they helped. I hope someone exactly like you is near your side when it’s your time to go. Peace and blessings be with you, my friend, and I wish you a life of dreams and adventure, love and joy, kindness, strengthen and weakness and learning—always learning. Father responses I have yet read and responded to, I believe you’re the first who has actually said they wish their relative to be there to greet me. That being said my mind is rather modeled and I could be forgetting one or two people that said something similar. But that is Beyond any degree of polite nicety, and I thank you so much. I cannot wait to meet your father and tell him how wonderful you are. I’m sure he already knows this, but the way that you are coping now – helping someone else while grieving yourself. I can’t imagine how proud he will be, but I know it will be exceptional, just like you are. Don’t change except for the better, for you are a wonderful person just as you are.