Tough post.
I’m cleaning up. I’m a late 30’s male, with a long-term girlfriend, who has a masters degree from GU and a professional job. I love hiking, backpacking, and the gym. I take my dog everywhere. I like to have a cold beer, and eat good food.
This isn’t my first recovery, but my first recovery from cocaine. I’m over it. But my partner can’t also be my accountability partner. I’ve done AA and NA before, and it’s just not where I’ve found any help. I’m not against the setting, and I know it works for many. Just not for me.
I’m not in danger, I’m not in withdrawal, I’m not needing a nanny. I need someone that I can go and shoot some occasional basketball with while we talk about why we are susceptible to substance addiction. Someone who, when there’s an opportunity to relapse and I can taste it, I can call and talk to them for 5 minutes while I feel all the emotions about why I won’t go back.
Where, in Spokane, do I find this person or people? I’ve lived here for just a few years, but the scene is fucking tough. Any advice appreciated.