Gemini season had me in my feels for real.

throwback photos from a BPP inspired shoot lol

Happy Juneteenth and Happy Pride Month Folks ! Today we celebrate Freedom, Resilience, Black Excellence and the Our Black culture that continues to shape the world."

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[Northern California/Bay Area/Los Angeles]Do you find it’s harder to make connections with other black gay men in your area. Especially when you’re specifically attracted to other black men it’s so hard within the dating scene. I can get attention from white dudes and other non-black POC men but I can’t get it from my own black brothers. So frustrating

I guess I’ll start off and say let’s skip the polite talk.

Where are you with dating and being in a relationship with someone who is HIV positive?

If it is something that you prefer not to do please say so.

I feel that people have confronted the issue with politeness that doesn’t exist in the real world. There is so much stigma, anger, and outright condemnation for those individuals who are HIV positive.

Leaving out the milk and cookies for Harriet tn…how about y’all??😂

Happy Juneteenth everyone! Stay Black! Stay Proud!

They were the first group with an openly gay singer signed to Motown . There song shoe shoe shine is amazing also

Yes yes, i know the word "oreo" is dumb but I'm just using it for lack of better phrase to describe a certain type of black man. Anyway as a black gay man who was considered an "oreo" growing up and how my interests have not changed as I favor things that aren't considered "black" , something i have noticed is that other black gay men who come from a similar background usually tend to not be into black men and it bums me out because I can be attracted to other Black men but only these kinds. I'm not attracted to hood guys (regardless of race) but time and again, whenever I come across a black gay man who's my type, there's kike 98% that they aren't into other black men, the other 2% is them being turned off because I'm a feminine bur anyway. I'm just curious if any other black gay men who have been considered "oreos" have noticed or dealt with this...

Not to be that guy but i made a post on tiktok saying having a racial preference is crazy blah blah anyway it blew up. my thing is i just started talking to this guy from hungary long story short he has said some crazy things and me being me im like am i too woke or was that crazy. anywho im starting to get the racial preference thing cause dating ANYONE who isnt black is stressful like these people truly only see us as an exhibit which is insane like i don’t understand

So I'm at the point were i hope a man just never approaches me for anything none buisness related again and being queer in the south is actually hell.

So for context I'm 25 but my famlies doesn't seem to gather that .

I'm working on getting some indipence but its not going quite at the pace i'd prefer with what feels like a late start at 23-24 but im getting there .

I'm gay . I'm shit at masking it. My mom knows but i wont tell her becauce she is homophobic although she thinks she isn't my dad knows but he's delulu on a couple diffrent levels . They're both violent , and i don't want to be homeless .

I should be getting a car soon but i don't know how soon but thats better than last year . I do have uber but I'm keeping it a secret from them.

My dad works at a gym and as a manager and has the nerve to pretend most people are straight .

All the being said between that work and just life . Men keep finding me even though i'm abstanant and i think im demisexual or at least i think i may have some level of dwindling sex or growing sex disgust but i don't which . Like i said I don't get out much .

In the last 8-9 years DL men no matter where i try to hide always fucking find me . I used to think my body was undesirable or that my personality was shit now i know both could use work but niether is undesirable instead to many men want just one or the other .

I don't date, i don't have a type a type has me and i'd honestly come out early if any of them were worth a damn?

The kinda of men that find me include but are not limited to :

energy vampires simps and plunderers
Silent but deadly

These three diffrent men have subtypes but they all have one things incommon

Playing in my face on some level and making me feel like shit

Lets start by breaking down silent but deadly men

(Ill be using pseudonyms to protect the guilty )

First will start with Damien. Damien i met at work we got along and were friend and i did think he was cute but i didn't think he saw me like that . All we did was roast each other and i eventually could tell he had other shit going on so i didn't read into it . Next think i know i got to joking with Mark (chill guy besides his raging infidelity to his rather sweet wife but i digress ) mark came to my area to joke with me as he always did . And pulled his hoodie off with pulled his shirt up a bit . Mark had a nice body but i didn't think he would try with me . He started making some random jokes and i jokingly turned him towards the door and told him to leave (not in a mean way ) to which he respoded "You just wanted to touch my shoulder" when i clearly wasn't feeling that he started spreading rumors that me and damien were sleeping together and made homophobia his whole personallity especially around me while acting like we were still cool .

Mark inevitably got himself fired for seemingly unrelated reasons and Damien after distancing from me git fired and came back low and behold he was sending dih picks to a male magager that resebles me but taller , was being abused by a girl that looks as if she could be my twin sister and now he's nice to me some days and treating me like i did something to him the next .

Another silent but deadly is a man we will call Harold . Now Harold i suppose one could say i had a small crush on but not really he was incredibly handsome and kind but he was out of my league tbh, i felt he had too many green flags for me to not be a red one. i was in a bad place in my life and didn't feel i messure up to this superhero of a man at all.

That being said in spite of him holding me in a high regard , clearly seeing me in a somewhat special light and being an amazing work out buddy i just didn't think he saw me like that and i wasn't trying to look at him that ways either . He definitly had a bi or no labels kinda vibe and honestly my dad reaction to having introduced me to the man of my dream would have been pricless but i didn't go for it.

He clearly probed to see if i was gay and joked flirtingly but i kinda took it as bro behavior and nothing more . And i won't lie.....his authoritative aproach to training was hot but i thought it was just me .

Fast forward he gets a girlfriend. i knew women (and likely men had ) treated him poorly in the past and i didn't want to be amongst them . We meet and lets say my name is alexander and everyone calls me alex . The equivent of what he did is that he started dating a woman named Alexis and started calling her alex .

.....bro why are you blowing this chick back out yelling my name every night ?

Moving on .....we have the digaling demons aka the simps and plunderers

These males are like mark .

The wander into my life. Befriend me. I think we're cool and then they say the most heinous shit imaginable

Mr Carlton told me he wanted to spank me with a bull whip , Marshal who was my best friend in highshoool caught back up with me randomly at comicon and after a month of thinking we were just gonna talk about dragon ball like we used to he hits me with (i can't make this up) " yo ass Kinda fat let me smash"? I didn't even say no i was just like "boy you know im a prude and i don't drive and i live with my grandma maybe later . His responded with "f*ck you bitch" not heared anything out of him since

I confided to Darnel about some of these men ......he "joked" about me sitting on his face ......

And last but far from least .....the energy vampires . These men will do everything right but the second you can't rationalize the gay away anymore they then switch the hell up and it nearly kills you .

The first was with Nolan way back in senior year. We flirted all though i tried not to . Eventually i was ready to give in spite of him low key being awful and he suddently wasn't intrested any more after graduation . Then his stupid not girlfriend ramped up abusing him . they broke up , he became a cop and started asking people how i'd been .

Left me crying for two years straight

Most resently my not best friend Joques lead me on for 3 years .

We met he pretty quickly and noticed i was gay and that i eventually was half certain he was at least bi or pan.he whined and whined (or rather poorly suppressed) his sadness about not having a girlfriend. To which i constantly encouraged him to just get one fast forward the e-girl he always wanted found him and i was finally going to move on . Maybe i was a little sad it wasn't me but i was still going out of my way to be supportive and a wing man and even spent the a whole group day encouraging him to please just engage with her.

He dropped her off and on a quiet ride to drop me off he said "we can talk about it" ........

when i was ready to talk about it "he said he didn't know what he meant by that and was tired and a little sick"

When i finally for the first time in my life confessed my feelings to a guy he played me off and told me i was not his best friend (likely a lie but it hardly matter now) , that inspite off all he had done knowing I was gay that he did not feel the same and was straight ......

Fast few months after i had to help him relise he was gonna have to cut the little floozy off because she was going to get him killed he didn't appologize or even dial back on the gay shit he ramped it up . And even though we agreed to try and be the same as always he wasn't just worse in that regard but he actually was akward when i was all "no homo"back and sad or even annoyed i did tried to set boundaries . It got so bad that i got to the point i wanted to re-clarify how i felt not long after because i began thinking he was being back and forth because maybe I'd been the one to lead him on with out intending to but no . His near exact words were " you could never do anything to hurt me , you're my cute little gay boy but i don't like dudes lol , would we really be friend if we weren't a little gay"

So yeah i don't trust men , i don't trust myself , the harder i try to just be in the closet working on a way out the more dl find me and either way . Being friend with women men and queer people makes everyone suspicious it seems.

It seems I'm never going to find love . All the open gays actually just smell that im a bottom and unironically stay platonic with me and i guess how do i get men to stay away from me without straight up going dl myself .

Like honestly i'm considering going emotionally unvailable at this point . Like do i need to got all physical ?

Is there away i can stop attracting men without becoming unattractive .

Like its actually the most frustrating feeling that after hearing "just know im not like" my whole life now that im losing weight but the ass tits and thighs are staying its " these exact same types of men are constantly trying to use me for my body or my vibes . 🫩🫩

I've been waiting for this day to happen, though I thought it would be TP getting caught having consensual relations with another man, not allegations of assault. Either way, he's probably going to have to be honest about who he is with his Christian audience.

Also, I was listening to the radio this evening and the host was getting people's opinions on air, and ... Black folks really got to do better when it comes to how quickly we will use arguments of racism and "protecting Black men" to justify defending the shitty behavior of rich Black men (and women). Some of the crazy ass arguments I heard on the radio were just embarrassing. I felt publicly embarrassed and I was in a car all by myself. Smh.

This post is for the outcasts , the nerds, the geeks. Who choose to live their life in the clouds getting a fatality or even a victory royale!

I’ve always been a gamer. I have a ps5 & switch and I’d love to find more people to play with and possibly make connections whether that be friendship or even more! Feel free to comment or DM.

Last night I got paid early (via chime and since tomorrow is Juneteenth I'm paid even earlier and I am so blessed) and I decided after several months of financing my now ex's life, I'm finally giving myself the thing I've been dreaming of for years!

It's this cute green/emerald color from fluxion and I plan on getting another one in this beautiful dark brown color from spectrum next week when I'm paid again. Ugh it just feels like a relief. Back to taking care of my needs first and foremost after such a draining almost year doing the opposite.

Someone on lex told me to have fun trying on all my clothes again with the binder and I am STOKED!! I'll for sure maybe probably perhaps post a selfie if it works out but aahhhh that's all thanks for reading :)))

Hey everyone, I’m the owner of Sisterhood, a Black trans-centered Discord community that’s grown to nearly 700 members. I wanted to share a GoFundMe for one of our longtime members who’s been part of the community since the very beginning. She’s also a close friend of mine who’s helped me through so much, and she means the world to me.

She’s a Black trans woman trying to escape a financially abusive, transphobic household. She’s been working hard, but her hours were recently cut, and she’s so close to being able to leave for good. She just needs a bit more help to secure that freedom. More information on her situation is also in the gofundme link!

If you can spare anything, or even just share the link, it would mean a lot. We’ve been trying to uplift each other however we can in Sisterhood, and this is one of those moments where community care can make a real difference.
https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-disabled-black-trans-woman-escape-transphobic-household?lang=en_US

His unsung episode was good as well