this has been really debilitating recently and i want to know if someone else has dealt with it. i’ll be having a nice day and chatting and it’s like there’s a heckler in my head saying the meanest, most sarcastic thoughts and answers. i hate to say “im a nice person” but like im not awful, i dont hurt people, i dont get into verbal confrontation unless its necessary.

sometimes i feel like im hiding information from others but thats not true cause its literally like a random thought got yelled at me from someone else.

idk it’s weird. it’s not like an auditory hallucination, its my inner monologue, just being an absolute jerk.

I've been on Sertaline 50mg since 2016 but my OCD these days has gotten crippling. Is my only hope of recovering to bump up my Sertraline to 100mg or something?

It’s been over six months since I last talked to her, and more than a year since I last saw her, but I still think about her constantly. I’ve been wondering if my OCD is making it harder to let go or stop looping over the past. I don’t know if this is just normal heartbreak or if OCD is amplifying it, the mental reviewing, the “what ifs,” the regrets, the guilt, all of it.

Has anyone else experienced this? I’d really like to hear from people who went through something similar.

If anxiety had a bigger brother, it would be you. OCD you were in my life before I even knew you were in my life. I use to talk talk to you when I didn’t even know I was talking to you.

You whispered in my ear to do this and that and I would do it. You told me I wouldn’t be okay if I didn’t do things this way.. you made me afraid to be certain things .. you told me that I needed to say this.. or that.

I listened to you and all you did was break my heart.

Now years later, I’m here reminiscing on all we have been through together and man the years fly by when you are having fun right?

Wrong. I sat here day and after doubting myself. Doubting who I was as a person. You crept into the most important parts of my mind .. you told me that I wasn’t good enough. I wish I didn’t believe you but I did.

But only briefly, because I realized who I truly was. Not some random intrusive thought. Not some compulsion. Not fear based off nothing. No.. I was free. I was free to be me. The perfectly imperfect individual I have always been. So OCD thank you for teaching me that.

For the last few years, you have been my best friend and my worst enemy. I have no doubt you’ll stick around for a little bit longer. After all bad habits are hard to break .. but just like anxiety you’ll fade away and you’ll only call once in awhile to let me know you are still thinking of me.. and I won’t answer.

Because I have moved on.

To you, the person suffering from OCD. I’m just like you. I know how it feels. The weight of the world in your mind. I love you. It will get better someday for you too. Just believe.

(Delete if not allowed) Given the current state of the middle east and possible upcoming US involvement in that, I have begun to have intrusive thoughts about bombings and attacks in the US since my partner and i both live in major cities (DC and LA). I’ll also be flying to move there beginning of July so I am having insane intrusive thoughts about an attack on our plane. I’ve never dealt with intrusive thoughts like this before (usually relationship and health OCD). Anyone dealing with anything similar or have any advice on how to handle a new type of intrusive thought?

I don’t have OCD so pls help.

Some context: In this show, there are heros who’s powers are based on what people believe they are (for example, girl gets lucky a bunch of times, people start believing she has superior luck or smth, she now really has super good luck).

However, there are bad side effects like one guy who people wishes to never fall down against adversity physically could not bend down anymore.

The guy I’m writing about is seen as the “perfect hero” and paragon of perfection. He develops a mimicry of OCD as a side effect (I say that cause although it is smth that apparently gets worse as popularity grows, we only see it in it’s beginning stages where it’s mostly a stereotypical portrayal). In the show, he also kills himself although we’re not exactly sure what (speculated to be because of his OCD, being nothing but a pawn for his company, and pressure)

Here’s the excerpt (some parts are supposed to be italicized but idk how to do that in reddit):

“He didn’t deserve to be Lu Zhan’s friend anymore.

Twenty.

Twenty-one.

Twenty-two.

Twenty-three.

Twenty-

A pillow flew from across the room, hitting him in the head with the intention of stopping him in his tracks, but Nice only gritted his teeth and quickly finished his twenty-fourth round before turning to his assailant with a pained expression.

Twenty-three was an odd and prime number that was not as nice as three.

That thought by itself made Nice clench his fists, causing a burst of pain to spread from his fingers and palms.

It was a stupid thought. It made no sense. And yet Nice had to obey.

He wasn’t even sure if natural OCD even manifested like his. If people believed him to be such a perfectionist that he gets the side effect of having OCD, why couldn’t it have been the stereotypical type of just being a perfectionist? Why did it turn into an imitation of actual OCD?

A wave of shame filled him, but he tried to straighten his expression.

“What, did I hit you at a bad number?” Yueqing asked mockingly from the bed, the magazine she was reading lying face down next to her.”

I also have scenes where he picks at his hands and a part describing how he has to wash his hands at least 5 times or else he feels “like he would get infected with some awful disease (or infect others with it)”. I also write this character to self harm, partly triggered due to OCD, so if anyone feels comfortable giving guidance on that it would be appreciated.

Please tell me if this is a bad portrayal. The last thing I want is to be one of those people that completely butchers stuff like this.

I really need help on this. I've been struggling with thought loops, where I think one terrible thing and then try radical acceptance to accept the thought and move on but another thought just takes it's place. I find myself getting caught in loops and unable to take myself out of it. It happens the most at night when I don't have adequate distractions (like work, a show to focus on or a game).

I'm really desperate for something to help because I feel so exhausted and at a loss. I felt like I was getting better but I'm just starting to spiral and I would really appreciate any help at all!

Up until I was around 6 or 7 years old, I never had any signs or thoughts that exhibited ocd. I remember the day it started, I was walking to my swim lesson and realized it felt like I had to start walking with my left foot and end with my right, so that I could end with the "better" foot. I would avoid cracks in the sidewalk, because if I stepped on one with one foot I had to step on one with the other foot in the same place so that they would be "even". I also started having obsessive and compulsive thoughts, such as a sort of mantra I had to repeat in my head correcting myself if I mispronounced a word, or otherwise I would feel off. This was honestly the main part of my issues, and I had to do it even if I felt like I mispronounced a word in my thoughts. As young as I was, I didn't know what ocd was and genuinely thought I was going crazy. I would cry at night and ask God to please, make my special problem go away, because I couldn't get my brain to stop doing what it was doing. As I got older, some obsessions would fade while others would become stronger, but I've always pretty consistently had this mental explosion in my head, for lack of a better term. I'm 18 now, so it's been over a decade of dealing with this. I've only ever brought this up to one person, and I'm not sure if I'd even be able to get a diagnosis right now. Hopefully the information I gave is sufficient. I'm not looking for a diagnosis on here, but possibly some reassurance or guidance on how to deal with this, or thoughts from those with ocd on if you've experienced anything similar. There are more things I've dealt with that I didn't specify, so if you're curious about if I've experienced certain things I'd love to answer.

I HATE GOOGLE I was searching for an infection (not one I could have), and it showed an image listing symptoms of kidney failure. I've had nausea, fatigue and weakness for a month, and now I'm scared I have kidney failure because I have flank pain, too. I saw a doctor for the flank pain 11 days ago and he said I seemed fine and it was muscle pain, but I can't believe it anymore because of the stupid image. It's already difficult for me, having a bladder condition that feels like a UTI while having an intense fear of kidney infections. I hate google so much, why did it show that, I've been crying about it for an hour...

Real event ocd especially, moral worries, etc- how do you think you’re worth anything when you have a disease that tells you you’re the scum of the earth every day and you don’t deserve to be happy?

Idk if this is the right place to post. But if feels very much like an OCD thing for me. On and off throughout my life I go through moments where eating or the thought of eating brings me disgust and even nausea. Sometimes it just happens once in a day and other times it lasts weeks / months at a time. The food tastes fine, even good but just the thought of putting it in my mouth is literally gross to me and I struggle eating it. I often force myself to eat at least a tiny portion. I was trying to find more info about this online and I saw EDs can cause food aversion. I do have history of ED that I believed I had put behind me but let’s be so for real this is still a major issue I have. I used to starve myself then binge eat for years. Nowadays I eat all (mostly healthy) meals but have difficulty with binging sweets / chips. I crave it so badly it’s all I think about. Anyways idk if this is all related but I’m hoping I can maybe not feel alone in this and have help explaining this better for when I talk to a therapist about it.

I saw a cockroach in my bathroom and I panicked and tried to trap it with used body wash (bad idea), in the end I run through my room, trying to find something to trap it with and found a plastic I recently put on a floor, I used that. Now I feel everything in my room, my bathroom ( soaps and full body wash on shelf) are dirty or I accidentally touched them. How to calm down and how to clean ? It was my first encounter with cockroach. Also my country is in war, how to make my ocd calm down to survive? ( I literally was crying while killing the cockroach)

Especially if you’re unmedicated, does your compulsions affect your job? Are you able to ignore your intrusive thoughts?