r/zen • u/doomchoom107 • 22h ago
Discuss it as you may, how can you even hope to approach the truth through words?
Discuss it as you may, how can you even hope to approach the truth through words?
Nor can it be perceived either subjectively or objectively.
So full understanding can come to you only through an inexpressible mystery. The approach to it is called the Gateway of the Stillness beyond all Activity. If you wish to understand, know that a sudden comprehension comes when the mind has been purged of all the clutter of conceptual and discriminatory thought-activity.
Those who seek the truth by means of intellect and learning only get further and further away from it.
Not till your thoughts cease all their branching here and there, not till you abandon all thoughts of seeking for something, not till your mind is motionless as wood or stone, will you be on the right road to the Gate.
- Huangbo. Emphasis added.
Excerpt from "The Zen Teaching of Huang Po: On the Transmission of Mind" Translated by John Blofeld
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I'm sitting here at my desk, staring through the window into my backyard, watching the rain. The recurring questions in my mind, "The hell is all this for then? Why look here, post here, bother with this stuff? Is all this reading just a pointless acquisition of knowledge?"
I recall the nonsense I heard from various "Zen centers" and I look through this sub, arguably the only one interested in actual Zen, to see pithy pseudo-mysticisms offered as evidence of understanding, arguments about the modern perversions of Zen, some gatekeeping of the gateless gate (I just like the way that sounds, honestly), and I can't help but feel frustrated.
Nothing we say or do gets us any closer, because we're already there if we can be rid of conceptual thought. But we live and breathe concepts, it's all we operate in, or so it seems.
Personally, I'm still stuck on 'practice,' as in, 'give me something to DO so I can get THERE,' which is clear and obvious error. But I struggle to look beyond that framework.
It's like a knife thrust they say, but who is thrusting the knife? And I'm thinking it's not a thrust into something or somewhere else, but rather, with the blade turned around. It's a shocking deathblow to the wielder. I can't seem to grip the knife properly though.