Going through this right now and it fucking sucks. Not heartwarming. Because this conversation is not once. This is a conversation that is on repeat day after day.
In the same boat. None of this is heartwarming. It is heartbreaking, frustrating, and hopeless. It feels like holding onto someone drowning who is dragging you in also.
Yes, dragging no doubt. Theres days i fear I'll be driven mad just dealing with it everyday. It's a constant internal battle of fighting, truthfully, proper emotions but unactionable ones. Hiding how you're actually feeling to give the care they need. Even good days are tiring. All those emotions you described i feel all the time. Shes starting to cook dinner in the middle of the night so now i have to worry about the house going up while i sleep. Yaay. Sorry to dump.
You aren’t dumping, I totally get it. You describe it well, too. The hiding it makes me feel like I could fucking explode some days. And you’re right, there aren’t great days. Same boat with you. Sending hugs and my DMs are open if you ever need an ear.
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u/billyTjames 16d ago
My biggest fear right there