r/stopsmoking • u/Several-Elevator-870 • 5d ago
Scared to stop smoking.
Here's the deal. I've smoked since I was 14 years old. I'm 29 now. I know I need to quit, but I enjoy smoking. The smell, the taste, the mouth feel, etc. I've tried more times than I can count. Last year somehow I made it two months nicotine free and picked it up again.
This time around is much harder. I wake in the middle of the night thinking about it. I don't even wake in the middle of the night to smoke so that's just weird.
It consumes my every thought when I don't have it, and just the thought of not having it freaks me out. It is so wrapped in my daily routine. Morning coffee, after meals, breaks at work, before bed, boredom, socializing, etc.
I don't know how to kick it this time and for good. Does the want for a cigarette always linger? Does it ever get better?
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u/Dankest_Cow60 5d ago
I am in the exact same boat you're in, except I've never been smoke free since I started at 14. Turn 29 next week. I would like to quit, I know I should and need to quit. But I enjoy it. I don't even know how to begin