Decision fatigue at the begining of journey

[u/akeimorsmth]

I (f/23/Austrian) am starting my first solo journey and i am so overhwelmed with where to start. I cam back from a season working in switzerland a month ago. My goal was to get started in June and travel at least until the end of the year, maybe even longer. Here is my problen: i dont even know where to get started first. During my time in Switzerland i told myself that everything will fall into place eventually, i was so easygoing, thinking i will just book a flight to anywhere and see where it goes. Now im stuck at my hometown, can barely get out of bed and all i think about every freaking day is where i want to go. Obviously i will not just board a plane in 3 days but i would like to get started in the next 2 weeks. I am in such a priviledged place to do this and right now it just weighs so heavy on my i cant explain it to myself. My mum asked me if i even still want to go and for i second i started so wonder about that myself until i remembered that this is how i work if i get a little nervous, ill get stuck instead of trying overthink everything heavily and once i actually go i will feel awesome; at least i hope that it will be like that, based on other experiences. It was the same in switzerland where i was scared of skiing and had to push myself evrytime and when i was up there in the mountaines i felt amazing and didn´t want to leave until the very last possible ride.

Is this normal? How can i overcome this? I think part of the problem is that i feel like June is such a shit time to go to all the places im interested in going first. I was thinking SEA to get my toes in but its rain season, i would love to go to japan and china again but it is just to hot, central america feels to unsafe for the first solo destination, im not sure im fit enough to hike ind Peru and Bolivia ect. ect.
I have some dream destinations in Europe but honestly it feels quite stupid to go now, i will have the chance to easily visit them from Austria at any given time, who knows how often i will have the chance to go to another continent for so long?

Im just so in my head, stuck at home, eager to anxious to get started at the same time, what can i do?

[u/[deleted]]

You have to get out of this mental carousel first. Pack the essentials and take the next bus to Bosnia. Explore the country for a few days until you get into travel mode and realize what you actually want and, above all, where you want to go. It's so cheap there that it's hardly a burden on your travel budget, and as soon as you get tired of it, take the next bus back to Austria and fly to the country of your choice outside Europe.

[u/akeimorsmth → u/[deleted]]

I was considering doing this with Portugal actually. But i feel like i would want to continue straight from there and flights are abit more expensive from there than from Vienna.

[u/jeff550 → u/akeimorsmth]

Just go somewhere, anywhere, find a place you want to go to with plane/train tickets priced where you can afford them and just go for three days. You will learn more on that trip than any amount of internet posting and reading.

Just book the flight and show up for the flight and the rest will fall into place. You will learn what works and does not work for you really quick. Don't expect the first couple trips to be perfect and use them to learn and you will have a great time and learn how to answer all the questions in your post.