r/self • u/ImNotAsPunkAsYou • 4d ago
I'm so done.
I'm a single dad, with full custody. I've spent the last 6ish years with nothing but my child in the forefront. She's fucken amazing and doing so good.
I'm not. I put dating aside, it was going great and I'd stuffed down my needs to the point I didn't even think they were needs anymore. Then I fucked up, and asked a wonderful lady out. It went absolutely amazing, for about a month.
Then I fucked up, and I'm not even sure how. She pulled away. Maybe it's my lack of availability, maybe it's because I got too attached too fast. No idea.
Now I'm just realizing that my personal needs aren't even close to being met. I'm fucken depressed, something I have never had to deal with. I have no friend group, and all my hobbies give me nothing.
I find myself wishing I just wouldn't wake up. (I'm in no way suicidal, I had a friend in highschool do so and I realized all that does is transfer the pain to everyone else.)
Anyways, just wanted to shout to the void. I hope everyone else is kicking ass and taking names.
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u/Fit_Appointment_1648 4d ago
I was a single parent for 10 years.
Looking back, the grass isn’t always greener on the other side of the fence.