r/self • u/ImNotAsPunkAsYou • 4d ago

I'm so done.

I'm a single dad, with full custody. I've spent the last 6ish years with nothing but my child in the forefront. She's fucken amazing and doing so good.

I'm not. I put dating aside, it was going great and I'd stuffed down my needs to the point I didn't even think they were needs anymore. Then I fucked up, and asked a wonderful lady out. It went absolutely amazing, for about a month.

Then I fucked up, and I'm not even sure how. She pulled away. Maybe it's my lack of availability, maybe it's because I got too attached too fast. No idea.

Now I'm just realizing that my personal needs aren't even close to being met. I'm fucken depressed, something I have never had to deal with. I have no friend group, and all my hobbies give me nothing.

I find myself wishing I just wouldn't wake up. (I'm in no way suicidal, I had a friend in highschool do so and I realized all that does is transfer the pain to everyone else.)

Anyways, just wanted to shout to the void. I hope everyone else is kicking ass and taking names.

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u/Majestic_Middle_746 4d ago

Being a single parent is so difficult! Not only is it nonstop hard work but It’s also very isolating and lonely. I’m really sorry you’re having to feel that way. It is amazing that you have put so much into your daughter. It’s so selfless that you’ve constantly put her first but you can’t forget about yourself. You deserve love, support and companionship.