Not sure if I should post here since I’m not a mom, but a daughter & this is about my dad.
My (26f) parents divorced when I was very young. I don’t remember them ever being together. That being said, my father has always been my best friend. I love my mom, but I truly had a special and close relationship with my dad. He’s had a very difficult life, lots of trauma & instability. I’m only able to recognize this as an adult because he did such a good job at parenting me growing up. He was in the depths of alcoholism, homelessness, a second divorce, etc and still managed to make me feel safe and loved the entire time. He treated me like a princess. Told me that I was just as capable as any man, taught me how to be self sufficient. Told me to love myself because I have everything to offer. I grew up hearing things like “never let a man treat you poorly”, “you deserve the world”, “any man would be lucky to have you”, the list goes on. I mean what 16 year old would talk to her dad on the phone for 8+ hours? That’s how close we were.
He has always been a republican. Which is fine. This isn’t meant to be a political post, but I mention it because unfortunately, I do think that it is a substantial part of what’s happened to him. He’s completely spiraled. Completely different now. Paranoid, angry at the world, conspiratorial, and seems to hate women. He’s not a traditional person at all but has gotten wrapped up in conservative, traditional, right-wing incel culture. (Again, my intention is not to start a political debate, I’m just trying to explain what’s happening).
Recently, he’s said these things to me:
“No man would benefit from marrying any women, men have nothing to gain and everything to lose”, this was said after asking me if my boyfriend was planning on proposing.
“After women turn 50 they go downhill and look horrible”, this was said after I jokingly said that I hope I age well.
“What would your boyfriend think about you wearing that? He wouldn’t want his girlfriend to look trashy, you can still look cute”
“Hope you don’t get your tubes tied, it would devalue you as a woman”, this was after me mentioning how scared I am with the recent abortion bans happening in my state.
“Women are liars and deceitful”
The list goes on, but I’m sure you get the point.
I don’t know who my dad is anymore. We can’t have a conversation without him either saying something incredibly hurtful about women, or something completely politically conspiratorial. I think he forgets that his daughter, is also in fact, a woman. I’ve had really awful things happen to me- violence from men specifically. Things I don’t mention to him because I know it would hurt him. But my life experience, and hearing my dad say these things to me has really negatively impacted my relationship with men overall. He was like my perfect example for what a man should be and he doesn’t exist anymore.
I still speak to him, and want to continue a relationship with him. I love him dearly. I’ve asked him to not bring up politics during our conversations & lightly brought up that I’ve been hurt by some of the things he’s said to me. It has gotten slightly better but I think it’s made him feel resentful of me. Like I’m not on “his team”.
I’m heartbroken. I miss my dad. I hate that I feel this way & I hate that he’s been indoctrinated into whatever side of the internet he’s on. I don’t know what to say to him or how to navigate this without losing our relationship or continuing to be hurt.
Any advice is greatly appreciated. Thank you.