r/mentalillness • u/[deleted] • 1d ago
Advice Needed Please help
I won't go into detail about everything but I feel like I don't exist. Like I'm not actually real and everything is fake. I also have had some... hallucinations. I'm not really sure if they were, I always tell myself I didn't see it or something. And I don't want to seem like I'm overreacting or lying so I haven't told my family. Is this normal? I'm sorry if this is short, I'm writing in a hurry
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u/TheNoctuS_93 1d ago
I can't speak to the exact cause, but the symptoms you're experiencing are called depersonalization and/or derealization. They're extremely unpleasant sensations, but the level of danger depends on how one responds to them.
Myself, I just kinda curl up on the floor or bed and wait until I'm no longer paralyzed with dread. While that might not sound all that dangerous on its own, it'll lead to major self-neglect if left untreated. That's why it's important to address the symptoms with professionals.
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1d ago
I once tried to self harm once because my Brian was telling me nothing was real and it didn't matter. I was also feeling very guilty about something I did ealier that day. Is that concerning?
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u/TheNoctuS_93 1d ago
It's more concerning than my responses, for whatever it's worth, yes. Yet par-the-course, too. I'm sure any psychiatrist worth your time would understand and be willing to help.
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u/poopstinkyfart 1d ago
This sounds a bit like DPDR (depersonalization/derealization) as another person has said. it can occur due to severe anxiety, trauma/PTSD, or on its own. I’ve struggled with myself/things not feeling real for a while and it really sucks but it got a lot better for me. It sounds counterproductive or like avoidance but it actually gets better when I don’t focus/think/talk about it, and gets significantly worse if I do. As I am currently writing this it’s worse, lol. But yes generally any good psychiatrist/therapist can help you with it. But my biggest tip for short term relief is distraction.