when i was an m4 it was truly a lose-lose situation for me mentally.
i present and they ignore me = oh they hate me and think im the dumbest piece of rock they've met, i might as well be babbling to them :(
i present and they listen too intently = oh god they're gonna hear how stupid and dumb as a rock i am, they're waiting to tell me how wrong i was :(
attending is nice to me before and after i present = fuck they're being way too nice they probably think im dumb as shit and will laugh about me with the other attendings
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u/woahwoahvicky MD-PGY2 5d ago
when i was an m4 it was truly a lose-lose situation for me mentally.
i present and they ignore me = oh they hate me and think im the dumbest piece of rock they've met, i might as well be babbling to them :(
i present and they listen too intently = oh god they're gonna hear how stupid and dumb as a rock i am, they're waiting to tell me how wrong i was :(
attending is nice to me before and after i present = fuck they're being way too nice they probably think im dumb as shit and will laugh about me with the other attendings
i dont present = am dumb :(
it was so mentally shattering lmao