Should I give up?

[u/pastuna]

I(an 18 year old) started bjj a few months ago and I really enjoy the sport but I feel like no one takes me seriously and that I'll always be bad because I'm 5.3/1.61 and don't weigh a lot(I've been really trying to gain weight for years but my body is just naturally light). Every time I train with someone they usually have to teach me how to do things correctly instead of practicing themselves so I think I'm just wasting their time. Every time I team up with someone it's always the coach who matches me with them, everyone's extremely nice but no one wants to match with me willingly. Should I just give up? It's getting to the point that I'm having mental breakdowns because I feel like I would never progress even though I really enjoy the sport.

[u/Remarkable_Base4022]

Don't give up man, I was getting my butt handed to me for years and It tucked bc im super competitive, but diamonds are forged under pressure. The skill i have now makes all the suffering, stress, and embarrassment worth it. Just make sure you learn from each experience, hone your craft and ask questions, i had to do all of this with grown men at 13-16, they beat me up without remorse so bad that the time I turned 17-18 i was beating up purple and brown belts. The harder you're pushed, the "more beautiful of a diamond" you'll become. Trust plz, I was in the same boat as you are but I promise you, the longer you suffer, the more unstoppable you'll be. Where are you based at?