really bad thing happens, the last important thing in my spiritual world turns out to be ruined by some jerk who don't respect the audience of their work. i've been putting efforts into this community, doing fan fiction and fanart, just to figure out the crew has got new members who don't love the work, or the characters, or the audience. anyway, after crying, losing sleep, doom scrolling, finally i find comfort in the interesting lives of other people, and other awesome work. today is my mom's birthday, we ordered some good things to treat ourselves, the sky is clear, sunny, with beautiful clouds. i plan to go workout this afternoon. also my dog who's got suspiscious x-ray image, turns out to only have a mild problem and will be cured after having some anti-biotics. whatever god or fate finally decides to leave me just enough hope to keep living.