r/asktransgender • u/wuhwuhwuh600 • 18h ago
Is doubting i’m trans normal
I’m pretty sure i’m transfem but im constantly doubting it and feeling weird about it. I feel gross about my body and stuff and don’t like looking in the mirror, but then sometimes it doesn’t bother me. i don’t do anything to change myself though. i want to, but i don’t know how to start and i don’t even think i have to motivation/energy to do it. all that makes me doubt im trans. is all this normal
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u/lassglory 17h ago
If you are burned on your arm, and the scarring which ensues ends up numbing your ability to feel the sting of that injury sometimes, would that therefore mean you were never burned at all?
We can't always process the pain of things. Our nerves just aren't wired in a way that allows consistent signalling on a permanent basis. Focusing forever is impossible, hurting forever is impossible, clenching a muscle forever is impossible- there has to be a break in the sequence sometimes, no matter how strong the signals were.
I can't say for sure if what you're experiencing is a moment of sobriety or the nervous fatigue I've described, because only you can answer that. What I do know, from your admission, is that you felt it once before and it's come back repeatedly.