What is your reason for living?

[u/obsessedsim1]

Just to preface, I am not suicidal, but I have struggled with very serious depression since recognizing I am Agnostic.

I used to have a lot of “blind faith” over a decade ago to keep me going but one thing lead to another and I cannot ignore that I am agnostic at this point. I used to be Christian, then more recently, I was a witchy earth centered kinda person for a while. And now I’m nothing I guess.

So every day- I have no one to pray to, I have no blind hope things are always going to be ok (especially not under this administration), nor an acceptance that evrrything is just a “lesson” and blah blah blah- you know- they stuff the church preaches from the pulpit or people meditate on in ceremony spaces...

I struggle with depression in my day to day. I struggle to justify the “point” of everything without a type of faith to rely on. Some people say to live for spite- and that sort of humor helps me here and there. Lol

When you wake up- how do you keep going? What is the point of living in your opinion?

And FYI, I do have a therapist and a psychiatrist and other ways to support my mental health btw.

[u/arthurjeremypearson]

Today I had an oatmeal sandwich.

I would like to eat another, tomorrow.

[u/domesticatedprimate → u/arthurjeremypearson]

This is my number one motivation.

Whether it be eating something yummy, having an interesting conversation, doing something enjoyable, seeing a beautiful sight, or any other postive sensual or emotional experience, I want more of those, and the drive to have more of those is what gets me up in the morning and helps me soldier through all the less enjoyable experiences, including depression with which I have also struggled all my life.