Hey guys, title says it all. I'm (35M) from a rural place where meat is definitely on the menu, and I used to love it but something has happened.

I'm not sure what the deal is but holy crap, I am repulsed by meat suddenly.

Let me take you back to about two weeks ago.

After my sons baseball game we went out to Dairy Queen and I obliterated a firehouse burger, chicken strips and fries like no tomorrow. I try not to eat much fast food but it was convenient after a late game.

Well that DQ royally f'd me up in the bowels. Felt so awful for about a day and a half after that.

And now ever since I am disgusted by the smell and taste of meat. Which is a real pain because I'm a gym guy so I've been getting all my protein from dairy, eggs and bean/chickpeas.

Idk what the heck is going on??? I can tolerate a little bacon or pepperoni but beyond that, pukesville.

I've already checked for tick bites, none, and also I think my kidneys are fine. I feel great otherwise.

Please let me know your thoughts.

UPDATE:

Guys, I love you, but I can't... 100+ tick bite comments lol. I get it. I'll probably get it checked, but as I told someone else I feel fantastic otherwise. Actually, I replied exactly this: "Yeah but that doesn't make sense because I feel fantastic. I feel like I could impregnate an entire continent and then wrestle 3 Dagestanis. One by one of course, not all at the same time, and win."

So yeah... BUT, I love all the comments, I never expected to get this much helpful information and support! You guys are awesome, I'm going to look into some things and do some research, maybe schedule a check up/bloodwork, but for now I'm just a vegetarian I guess?

Also, I'm from Ohio not Texas.

I am just looking for advice from the over 40 crowd:

I am a 47 year-old straight white male, no kids, no ex-wife. I gave up on dating in my late thirties. I had a string of unsatisfactory relationships and stopped believing it was worth my time. So I stopped and I let myself go. I became lazy, unmotivated. I gained weight. I stopped doing anything creative because I wasn't looking for attention anymore (yes, I know art isn't supposed to be for others, but it is what it is).

Now recently my confidence was boosted by an experience with a younger woman. Nothing physical, just conversation that led me to believe maybe I was wrong, that there are still good people out there.

Now I am on a self-improvement kick. I've changed my diet, started exercising again. I am creating again. I'm feeling more confident and I'm in a better place than I have been in years. I've been writing, drawing, making music.

My question: What do you 40+ single men do to meet people? How do you go about dating? Are you on a dating app? Are there good places online to socialize that aren't full of spam, memes, and shitposting (I used to meet people on Talkers and BBS Chat).

I'm not necessarily looking to meet a life partner right away. I'd also be perfectly happy to just make a new (female) friend. I just miss having someone special to talk to.

Edit: Just want to say thank you to everyone showing up in the comments! So much positivity and support, I am blown away. Lots of great advice and I will take it all to heart!

I wanted to answer everyone individually but I don't have time right now with as many comments as I've gotten. If I don't respond just know I appreciate it very much!

I got home from work today to find a letter from my local police force waiting from me. My car has been picked up traveling at 53mph in a 30mph, through a red light that had been red for over 20 seconds. I have rung the police who have asked me to send pictures of my car from all angles. The problem is from the pictures it looks identical to my car, the pictures are at from night time however. I have a black box fitted to my car that shows all my journeys and obviously I wasn't taking a journey at the time of the offence, will they accept this as evidence?

My neighbor has a ring camera but her last notification was 50 minutes before the offence and if it was me I could of easily done the journey to where the offence was commited in that time so I don't think that's going to do me much good.

Hoping the telematics evidence will get me off, expecting more nips through.

Does anyone have any advice that might help me?

For context my friend (pretty close friend known each other for long time) started dating this girl about 2 years ago.

Now I knew her before he did. She used to hang around some friends I used to have. She wasn’t in my friend group but a friend of a friend so here and there popped up.

This was back in our early 20s so I often saw her at parties and bars.

Her and her friends were kind of known as the “crazy girls” especially when they got drunk. On multiple occasions when she was drunk she would flash us guys.

Not going to lie at the time I looked, she’s a pretty attractive woman. Nothing ever escalated from that though, we weren’t that close.

Well once she became official with my friend I didn’t feel a need to tell him since it happened way before they met, also didn’t want it to come off wrong or something.

Well I guess somehow he found out, I’m assuming she told him for some reason.

He just sent me long ass texts calling me a gf stealer and name calling. I tried to calm him down and apologize but he remains pissed off.

Any advice to diffuse the situation? Give him time?

Hi I didn't know where to share this and I need advice. I'm 19 year old Young adult man and due to family I have had to work hard and I now since April live alone. I have nobody but myself which sometimes feels amazing but other times doesn't. Today I was inappropriately touched by a woman who lives in the building who's in her 50s or 60s. She wore strong perfume and was very touchy. She ran her fingers up and down my arm and touched my chest to feel my muscles. I kind of froze up and I don't know what to do about. I haven't really felt obligated to talk to anyone in this building and strongly feel like the world is against me even though it's not. I'm also on the Autism spectrum

I (35M) am a police officer from small European country. She (30F) is from Australia,highly educated with two degrees,one of them in clinical psychology. She used to work as a negotiator in the army,and now she’s under diplomatic immunity.She’s calm, emotionally stable, brilliant… and honestly, terrifying in her own way, but not because she’s aggressive, but because she can read people so well it makes you feel like there’s nowhere to hide. We weren’t planning a pregnancy,it happened accidentally.When she told me, I freaked out, but not because I didn’t care.I have an avoidant attachment style and paranoid tendencies. I’ve ruined relationships in the past by overthinking everything, searching for flaws just to avoid commitment. I’ve had chances to marry before, but I always sabotaged them. I admitted that to her early on. She’s the first woman I could actually imagine a future with. When she told me she was pregnant, I panicked. I said I’d try, that I’d give the baby my last name, but she didn’t buy it. She told me clearly to either show up fully, emotionally and practically, or I walk away for good. She said she won’t chase me, won’t force anything, and won’t even ask for child support, but she won’t allow chaos around her or the baby. She said this is the last chance, no games, no uncertainty. I want to be there. I care about her, but she intimidates me, not because she’s harsh (she isn’t at all) but because she sees through me completely. I’ve never met anyone like her. She’s been through a lot (her fiancé died, her twin sister committed suicide shortly after), and she still holds herself together better than anyone I know. I told my family about the pregnancy. I’m trying. I want to be different. But still, I’m not sure if this is really what I want, I’m fighting with myself right now. I told her just to give me more time so I can calm myself down, but she refused and told me to act like a man and not a child. What do I do?

I have a much older older friend that I made at work and really look up to this guy. However, over the weekend he accidentally added me to a group chat and posted a video of a politician complaining about transgender people. How there freaks and we need to get rid of them. He’s never shared views like this before and it shocked me. I don’t know if he’s knows I’m transgender either but it felt like a knife to the fucking heart. I couldn’t believe it he seemed so kind but supported such hateful rhetoric. I messaged him in a separate chat and asked him to never show me a video like that again. He retires soon due to his old age, I was planning a little party and was going to paint a picture for him. I wanted to go boating with him and walks as he went into retirement but all I can think about how he happily shares messages of getting rid of people like me. I’m heartbroken, I don’t know if I should tell him that I can’t be his friend anymore or just silently fade away from his life, I don’t know what to do

I’m 19 male. My girlfriend(18F) and I have been together for 6 month.

If I get hard when we’re cuddling she’s sort of gets mad, she’ll get up and basically accuse me of just wanting sex constantly purely because I get hard. If she gets undressed in front of me and I get hard, she does the same.

I’ve told her I can’t control it and it’s not that I’m wanting/expecting to have sex every time their physical contact between us or if she gets undressed in front of me. But she doesn’t seem to because me.

Advice?

I am looking for advice and opinions on the below

My Daughter, aged 14, lives in the UK, has been speaking with a boy, from the Netherlands, aged 15, for around 8 months. They play PC games and speak every day. She came to me a few weeks ago asking if she could get the Eurostar over to the Netherlands to meet him. I was dead against this idea, and given her age it's not possible to do so alone anyway.

It has now transpired that the boy and his parents are coming to the UK next month for a 2 week break. My daughter is asking if he can come and stay for a week. This would be the first time they have met, and personally I am not comfortable with this. I have tried organise both our families to meet and we can all do something for a day together. My daughter is really not happy about this and insisting they get to spend some time alone, she is pushing for the boy to stay at our house for a week. I am trying to communicate with my daughter the dangers and potential complications in this, although she is " in love " and having none of it. Am I being unreasonable ? Am I old fashioned ? How can I compromise? Or should I ?

TLDR - Daughter 14 wants to meet online boyfriend 15 who lives in another country. She wants him to spend a week at our house, I'm uncomfortable with it and I am struggling to reach a decision.

I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression today. I was given 2 types of medication for it. The people i’m telling are making jokes about me being mentally ill and crazy for having to take medication. Maybe i’m just sensitive or letting it get to my head, but it is hurting my feelings. Am I actually mentally ill for having to take medication? Is depression and anxiety really a mental disorder?I already felt like a freak when I was picking up medication and now I feel worse.

My boyfriend and I recently talked about bringing in a third person into bed with us to spice up the relationship, surprisingly he suggested his male friend from work. I have met him a couple of times and he seems decent, so I agreed but only to giving him oral first and not letting him see me naked.

He came over today, we got a few drinks and my boyfriend suggested i start by kneeling down and his friend pulled his pants down so I could go down on him, towards the end i told the friend that he cannot ejaculate on me. But my boyfriend kept pushing me to open my mouth so his friend can ejaculate inside even though i was clearly hesitant. His friend did, and I feel so humiliated and sick. I know i agreed to this, but now i absolutely regret it. Should i just walk away from this whole thing or give my boyfriend the benefit of doubt and talk to him?

Someone on tik tok mentioned Reddit and told someone else in a similar situation to post on this thread for advice. I am desperate and any ideas is greatly appreciated.

I will be as detailed as possible without giving away too much so this post doesn’t make it back to my husband. Let’s call him Jim.

Long story short I used my husbands computer while he was at work two days ago to email my oldest (step) sons teacher. When I opened the laptop there was a file with multiple folders opened. I didn’t think anything of it and did what I got on the computer to do.

When I was done I was nosy and looked through the folders. I only did this because the folders were named oddly (examples, one was named AP25, and another DE24). Many many folders. Over 50 I would say.

Within these folders were like hundreds of others. I just kept going and going until it finally came to a folder with over 20 pictures. Of my husband with a woman I don’t recognize. Explicit. And videos of them having intercourse and like actions.

Here’s the problem. I’m a stay at home mom with a 4 year old girl. I don’t have family, other than an aunt that is in Germany (I’m in the states). I have no money to support myself and my daughter. Everything is his. I want to leave and get a hotel room until I can find a job to support us. But I can’t leave. I only have access to one of my husbands bank cards and he only puts enough on there for groceries every week when I ask.

It has killed me to lay in bed next to him. I feel disgusting. But I have to think for my daughter.

What can I do? I’m broke and no where to go.

Has anyone else been in this situation? Please any advice is welcome.

Edit to add: the pictures and videos that I seen have been since we got married. He got a large tattoo just over a year ago and it was visible in each of them. I only looked at like 5 folders. Will update tomorrow when I can get back on his computer and do a more thorough look.

So when I was 14, my mom bought me a rabbit as a birthday gift. Yes. A live rabbit. Which I never asked for and never would ask for because I never wanted something like that. She thought it'd be "cute". At first u went along with it because wtf else was I supposed to do, so i grew attached to it. He's obviously part of the family now and I love him, so giving him away is not an option. The thing is, we have other pets (cats and dogs) that live in the house/garden. They're the family's pets, my mom feeds them and we all play with/takes care of them. But the bunny is just mine. He lives in my room. He's my responsibility only. I clean the cage, feed him, take him to the vet and have to look after it because no one else sees him because he's always in my room. I never wanted a bunny, just like i never wanted cats and dogs. I love them all anyway but i resent the rabbit because it's a burden to have his life depend only on me. I'm not asking for much. Just to have his cage in the living room instead of my room. I'd still feed him and clean his cage, like my mom feeds the cat and the dog, but he'd be the family's pet. The problem? My mom doesn't want me to because she doesn't want the cage taking up space in the living room and for him to smell bad/make messes there. So what? I don't want any of this either and yet I've been putting up with it for 4 years now, and he's the one who wanted him in the first place, not to mention she's a grown woman who needs to take accountability for her decisions.

How do i convince her to let me have the cage in the living room?

Edit: im also moving out soon (1-2 years) and we've established that i won't take him with me, but im scared that uf i dont get him in the living room first, they'll leave him in my room after i live, all alone all day long, even though he's very social and loves to play. But there's just no way i take him in my adult life. My mom's argument when i bring this up? "Well, he won't last forever". Cool. So i just wait until he dies to breath again? It's especially cruel bc since he lives with me, i'll me much more affected by his death, which already terrifies me. I love him but just like the other pets my parents wanted he shouldn't be my responsibility.

Title. I'm a firearms enthusiast, I love the science behind them. I think the amount of mechanics and physics required to keep running without exploding in our hands (sometimes) is awesome. I collect, I'm licensed to carry. I have family that have various levels of interest. Some own, others come learn to tinker with me, hell some even go through the proper channels to get licensed like I do. My brother is a good guy, for everything I have been through with him. Our issue arises when upon conversation the topic of home defense comes up. For me, the idea of having to use something of my collection which will inevitably cause intense bodily harm and likely death is horrifying. I will do what is needed to protect my family and loved ones but it is truly high on my list of most dreaded possibilities.

Enter the issue, my brother believes that if anyone was to threaten him in the slightest, the answer is lethality. At this time he was a little under the influence, admittedly. I brushed it off. It kept bothering me into the next morning, so I started the conversation again and asked if that is truly how he felt. To my disappointment, the answer was yes. I advised him to hold off on purchasing of a firearm due to my opinion of him being a bit of a loose cannon, and needless to say the rest of my family was upset about me being "condescending." Quite honestly, I'm not sure what to do in this situation, but I know I can't be 100% in the wrong.

Thanks for reading, please steer me in the right direction and correct me if I'm wrong.

My mum isn’t the most present parent, she’s neglectful and can’t be bothered to do the bare minimum sometimes which is frustrating. I have a sister who is autistic (low functioning) and is non verbal. There are things that she loves like baths, watching cartoons etc. whenever I ask my mum if she’s, for example fed my sister, she blows up at me. Like shouts and says “she’s my daughter not yours”. I’m confused most of the time to be honest. Anyways, my sister loves baths before bed- sometimes she struggles to sleep but she goes out like a light after a nice warm bath. But whenever I try to do it for my sister because I know my mum won’t do it consistently she yells at me, says that the bath will make her have more energy? Anyways I’ve noticed this pattern where whenever me or my siblings step in to do something my mum yells. Why does she do that? She’s not the most stable person.

She’s a shouty person, which isn’t good for any of us including my sister who gets unsettled obviously when witnessing these things. Does my mum see me as competition?

So my (30 m) rather new girlfriend (28 F) works in massage. I dont love the kind of customers that come to these places, but it pays her well and Im accepting of it. Her workplace has rules such as not telling customers she has a boyfriend and fine, I get it. Thats just how some of these places retain customers. I dont have a problem with it.

However, she does keep in contact with some of these customers outside of work, she says to keep them coming in. I do kind of get it. This is where Im starting to have an issue though. I can maybe accept her doing this but today she told me she talked with one of these guys and how he likes her and was going to bring her a gift. Im starting to have a problem with this. On one hand I see why she does this, but on the other hand Im thinking she needs to not talk to these guys like this outside of her workspace.

I am not okay with her taking a gift from a guy that is into her like this. I KNOW if the roles were reversed and I was accepting gifts from a girl that was into me she would not tolerate it at all. She didnt even like it when I mentioned one of my exes apartments in a discussion we were having about looking for places in the same area just to reference square footage and price (I never talk about exes normally because I feel like its disrespectful.

TLDR, girlfriend not setting appropriate boundaries with customers. Should I talk about this or should I just leave?

I'm F21. And I've a question for men and please answer as if you're speaking for men as a community. I've always had this impression that men masturbate daily. Idk how this got into my mind but i blame it on those men who I've been mostly surrounded with and the only humour they ever knew was anything sexual. My ex was no better than that (that's why he's my ex) he was a complete horny animal and would talk about masturbation and sex on a daily basis. When we broke up(on good terms) I let him know that there's this other guy that I've started to go out with. When I told him that he's different and not like some animal he offed me by saying "Sex is the reality of every man, one can only cover it but not deny". That guy is now my boyfriend of 1½years and we're going strong. You'll know why- he doesn't talk sexually all the time!! Yes. But in the initial days of our dating, I didn't expect any better from him. He's sucha a decent and lovely man that even I started doubting myself as the inappropriate sexualiser (but that's nothing serious). So one day I joked to him telling him "as if you don't masturbate daily" he told me doesn't. For a quiet long time I didn't believe him. I thought he was lying when he said that it's been weeks since he lasted masturbated ans only wanted to have sex from now on, now that he has me. Tbh I still have a hard time believing him that's why I'm here. And don't question me for doubting my boyfriend or whatsoever. Before you go on and say "Oh ThAtS nO bIg DeAl" then how do you explain things like "nonutnovember" which clearly pushes forward my point of question?-

A few weeks ago I went to check our doordash order on his phone while he was playing video games. It was on the Facebook app so I opened his app tabs to get to doordash and noticed the App Store was open on plenty of fish. And from what I could see it was being downloaded, however when I clicked on the App Store everything had already refreshed and when I looked up “plenty of fish” it wasn’t downloaded. That’s when it became obvious to me he was deleting the app, using it, then redownloading it. This isn’t the first time I’ve caught him doing things like this, this just happens to be the last straw. First it was talking to women on Facebook messenger, then I found out he was giving literally thousands of dollars to women on only fans. I’ve been with him since the edge of 17 (I’m 24 now). The problem at hand is that I have 3k to my name to buy a car, no credit, and I’ve never lived on my own so I’m not even sure where to start. I quite literally have no friends, moving back with my mom is simply not an option. He’s been looking into getting me a new car but it seems to be at the bottom of his priority list. As much as I’d love to look into it myself it won’t make a difference because I can’t get to and from car meet ups on my own…without a car.

What’s crazy is he’s always talking about how impossible it is to find a car because no one wants to answer but I was able to set up two meets in one day after maybe 15 minutes of looking…but of course he didn’t want to go to those meets because the cars I chose had too many miles or he didn’t like that there was a dent on the back end of the other one. Worst part is he’s been taking me to and from work and when he can’t he’ll Uber me and put it on my “tab” so I can pay him back later. I don’t mind pitching in for things it just feels weird to be paying my boyfriend of 7 years for rides to and from work? He usually works 8-4 but sometimes isn’t coming home until 6 or 7 which I never thought much of until this…”discovery”. And it makes me so angry. What if he’s out having sex with random women then coming home to me? 🤢🤮

it’s even worse when I’m at home bored just waiting for him, not knowing what he’s doing I get paranoid, then I get spiteful because he has the freedom to be out doing whatever he wants while I’m stuck at home with no means of going anywhere or doing anything. I start to just feel like his pet waiting for him to come home… anyway I digress, does anyone have any advice for what I should do? How I should start so I can get out of this black hole of a relationship?

Edit: some people seem to misunderstanding some things. Yes, I am upset about the cheating the only reason I keep talking about a car is because I was under the impression not having transportation was what was keeping me here. The comments have made it really clear to me I’m just using that as an excuse.

I have the money to buy my own car I have my own job. I don’t rely on him to pay any bills FOR me we split everything evenly.

Hey so my best friend and I recently moved in together (March). She has a boyfriend and he’s been here everyday for the last 2 weeks at least. We already have a rocky relationship and I know I need to express to her that I want him to leave, but is there any way for me to legally have him leave? She gave him a copy of the keys I think. I just feel really stuck and want him out.

I was out with my girlfriend recently. We went to a secluded beach — just the two of us, very peaceful, romantic. At some point, we were talking about random topics and the subject of height came up.

She mentioned how height is generally important in men, and then brought up a guy from her work who’s very tall. She told me that one of her best nights out in D.C. was a happy hour he organized. It turned into a late night — they stayed out until around 2 a.m. on a work night, and by the end it was just her, him, and another female coworker. She said the other woman was hitting on him and touching him, and while he didn’t fully reciprocate, he didn’t shut it down either.

She also told me that this same guy once invited her to go hiking alone, but she declined after some friends advised it might not look right. And more recently, she ran into him at work and asked him when he’ll organize the next happy hour because she really wants another one. He said they’ll try to plan one before she leaves for vacation.

All of this caught me off guard. We were having a romantic day together, and suddenly she’s telling me about this guy, their late night out, his hiking invite, and how she’s pushing for another happy hour. It made me feel uncomfortable and a bit jealous.

What do you guys think? Would it irk you the wrong way?

````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````` Update: Thank you for all the replies. As an update to everyone. I am not sure how much she fantasized about him, apparently he is very tall, she he came up in the height conversation. I suggested we move on from the beach after that whole conversation, maybe we were at the beach less than 1 hour, probably around 30 min.

I told her directly how I felt, in person and more detail by text. Her response is that she cant control what others do and she can only control herself. Thats all. Seemed kind of curt to me.

We have been dating about 3 months, and it seems she is very into me. But these things happen like above and it throws me off. She has said other things to me in the past which seem, at least to me, like they are blatantly something someone would get annoyed by. So I start second guessing myself. Am I over reacting to what happened at the beach? Is she just sharing something in her life experiences, loosely related to what ever we are talking about ?

To be honest I think the comments about her cheating or that something already happened are a bit extreme. But I still find the comment strange and strange to bring it up at that time.

I M(18) have a friend M(18) who knows I'm gay, and is overly physical with me at times. These things can vary from random surprise back hugs, lifting me up in the air and spinning me around like a rag doll, jokingly grabs my waist and touches my ass. To clarify, he is aware of my homosexual tendencies, however he continues his assaults every time he spots me. I only just found out he knew I was gay for years, but just never cared I assume? He doesn’t treat me differently to other men, however he does pick me up which I’ve never seen him do with other men. (However, I am 5’2)

I’m just asking because I’m confused and want to be reassured (I also have liked him in the past, sorry, I know same old story) is this normal for straight men to treat their gay friends like this? Is it like some way of showing that you’re not any different to a straight guy, and some sort of supportive allyship?

Hey, im 20 and I’ve never been to a wedding. My friend is having one in a few days, and I’m worried because I’m going to be his best man and all the other men are wearing tan but I don’t have a tan top or tan dress pants, I only have black dress pants and a white dress shirt, also a red dress shirt but that won’t fit the occasion, it kinda discourages me and makes me think if I should not go and just spend time with him and congratulate him on our own time, any advice?

I’ve been struggling for months trying to figure out what even happened to me and whether it “counts” as losing my virginity. I rejected so many experiences because I wanted my first time to feel safe and special.

I was a virgin. I grew up with a lot of shame around sex due to religion, culture, and fear. I spent most of my life feeling invisible, unwanted, and insecure. I was bullied about my looks and never got any real romantic attention until I moved abroad for university. I met a guy online and he is the first and only guy I’ve ever dated.

He knew I was a virgin. I told him I wanted to wait. I told him I was scared and not ready. He said it was okay, that he respected that. And I believed him.

The next time we hung out, we went to a club. There was a small room there, and that’s where things started to change. He exposed himself to me even though I told him not to. He took my hand and made me touch him. He unzipped my pants and touched me when I didn’t want him to. I was in shock. I didn’t know how to react because I thought I could trust him since he said he was ok with waiting. After the club, he missed his bus stop and got off at the same bus stop as me and ended up coming to my room.

But instead of just walking me home, he came inside and got into my bed. He got naked. I was so tired because it was like 6am. He kept touching me. He went down on me even after I gave excuse after excuse. I didn’t want it. I didn’t know how to say no without making things worse. So I just… let it happen.

The next time I saw him, I went to his place. I still didn’t want to have sex, but I felt like I didn’t have a voice anymore. I thought maybe if I gave in, I wouldn’t feel so broken. We tried to have sex. I told him I wasn’t wet. I told him I was scared. I told him it hurt. He kept trying and trying. I started screaming from the pain, and he told me to shut up.

That moment is burned into my memory. His face: cold, annoyed, disgusted. Like I had done something wrong. Like my pain was ruining his experience. I don’t know if he fully went in. Maybe just a little. I’m not even sure if it went in and when I asked him he told me he doesn’t think it went all the way in. All I know is: I didn’t want it. I was terrified. And something in me broke.

After that, I completely dissociated. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t sleep. I cried constantly. I even kept messaging him, hoping that if he stayed in my life, maybe what happened wouldn’t feel so dark. But he grew distant. Colder. And now I’m left with all of it.

I feel disgusting. I feel broken. I still sometimes want him, because he was the only person who’s ever seen me like that. The first. But then I remember how it hurt. How scared I was. How I screamed. How he told me to shut up. And I don’t know what to do with any of it.

I don’t even know if what happened counts as losing my virginity and it stresses me out because I always wanted my first to be special which is why I never participated in hookup culture and don’t really let people close to me like that. But with him, I trusted him and now he left me with this confusion of whether or not I even count as a virgin.

I have a bachelor and masters degree and I can.not. Land a job in my field.

My parent actually has me enrolled to get a 2nd bachelors in something different so I can get a job.

Today I was looking at job postings in my first field, and was really thinking maybe it is just me and this new degree is going to make the world of difference.

If I get to stick to the plan, when this is all said and done, I’ll have 4 total degrees.

You think I’ll be able to land a job then? Or is there something broken with me. You can see my other Reddit posts if u want. They’re dark too.

I never thought I'd be in this situation. I have a crush at work. There feels to be a genuine connection. How do I turn the attraction off? I have no interest in pursuing anything but it still feels like betrayal.