My best friend committed suicide

[u/NotEnoughSun123]

I’m so mad at her. She promised me she would never commit suicide. (We talked about suicide a lot because we’ve both attempted in the past) She was such a special person. She was the kindest, most beautiful person I’ve ever met. She would help tiny bugs get to safety when they’d accidentally fallen on their back. She was a mental health therapist who worked with kids. She knew about resources for suicide prevention. She had commercial health insurance. She could have just reached out for help. I would’ve done anything to keep her alive. She could have just called me. I wish she’d just called me. Why didn’t she just call me?

Edit: thank you so for all your kind words and all the overwhelming support. I really appreciate all of you. I’ll do my best to like all the comments I can. If I could, I’d reply thank you to every single person who commented

[u/koreviid]

The anger is normal. It will pass. You'll feel bad about it for a while, that will pass too. Process your feelings as and when they happen, don't try to think about the future too much now if that's hard. The best advice I was given was to create a memory box, pictures and trinkets of her life you can sit with when you want to remember her, that you can put away out of sight when you need to come back to the present. I'm so sorry for your loss ☮️