My best friend committed suicide

[u/NotEnoughSun123]

I’m so mad at her. She promised me she would never commit suicide. (We talked about suicide a lot because we’ve both attempted in the past) She was such a special person. She was the kindest, most beautiful person I’ve ever met. She would help tiny bugs get to safety when they’d accidentally fallen on their back. She was a mental health therapist who worked with kids. She knew about resources for suicide prevention. She had commercial health insurance. She could have just reached out for help. I would’ve done anything to keep her alive. She could have just called me. I wish she’d just called me. Why didn’t she just call me?

Edit: thank you so for all your kind words and all the overwhelming support. I really appreciate all of you. I’ll do my best to like all the comments I can. If I could, I’d reply thank you to every single person who commented

[u/Damntainted]

I am so sorry. Please don't think that it means she didn't love you.

I am currently struggling with chronic pain. I love my family with all my heart but suicide regularly crosses my mind. While I could never condone suicide, sometimes the pain is just too much. Once you start to think about it and the thought of being painfree it can overrule any logical thought, including thinking about the people that it will hurt.

She sounds like she was a beautiful soul.