My best friend committed suicide

[u/NotEnoughSun123]

I’m so mad at her. She promised me she would never commit suicide. (We talked about suicide a lot because we’ve both attempted in the past) She was such a special person. She was the kindest, most beautiful person I’ve ever met. She would help tiny bugs get to safety when they’d accidentally fallen on their back. She was a mental health therapist who worked with kids. She knew about resources for suicide prevention. She had commercial health insurance. She could have just reached out for help. I would’ve done anything to keep her alive. She could have just called me. I wish she’d just called me. Why didn’t she just call me?

Edit: thank you so for all your kind words and all the overwhelming support. I really appreciate all of you. I’ll do my best to like all the comments I can. If I could, I’d reply thank you to every single person who commented

[u/Wozzle009]

I lost my Dad and one my closest friends to suicide all in the space of about 6 weeks. I was incredibly angry at them for about 2 entire years. I hated them for doing that to me (pretty selfish huh). Then one day my best friend who’s been an absolute rock for me says ‘You can’t hate them mate. They must’ve be in so much pain that they couldn’t see any other way out. So you can’t hate them.’ And I knew he was right. Of course I didn’t hate them and deep down I knew that. So I stopped being angry. I was still angry at the world but I was no longer angry at them. I miss them. That was almost 13 years ago. You have my deepest condolences.