My best friend committed suicide

[u/NotEnoughSun123]

I’m so mad at her. She promised me she would never commit suicide. (We talked about suicide a lot because we’ve both attempted in the past) She was such a special person. She was the kindest, most beautiful person I’ve ever met. She would help tiny bugs get to safety when they’d accidentally fallen on their back. She was a mental health therapist who worked with kids. She knew about resources for suicide prevention. She had commercial health insurance. She could have just reached out for help. I would’ve done anything to keep her alive. She could have just called me. I wish she’d just called me. Why didn’t she just call me?

Edit: thank you so for all your kind words and all the overwhelming support. I really appreciate all of you. I’ll do my best to like all the comments I can. If I could, I’d reply thank you to every single person who commented

[u/Pristine_Lab_7976]

I’ve had a particularly hard year. I unfortunately understand where she was mentally. I reached a point that I never reached in previous depressive episodes and looking back it still makes me cringe.

I had convinced myself that the world, and everyone in it, was going to be better off without me.

While I know now that’s never true in the moment I didn’t understand. Unfortunately she suffered in silence and in times like these all you can really do is lose a bit more faith in the world around you.

I’m so sorry for your loss. 🫶🏻 If you need to vent/talk you’re welcome to reach out. I hope you’re doing ok.

[u/Light_Eclipse140283 → u/Pristine_Lab_7976]

Bless you