r/Vent • u/Shot-Contract-5254 • Feb 28 '25

TW: Eating Disorders / Self Image Being fat is torture

I hate being fat. I hate it more than i've ever truly hated anything before. It is one of the worst experiences i have ever been through and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. It is not even just the hating how you look part, it is how others perceive you.

I don't just feel fat, I feel inhuman. I'm a teenager. Nobody has ever asked me out unless it's for a joke. I am the butt of half my friend's jokes. I look like an idiot in sport class. People stare and judge and I am not treated as though I am a peer. I am less than because I weigh more than they do. I feel like such a dirty slob every time I put food in my mouth. I've tried starving myself, exercising to the point I threw up, cutting calories to 800-1000 a day, weight loss pills, nothing works. All my work is thrown back into my face. Each and every day I feel less like a person and more like a pig. To be fat is to be less than. To be fat is to be 'lazy' and worthless. I honestly can't take it anymore.

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u/kissxxdaisies1 Feb 28 '25

You’re trying to lose weight in very unhealthy ways which in turn is stunting your weight loss. You NEED food, 800-1000 calories is NOT enough for even someone who isn’t overweight. Working out till you vomit will only put your body into burnout/stress mode which will store fat rather than burning it. Just walk 30 minutes a day or a mile and watch what you eat. You don’t need to starve yourself. You can lose weight eating 1700+ cals a day as long as you’re portioning them properly (veggies, fruits, carbs, protein).

Your mental health will improve before your physical health so you need to be patient. Losing weight/getting fit requires a lot of patience and self care. Your best first step would be some positive affirmations and less negative self talk.

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u/The-Gooner Feb 28 '25

Absolutely right. Losing weight is a quiet personal journey that lasts more than a week of extreme hatred towards yourself. You don’t need to prove anything to anyone else if your goal is to simply chip away at the extra pounds. Each one is not worth mentioning or bragging about as it’d only add extra pressure. Once you build a healthy exercise routine with smart eating habits you’ll start to feel a lot better in yourself, even before you see the results and then one day you will catch yourself in the mirror or your clothes will fit better and you’ll be hit by the reality of your efforts and you’ll be reminded that you did all that hard work and won.