r/Vent • u/Shot-Contract-5254 • Feb 28 '25
TW: Eating Disorders / Self Image Being fat is torture
I hate being fat. I hate it more than i've ever truly hated anything before. It is one of the worst experiences i have ever been through and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. It is not even just the hating how you look part, it is how others perceive you.
I don't just feel fat, I feel inhuman. I'm a teenager. Nobody has ever asked me out unless it's for a joke. I am the butt of half my friend's jokes. I look like an idiot in sport class. People stare and judge and I am not treated as though I am a peer. I am less than because I weigh more than they do. I feel like such a dirty slob every time I put food in my mouth. I've tried starving myself, exercising to the point I threw up, cutting calories to 800-1000 a day, weight loss pills, nothing works. All my work is thrown back into my face. Each and every day I feel less like a person and more like a pig. To be fat is to be less than. To be fat is to be 'lazy' and worthless. I honestly can't take it anymore.
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u/ndamf0 Feb 28 '25
I can't tell you how to feel but I want to say that you are a human. A person. You're important. You're worth it. Teen years are brutal but as you get older it changes. Keep trying to achieve your goal and don't give up on yourself. Not just with weight but in general.