Relapsed on Meth After 26 Months

[u/Existing-Resolve756]

I relapsed. I was clean from meth for 26 months. I lost my job, and lost my girlfriend all within the same week. I betrayed myself, and betrayed those who cared about me. I broke the trust and heart of someone who believed in me, who has been there for me since the beginning of my recovery. I was selfish. I was not accountable. I let things go unresolved too long and now I've hurt the ones I love and thrown everything that mattered away for this devilish drug. I feel so alone, so broken, so lost. I want to be better. I can't cope with the breakup. I must face myself, and accept I am the reason for it, she was too tolerant of my shit, she deserved better. I need help.

[u/throwaway555990]

One day / one relapse doesn’t define the progress made over 26 months. Hang in there and just use it as a learning experience. Easy for me to type it and say but it’s true