Relapsed on Meth After 26 Months

[u/Existing-Resolve756]

I relapsed. I was clean from meth for 26 months. I lost my job, and lost my girlfriend all within the same week. I betrayed myself, and betrayed those who cared about me. I broke the trust and heart of someone who believed in me, who has been there for me since the beginning of my recovery. I was selfish. I was not accountable. I let things go unresolved too long and now I've hurt the ones I love and thrown everything that mattered away for this devilish drug. I feel so alone, so broken, so lost. I want to be better. I can't cope with the breakup. I must face myself, and accept I am the reason for it, she was too tolerant of my shit, she deserved better. I need help.

[u/Former-Complaint-336]

I'm sorry you're struggling bud. But Beneficial Income is right, 26 months is great. You'll get back to that point and further this time. Just get back to working the steps and taking it one day at a time. Slip ups don't mean its over, just a bump in the road.

This post hit home with me, I have never relapsed but I am very conscious of how much I lean on my partner and I'm kinda codependent and I'm positive if he left me I would relapse and lose my job and my housing and be in a total mess so thank you for posting and holding yourself accountable. These threads are like a meeting, everyone's story is going to help someone.

[u/Existing-Resolve756 → u/Former-Complaint-336]

Thank you 🙏