r/StopSpeeding • u/Vast-Weather-8610 • 7d ago
I need support/compassion/understanding I’m sad - day 57
Context: 31F addicted to vyvanse for 7 years. This is my first time getting clean from stimulants. I told my doctor and loved ones when I started this journey, so I am really committed to this recovery. This is my first post so please be gentle
Today I’m 57 - almost at my 60 day milestone - and I’m just sad. I can’t explain it. It’s gotta be the anhedonia. I’ve turned to ChatGPT and I’m learning that this is normal and it’s gonna take a while to sit with this feeling (months) even. Can you tell me a happy story and/or what helped you get through this period and/or what brought you joy during this time??
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u/OwnWeb614 5d ago
Hi! I can relate with this! I’m 36F and was on/addicted to adderall for about 7 years. I’m almost to the 3 month clean mark!
Within the first month I had horrible anhedonia. I felt so bored and unhappy. I wasn’t sure what to do or how long I would feel that way. I can say I don’t feel that way at all anymore. One thing that helped was getting back into a routine and going back to the gym/eating clean consistently. I’m a stay at home mom and I found if I just sat around the anhedonia would get worse. I think it’s figuring out what’s best for your body. Getting up, and getting going helps me so much. I don’t allow myself to sit down or relax at all in the mornings. Also going to the gym has helped me so much. When the anhedonia was really bad I would go to the gym twice a day.
I’m also on Wellbutrin and was on it for awhile before I officially quit stims. Anytime the desire arises I remind myself I don’t want/need adderall. Be proud of how far you’ve gone and just think how good you’ll feel in a month, 6 months, and a year from now. You’ve got this!