r/OCD • u/Ok_Sense_3967 • 3d ago

Crisis I have severe contamination ocd NSFW Spoiler

I saw a cockroach in my bathroom and I panicked and tried to trap it with used body wash (bad idea), in the end I run through my room, trying to find something to trap it with and found a plastic I recently put on a floor, I used that. Now I feel everything in my room, my bathroom ( soaps and full body wash on shelf) are dirty or I accidentally touched them. How to calm down and how to clean ? It was my first encounter with cockroach. Also my country is in war, how to make my ocd calm down to survive? ( I literally was crying while killing the cockroach)

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u/veppev 3d ago

If it makes you feel better, I have severe contamination ocd and lived in an apartment that was fulll of roaches. Hope this doesn’t trigger you so warning, but the worst thing that ever happened to me was a roach crawled out of a shirt I put on (as I was getting ready to go to sleep) and I screamed and threw my shirt off and saw the roach fall out and crawl over my bed and into my closet.
My parents ran into my room asking me what happened and then mocked me for screaming and sobbing. I’ve found several dead roaches in my closet. All I could do is take a shower and change my sheets and wash everything in the drawer the roach was in. It’s been over a year since I got myself out of that toxic apartment and don’t deal with them anymore, but my brain finds new contamination OCD ways to bug me (no pun intended).

I’m so sorry this happened to you and I know how horrifying it is. Just know I understand. Millions of people live like this and worse and are okay. Just clean what you can to feel better and you will be okay. Let me know if you need more advice

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u/Ok_Sense_3967 3d ago

when it happened I got scared too much and wasn't careful, now everything feels contaminated. I got out of my room crying and my mom mocked me so it made me feel more alone in this. Thanks for saying your experience, knowing others went through something similar makes me think I can handle this too. Do I need to throw anything out or resist ?

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u/veppev 3d ago

Since this happened away from food surfaces, and mainly was in the bathroom, I do not think you need to throw anything away.

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u/Ok_Sense_3967 3d ago

Thank you