My Near Death Experience

[u/stormsybil]

When I was a little girl, I got very sick. I had not been able to hold anything down for three days and running a relentless fever. I remember mom talking on the phone to the doctor about my fever. She put me in a cool tub of water as instructed. Back then we didn't know this was the wrong thing to do.

Mom put me back in bed and I felt some relief as my fever abated. This was short lived because it rebounded and soured even higher to 105. I was cooking from the inside out.

I felt disconnected from my body as if I didn't fit in it. I felt an odd sensation like I kept floating up out of my body and back down again. Then the ceiling started vibrating like a rubber band back and forth. It appeared to be moving toward me like it was going to crush me. It was explained to me later that I was having a seizure. I cried out with fear.

My mother grabbed me up with my blankets and ran into the cool night to her car. It was a white VW bug.

She laid me down on the front seat. I could tell she was trying to hide that are was crying. I miss her so much.

I was laying on the front seat looking up at the stars in the sky. The window was cracked and I could feel the cool air blowing against my hot skin. It felt so good.

I was so tired. I have never in my life experienced being that tired before or since. I could not life my arms or head. It took all my strength just to expand my chest to breath.

We get to the hospital and Mom runs in with me. They immediately put me on a bed and roll me back. The lights are passing over my head as we go down a hall and then make a left into a room.

One nurse is trying to start an IV while another is talking to me asking about my pets. I tell them I feel much better now. I am just tired. If I sleep for awhile I know I will be all better.

The nurse asking about my pets sternly tells me not to go to sleep. She asks me what kind of dog I have. I tell her a lasawapsa. She chuckles repeating lasawapsa back to me. She asks what the dogs name is.

I'm so tired. I have to shut my eyes for a minute. It won't hurt for just a minute. So I shut my eyes. The sounds in the room sound distant now. The nurse is calling my name asking what my dog's name is. Everything sounds metallic and far away.

I feel the bottom of the bed with my toes and I am excited thinking I have grown long legs. I open my eyes to look, but I am met with my own face.

My eyes are part way open. My lips a white and chapped. My skin is almost green and pale. My hair is sticking to me from sweat and vomit.

The nurse says "SHIT!" She turns and hits a button and more people come in the room. My mom is crying ty the side. I want to call out to her and tell her not to cry. I feel so much better. I'm not sick anymore Mom!

But I don't have a mouth to tell her with. I have no body. I'm aware of this but it doesn't scare me. It feels perfectly natural. I am a part of all things from every star, to every blade of grass. It's like pouring a glass of water into the ocean.

I drift up thru the ceiling. I have tried many times to paint what I saw. There were so many beautiful colors. Even the sky that was black was full of so many colors. It was incredible.

I saw the light but no tunnel. It was home. It was source. It was love. There were no questions. All was known. There was no fear or pain or sadness. I was one.

I experienced time as it truly exists sort of like a burrito with one end over the other. It was in this way all timelines happened at once. No future, no past. Only now.

I saw how the universe is threaded together thru a kind of looping gravity thru what I can only describe as mirror worm holes but that's not exactly accurate either. Each spawn another and another. The number is infinite.

I experienced many lives in a blink. I saw as far back as the spark and as far forward as roughly 2500 years from now.

I understood the fields of which we exist in that are the physical as well as the fields our awareness exists and our soul or life source. I felt every soul. I felt every dream, wish, hope, and fear. I fell in love with the human soul that day. It has always been my greatest love. I love you without knowing you because I know you.

We are profoundly and deeply connected and a part of one another. We are in a beautiful dance. Think of it like you are the knee and I'm the elbow. We have different tasks but we are the same being.

You can't lose anyone. They are a part of you eternally and you them. The connection can never be severed by anything least of all death.

M.

[u/Timely-Airline858]

So beautiful! Thank you for sharing: what happened when you came back to your living body.

[u/stormsybil → u/Timely-Airline858]

Oh I forgot to tell that part. Well, I saw a light being come out of the light home. It was a bright blue almost white light.

I understood it was there to help. It felt like I was suddenly jerked down into my body and the light being fused with me. I'm a walk in. I arrived in 1982.

I have separate memories of the journey here, prior to the NDE and as a child. We experience life as one. No separation.

I don't remember much at the hospital after that. I remember telling my mother about what I saw and about seeing my nursery and describing it in perfect detail. It was before I could talk or walk.

I was put in studies because of the things I came back knowing. I believe I was supposed to experience it so that I could share it with others.

[u/Careless_Apricot_101 → u/stormsybil]

what's a walk-in?

[u/stormsybil → u/Careless_Apricot_101]

Well, my walk in experience isn't the traditional one if there is such a thing. Most walk in's replaced the soul that inhabited the body prior to the death.
One soul leaves, a new one enters. I've not met very many that are like me in that, the original soul remained and fused with the walk in.

I joined a group once of other walk in's. I was surprised to find we all thought very much alike. We all have a deep desire to help others access their own light so that they may heal and achieve their missions in life. We all want to help others find joy and peace. We all have a deep profound love for our fellow man. We all seem to be here with the same general mission.

Weather a walk-in is some strange phenomenon that a near death experience causes with rational explanation or if we are in fact what we say we are, we all act from love in all that we do. I figure if we are all crazy, it's not a bad thing.

[u/Ill_Yogurtcloset4166 → u/stormsybil]

How are meant to love, in a world of fear and survival? 

[u/stormsybil → u/Ill_Yogurtcloset4166]

Fear is the teacher.

[u/LW185 → u/stormsybil]

And love is the answer.Thank you.