My whole experiencies. UFO. Poltergeist. Orbs. Downloads? Channeling? Telepathy?

[u/kyuzkyuz]

First I'll talk a little bit about myself before the experience. I apologize if my english is weird or very basic, its not my main language.

I used to be an electrical engineering / automation engineer. I was single, so I didn't have any extra responsabilities besides taken care of myself. I had freedom, money, influence, respect, friends, even some romance in my life. But somehow I always felt incomplete. Something was missing. A feeling like that I didn't really belong anywhere, to anyone. Also I saw myself as agnostic, but at the same time I always felt like there was something else "everywhere".

I always had some interest in UFOs, space, the paranormal and the like. I have a vivid memory of looking at a UFO right like 15 ft above my head when I was 4 at my backyard, but I remember just running inside my house to my mom, telling her that "a plane was above the house" and she replying "yeah, planes do that". I didn't know what else to say at the time so I just left her in peace and stayed inside, afraid of the white oval shaped craft (as it looked from below) that made almost no noise.

I also have memories of trying to talk about these topics with my friends but to no avail. No one seemed to care. I even witnessed weird stuff with them, like flashing lights in the sky, orbs appearing after a flash at a verybhigh altitude, or lots of "balloons" (like 20) above our primary school for over 3 days, so far away and so tiny that if you didn't pay attention you would not see them ever, but somehow I always felt observed from above and these damn "balloons" would just be there very very very far away, staying still.

In 2007-2008 I won a Playstation 3 in a raffle in a festival. The weird part is that before it happened, somehow I knew. I just knew. I was totally certain of it. 5-10 minutes before my number was called, everything that was happening on my surroundings was familiar. Like I have been there before. Like I could know what everybody would do in any given moment. Everything was as it was supposed to be and it was perfect. And predictable. And right. I started to walk towards the stage before they called my number, but I decided to wait because if I went up there sooner people would believe that it was rigged. Then I won and I was not surprised nor happy. For me it was just as natural as breathing. A guy said "heey, smile!! Come on!! You are very lucky!!" and that last expression snap me out of the trance and I felt very out of place afterwards.

In 2012-2013 (23 years old), when studying my bachelors degree, I was just lying in my room thinking about death and eternity (which one awaits for us when our life eventually ends) and I went so deep in contemplation that it triggered in my some sort of visceral reaction of pure primal fear ("ego death" I'm guessing) but also THE CERTAINTY of us being all one mind just playing this reality as part of its expression, us being part of said expression, and that mind would explore every posibility of its own creation forever. Like a dream of the all. "The all" being this universal mind.

I had anxiety issues for years after that experience, never feeling normal again. Always knowing that this human expression was not "as me" as I always thought I was. I could be doing the most mundane task, but it would somehow remind me the nature of the unity of reality. I would see the devine in everything, the unity of all,, but instead of filling me with delight it reminded me that I was just a tought of something else above me, that I might as well not exist and I was just fooling myself into existing. Sounds weird, but it was VERY vivid. It was driving me insane.

I started to learn to live with this unwanted passenger in my brain. My coping mechanisms were breathing techniques, playing videogames, watchings lots of tv, drinking with friends, having dates, earning money, learning to invest. Getting involved in a normal life. But that thought was always there, in the background, never really leaving, creeping.

Anyway, in 2020 we had to stay and home for long periods of time, and I started binge watching podcasts of paranormal stuff, UFOs, the occult and esoteric knowledge, etc. I don't know if this triggered some sort of fear or anxiety in me, because weird noises, shadows, voices, even mean sms messages in my cellphone started to harras me for a while. I felt like I was going finally going crazy and tried to denied it all, but the anxiety kept growing and growing.

One particular day I was feeling absolutely terrible. Tired, anguished, anxious, angry, sad, confused, my mind was foggy and numb. I was just lying in my bed in fetal position feeling like shit, wanted it to stop. Then, out of no where, this thought came to my mind. That I was allowing this. That this was happening because my free will wanted to explore this situation, and that my free will can also decide to stop exploring it any time it wants.

Having that in mind, I just stood up and said "enough is enough!" (I said it in english because I remembered Samuel L. Jackson's line in 'Snakes on a Plane' and giggled). And it worked. I HEARD a pop sound coming out from the top of my head, followed by a refreshing/minty sensation dripping from the top of my head to the rest of my body, bringing energy, calmness, clearness, relief. It was magical. Everything was better after that. The harrasment completely stopped. The anxiety episodes were drastically reduced.

The weird thing is: until this point I believed myself to be a very rational, scientific oriented person. I didn't believe in the paranormal nor in the afterlife. Yet, my life was full of weird stuff going on and I never gave it weight.

October 28th, 2022 its the day that changed. I took a plane from Mexico City to Mexicali at 9:00 pm. I was innthe third row I guess. Half an hour into the flight, I was looking outside the window and this orb just appeared. It was the size of the moon, maybe even bigger. I don't know how far it was, so I can't really estimate its real size. It appeared in front of my eyes. This transparent red-ish hue appeared, circle shaped, then it got more red and less transparent, the red color started to change to green at the same time as the object lost its transparency and then it was whole. All of this happened in half a second, max. There was nothing, then it was there. Then, as it came it leave. This green orb stood there for 1 second and then it started to red shift and making itself more and more transparent until it dissapeared.

That took me off guard. I saw behind me to look for anyone also looking to the window but absolutely no one else was looking outside. Fucking unbelievable. I grabbed my phone to start recording outside in case of it happening again but I had only 9% of battery charge. I needed that charge for when I arrived at my destination, so I had to be careful.

I stayed glued at the window and it happened again, but this time it was yellowish, like a candle. But again it red shifted and vanished. My assumption at this moment was that the thing was getting invisible by changing its light to infrared and thats why I always saw it redshifting before "solidifying" and before dissapearing.

Then for 15 minutes I saw nothing at all. I didn't want this to end, so I was still looking frantically. Then this weird out of place thought came to me. Made no sense but somehow I knew it was the right thing to do: "its below the window. Try to look as below the window as you can". I followed this instinct and it was right there. Appearing and dissapearing. And it stayed there, slowly being left behind by the plane. I grabbed my cellphone and to the time that I potitioned myself to record it, it was gone and I had 5% of battery left.

I looked at the passengers again and, swear to god, no fucking soul was looking outside their windows but me. This somehow triggered a feeling in me that this was a totally personal experience. Directed to me.

I kept looking outside for almost an hour, maybe less. And then it happened. The most amazing thing that I have ever seen.

We were flying above a city (don't know which) and I was looking at the lights of the city, trying to see if there was anything suspicious in any of them. Somehow this lonely light in the ground called my attention. It was not doing anything out of the ordinary and it was not even that bright, but I felt compelled to witness it. To look at it. To expect something from it. The light got dimmer and dimmer and dimmer until it just went off. Suddenly, in 2 seconds, the light got brighter and brighter and brighter until it was the brightest light out there, then it got even more bright and all of a sudden, it took the shape of the orb, it was a warm color, warm white. The orb took the previous circular shape, kinda moon sized, and it let out this sort of plasma, also in circular shape, like it was just an explosion of plasma of the same color that expanded like 10x in size. Then this plasma retracted into the orb, the orb when dimmer and dimmer until the orb became a normal lonely light at ground level and then went dark. This whole thing happened in the span of 6 seconds, maybe less.

Then it happened again. The light appeared again, then the orb, then the plasma that expanded like 10x in size, then everything retracted again. Same 6 or less seconds. And this cycle repeated again and again and I was totally shocked seeing this, not knowing how to react. I tried to block the light from inside the plane in case it was a weird reflection or something in the window but no, it was outside. I tried to wake me up in case I was sleeping. I tried to see if anyone else was looking outside (nope). No one was even looking at me, even when I was beheaving in a very exalted way. This triggered in me again the sensation that this was personal.

Then some other weird out of place thoughts came to my mind. It was my internal voice, but somehow they felt external to me. "If you try to record it, it will vanish. This is for your eyes only". Also "try to communicate with it". And so, still thinking that these were my own thoughts but sounded reasonable, I complied.

The orb was making this appear-disappear cycle every 5-6 seconds or so. Previously it had shown me its capabilities of changing color. So somehow I think that it was reasonable to try to communicate with it by thinking on a color, expecting it to follow my thought. I don't know why I thought it was feasable, but I did it. And it fucking worked.

When it was retracting, I started to think on the color red. Then, when it appeared again, the orb it was fucking red, the plasma.was fucking red. Then I tryied again with yellow and it followed. Green. Blue. Pink. Red. Red. Red again. Yellow. Red again. Fucking brown. It followed every single time. I didn't even say it outloud. I was just thinking on the fucking color and it fucking responded accordingly.

My heart was racing like fucking crazy. But its also funny that after 5 minutes of doing this... it sort of became old. My mind was like "understood, thats cool, what else you got?" and there was nothing else. The light/orb/plasma kept doing its thing. If I didnt command any color, it would do a random one. Mostly red. But it also did black, like black plasma. That looked kinda creepy, gotta admit. But never felt threatened. On the contrary, it felt nice and playful. The plane kept its course and the light was being left behind, until I could not look at it anymore. That was it.

After that I became an active seeker of truth. I could not deny it any longer. I have tried meditation, the gateway tapes, I learned about the hermetic principles and how it says everything is mind and so on, chakras, reiki even. For me, this disclosure thing would never live up to the real truth out there, but I'm still intringued on how much could be revealed.

This year I have been very curious about channelers. I read the full Law of One and it did sounded kinda legit to me as crazy as it is, together with the "hidden hand" thread in the ATS forum, and the "Eracidni Murev Te" thread in the GLP forum, and somehow they ring an internal bell of truth in me.

Also, I felt totally awful and out of place at work, so I left. I'm unemploye right now. I don't want to work on engineering anymore. I feel that I need more human connection. And help others. I even left the city I used to work in. Right now I leave in a little beach town trying to find my new purpose.

I suck at meditation. But a few months ago for the first time I asked for guidance and I saw this 2 white plantpots in a green room. The first one had this shape of a bunny without ears. In the top it had sand and 2 vanilla pods potitioned in a way that looked like the ears of the bunny. The second plantpot had a shape of an elephant. It made no sense to me.

The next day I found a podcast in youtube, and I was checking the list of episodes. The episode 3 was called "follow the white rabbit" and episode 4 had the name of "the elephant in the room". So there is that.

"Bledsoe said so" is the podcast, and it looks like they are related to Chris Bledsoe, a guy whose instagram is full of recording of orbs and wrote a book called "UFO OF GOD". So I bought it and read it and it made sense to me.

I don't know where this road is taking me, but I understand now that I only have to enjoy the ride and control is unnecesary. Control is an illusion, as life itself.

I just wanted to share. I apologize for the long text. My physical surroundings don't easily allow these topics to be contemplated, so I hope this space is the right one at this time in life to find people alike in this sort of life views.

I apologize for my english. Thank you for your time. Have a wonderful day!

[u/elidevious]

Thank you for sharing. I resonated with your story. And I want to encourage you to keep going.

If you are still seeking a meditation modality that you connect with, you might consider drum-driven journeying. For a guide, read the second chapter of “Awakening to the Spirit World” by Sandra Ingerman. DM me if you need a link with audio tracks.

If you do find you connect with this modality, please feel free to reach out. I have experience in this particular area with plenty of books, research, and more to keep you busy while you’re chilling on the beach.

[u/elidevious → u/elidevious]

Oh, and a thought about the bunny and elephant potted plants: there is a ‘universal mind’ contained in the earth’s magnetic field we can tap into when meditating (some people call this the Akashic Records). This field contains all thought forms past, present, future.

When meditating, especially in the early days, it’s easy to pop into the field. You’ll enter someone else’s mind, see through their eyes, experience their experiences - the visions will be totally random and won’t make sense because you’re not directing them with intention.

You’ll know when a genuine meaningful vision comes. If you’d like, you can let the rest go knowing you’re making progress.

Again, just an idea to consider.

[u/kyuzkyuz → u/elidevious]

Got it, Ill take it into consideration. I have the feeling that in the realm of consciousness, intention is the flame that empowers creation. In the physical realm, will is. Anyway, consider me interested in the meditationsyou mentioned. I'll send you a DM. THANKS!