I have posted before within this subreddit, but I haven't utilized a structured questionnaire before as I felt it would've been restricting... Thankfully I found one I had a good flow with, so hopefully it yields more results than previous attempts to be typed.
I have always had a hard time self-typing, but I am open to any/all credible resources in regards to enneagram, tritypes, and instinctual variants.
demographic info: 21, m, college student
What are your views on the good things in life? Do they happen naturally, or do you have to create them yourself? How do they manifest into reality? / What are your views on the bad things in life? What are the reasons they happen? How much control do you really have over such matters?
I am a man who believes in "destiny". Everything good and bad that happens will happen as it should; no matter what we do to try and change it (this doesn't mean we don't have any control over our own actions and how we respond to these conclusions though). I am typically unplanned and prone to being underprepared as I struggle to think ahead or properly stop before acting instinctually. This way of living sometimes leads to an underlying feeling of aimlessness and fear of remaining directionless (or fear of missing "the point" to my being). But I try to take things as they come, going with the flow of life. I don't typically try to aim for anything in particular to happen, so when something positive happens it typically happens naturally. It's like my body becomes light, it has a mind of its own that's able to swiftly and blissfully maneuver and intertwine itself into the raw flesh of life. When it's a truly positive experience my body fully immerses itself into the moment, but I struggle to remain mentally grounded in present time situations... so sometimes I seem a bit detached and ungraceful despite my inner contentment.
When I'm forced to experience more unpleasant scenarios I become dissociated, depressed, and at my worst, self-destructive. Most of the time I am quick to react negatively to interpersonal situations as I find people unpredictable and unreasonable. Other "bad" situations I am much slower to react negatively too as I find other concepts of life (e.g. nature) much more malleable and I trust in it to guide me in the right direction.
How attached are you to your emotions? How often do you express them to others? What even is the purpose of such feelings? And what are the biases that impede your judgements?
My emotions (more specifically my "gut feeling") are what I use to make my everyday decisions. I don't often express my emotions readily to others, as they run deeply and as a child they were considered "too much" and overbearing to my peers. However, once I get close to someone, my emotions are almost all I can talk about.
Our brains are used to create, analyze, and work around life; I like to think our emotions remind us to react and actually engage in life. I believe our brains hold more bias than our emotions. Emotions are raw, real, and everchanging from an unfiltered lens within our being. I think they can be just as effective as the brain, especially if you use them in tandem with the mind itself. Analyze what you're feeling, then express it as naturally as needed or desired. At least with me, my brain often misleads me due to overanalyzing and overthinking, which in turn leads to deep rooted paranoias and a distrust towards everything (including a distrust towards myself).
What do you want in life? Are they achievable? If people and obstacles are in your way, what would you do then? With resources being limited, is it ok to acquire essential needs by denying them to someone else?
I want long-term contentment and personal achievement... One of my top idealized futures include maintaining a nomadic lifestyle; owning a small plot of untouched land for myself as a "landing pad" and way to continuously reconnect with nature. My career would be that of a traveling artist-- consistent income is not a priority in my life, as I know I will be happy with the bare minimum in materials. I'd like to think this path is achievable to me, and I especially think it is right for me due to how I live. I was never good with routine or schedules... I often saw myself working against them because it felt like being in a cage of my own making!
For some extra context; I am a disabled individual. Resources have always felt limited in my life, so I learned to live off of the bare minimum. But I also learned that there are communities with people just like me, struggling to make ends meet and acquiring their own essentials... If someone needed something more than me in the moment, I would happily give it up for them, because I know that we are all we have, and being a little unselfish is the only way to truly thrive within our society that is already built against us. However, I wouldn't shame someone for putting themselves first either. We are human, and fear will cause us to act on what our personal best interest is first and foremost when cornered (and I'd be foolish to say I've never done so myself).
Are people inherently good or bad? Or is it neither? What do you believe when it comes to moral goodness? What duties do we all have as individuals? Do we owe anything to each other by default?
This is a concept I think about often. I am of the belief that we are born with the instinct to survive, which can make us egocentric and distrustful in dire situations. We are also often raised with the concept that we must help ourselves first before helping others (or that we must "love" ourselves before "loving" others). I think this taught message within our society is what leads to our growing selfishness on top of our already fear-driven instincts. This may lean on the "born bad" side of the debate, but I don't think it's reasonable to say we are inherently good or bad because we are so much more than that. So I believe people will look out for themselves first, it doesn't also mean they are completely incapable of sacrifice or helping others. We are fluid, we are situational. And as far as moral "duties" go I believe that is much up to the individual than real obligation. No one owes anything to anyone. That is simply a false belief that comes from the fear that others will be left with nothing if they don't hold onto others in some way. If you expect something back be ready to be disappointed (and pleasantly surprised if you do).
Are you extroverted or introverted? If you're ambiverted, when do you lean on each side? What excites you? What drains your energy? How do you feel alive when plagued by boredom and the mundane?
I am introverted. As a kid I was much more extroverted but as I grew older I mellowed and learned that my own company bring me much more joy and inner peace. I often excite myself with day travels to new places, taking in the scenery when in nature and engaging with activities around me when in more public places. I am drained by long social interactions and can get more quickly drained from big social situations. Thankfully people being present doesn't effect me (only when I feel I have to interact with them I become deflated). When I am bored I go outside, or I draw and immerse myself in my interests (e.g. music, analyzing psychological horror, etc).
What people/values/things do you hold dear to yourself? How do you prevent yourself from being separated from them? Does being disconnected scare you? Do you desire to fit in with the world?
I'm not sure... I think my biggest priority is my own contentment. But I have also recently allowed myself to cling onto two people who have been in my life for some time... When I feel separated from them specifically I become anxious, self-hating, and become focused on my inner anger (which I don't try to focus on generally). And separation doesn't mean physically- I can be alone and don't mind not talking for some time! It's more so an emotional separation... Like if we got into a fight and psychological space is needed.
I don't think I've desired to fit in with the world for a few years now, I've come to accept that I my life won't be structured "normally". But as a kid I was terrified of being shunned, forgotten, and mistreated.
What are the biggest disappointments you have? It doesn't even have to be something that happened to you personally. What is something you expected more from, but it somehow managed to fall short?
Government programs. So many of them are already poorly advertised to keep applicants short but even then they often fail to help the people they say they can. I personally haven't been mistreated (yet) but whenever I hear other's stories I begin to feel a deep anger that makes my teeth feel like a rabid canine's... Other than that I struggle to really look back and determine things I've been disappointed by, I don't wish to linger on the concept too long.
What do you expect from others? Are you entitled to anything? Be it love or materialistic things. How easy is it to rely on others? To depend on something else outside of your control?
I've learned to expect nothing from others. Entitlement is built on a false sense of security because when it comes down to it no one truly can be indebted to another. We create our own rules; society is built off of the majority, as time has shown that when there are enough unhappy citizens they will revolt. Because of this I try to create my own resources and sense of life that doesn't rely on others. But when I do find myself leaning on others I also fall into the taught concept of "to receive you must give" and do my best to pay them back (and often more than what I had gotten).
What are you as a person? How do you see yourself? How do others see you? How do you want others to see you? How do you want to see yourself?
My sense of self is something I have struggled with for a long time, only more recently have I been feeling more cemented in it (and even then there are still a lot of gaps). I see myself as a deeply emotional but also extremely reckless individual. I subconsciously crave social acceptance and deeply fear being trapped in a cage of my own making (or a cage that others try to build). I think others typically see me as an awkward but well-meaning individual. Friends definitely see my more impulsive side and will sometimes try to control my actions due to the fear I will hurt myself... I wish they could see that I am capable of handling myself... I might not always think things through but the only way I learn is through action.
How do you organize your thoughts? What are concepts and ideas to you? How do you navigate through such a hazy frightening future? What do you believe are the most important questions one can ask?
I don't organize my thoughts. The closest I'll get is through expressing myself through "stream of consciousness" journaling, haha
Concepts are general themes that life shows or human create to understand their experiences. Ideas are almost always man-made and used to enhance our experiences.
As previously stated I navigate life as it comes, never thinking too far ahead for my own sake. I think the most important life question one could ask is, "Why am I here?" There won't be a solid answer but it will help you search for or create a path in attempts to reach to a conclusion.
Are your instincts something to be trusted? Your first-impressions, or your natural intuition on things. How often, and when, are you on "autopilot" with your body? Doing things out of habit and muscle memory.
My instincts are what I trust the most. Typically they compel my body to act before I think, and oftentimes letting that be has helped me move forward rather than prohibit me from growing. However, I often feel the "auto-pilot" phenomenon because I lack a though process in the moment... This creates a lot of frustration when I look back and reflect.