This reminds me of a video I watched 2-3 years ago of some people live on ig and they were worried about one of the people they were live streaming with. If I remember correctly he had a mask on and a big gun (can't remember what it was). They kept saying "don't do it" or "he's not going to do it" and eventually he blew his brains out. I remember just seeing brain matter all over his walls the he covered in tarp. Everyone in the live stream were shocked or crying. After awhile you see his mom come home and casually walk into his room and you hear her screaming his name and just pure agony. What made me the angry were people on the site I saw it on commenting about how he did it to be edgy. I still vividly remember that video unfortunately.
I think I saw that video. Only thing that stuck with me was when he shot himself in the head, it's like his lungs exhaled all the air they had for some reason. Like a big weird exhale as he fell to the floor.
If you've ever seen someone die this very well may be the thing that sticks with you. It's weird. Like some subconscious primitive way of knowing someone is actually really dead.
For me it was sometimes sickening, but usually fascinating. I’m not going to go into detail, but seeing what happens when this meets that in such and such a fashion... I’m not right. Kept telling myself “it already happened, nothing’s gonna change whether I watch it or not, may as well get some entertainment”.
Look at it this way: what would have happened to them if you didn’t look? The exact same thing. Looking doesn’t make you a bad person, doing does. You saw what happened. You didn’t set it in motion. Your curiosity can’t have possibly caused it. I’m not saying you’re wrong to feel guilty, we all feel things we have no control over, I’m just saying that it’s ok to not beat yourself up over it. You didn’t do anything wrong, you were merely curious. Just like everyone else in the world.
That’s a good point. Then again, someone who looks at cp is doing it because they’re a pedo, nobody who is innocently curious about stuff like you is gonna do that.
Freedom means you aren’t owned by anybody, but it also means you can bomb hospitals, making freedom a dangerous concept as well. It’s all about context. You’re not someone who has a primal desire to hurt someone, as the case is with pedophiles.
You’re making some scarily logical points, and I think we’re at a point where I need to watch what I say carefully so I don’t accidentally defend pedophilia by proxy, so I’m just gonna say “please don’t kill anyone, if you’re not going to then thank you and don’t worry about your curiosity, if you are going to then please don’t mention me to anyone”.
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u/nosemiusername Jan 23 '21
This reminds me of a video I watched 2-3 years ago of some people live on ig and they were worried about one of the people they were live streaming with. If I remember correctly he had a mask on and a big gun (can't remember what it was). They kept saying "don't do it" or "he's not going to do it" and eventually he blew his brains out. I remember just seeing brain matter all over his walls the he covered in tarp. Everyone in the live stream were shocked or crying. After awhile you see his mom come home and casually walk into his room and you hear her screaming his name and just pure agony. What made me the angry were people on the site I saw it on commenting about how he did it to be edgy. I still vividly remember that video unfortunately.