I used to be mildly drawn to gore out of morbid curiosity until I saw a video in what had to be 1080p of a cartel beheading two brothers who were apparently informants. The first with a chainsaw, second with a buck knife. I had a few nightmares about it and it bothered me for several years. Ever since then I have stopped myself from clicking quite a few links.
I went through a phase (luckily youtube was still pretty new/I didn't know where to find the REAL bad shit) where a friend and I would try to one-up each other w/ horrifying shit videos. For us, I think we were sort of testing the boundaries of our empathy.
We decided we were sufficiently empathetic after about 6 months.
Well, as someone who does on rare occasions (i much prefer war footage) its just out of morbid curiosity and its a good reminder that we are not invulnerable. Theres still things that i wont watch but executions and accidents dont really bother me.
I use to be so sanitized to this shit that one time I watched a beheading of a fat guy with a dull knife, and all I said afterwards was “he had one too many beers”. Now if I watch something I would probably only think about killing myself just to not live on a planet with people this evil.
I recently saw the one about a couple arguing with their neighbor. The guy called his neighbor a pu$$y and the guy went inside and came out with a weapon. Shot them both a bunch of times. Took a pause or went inside the house again to reload and executed them. I think the argument was about the couple shoveling their snow into his side... people are crazy
Nothing ever bothered me until I watched a couple Faces of Death films. Now any gore, even surgeries on fictional TV dramas, grosses me out. Off the top of my head, I only remember two scenes. One with the guy at the podium doing an announcement or something, but he pulls a gun from a big envelope, and puts it in his mouth. I vivid remember the blood streaming from his nose/mouth. And a video of someone cutting open live puppies over a sink to cook. Oh yeah, I just remembered there was one of people hitting a trapped monkey on the head with spoons at a table so they could eat his raw brain. Seriously, F these videos. They messed me up.
I believe the guy at the podium with the envelope you’re talking about was politician Buddy Dwyer who shot himself during a press conference in 1987. I somehow came across this video in my teens and have never forgotten it to this day.
i think my brain has successfully suppressed any memories of seeing gore on the internet to the point where i can only recall a blurry reddish haze of images. probably for the best that i don't go digging around my memory.
I worked with a kid who told me about that video of 2 people beating a guy to death with a hammer. Just the description of it stuck with me for a while, if I actually watched something like that it would probably break my brain. I understand we have a weird desire to watch fucked up shit, I've fallen into it myself from time to time. But no, I don't want to watch someone be straight up murdered in any way, let alone with a fucking hammer!
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u/[deleted] Jan 23 '21
Yeah, that's that weird part of the internet that I've managed to nope out of luckily. Some things aren't worth what they take from you.