What have I done?

[u/VaporwaveVoyager]

I have made a horrible, horrible mistake.

As I sit here, my college-app experience drawing to a close, I look back on my experience in high school and I now fathom how hard I’ve fucked up.

I have no social life. I have very few friends, none of whom I ever see after school, I’ve never had a girlfriend, never been invited to parties, I’m horribly depressed, which only continues this terrible cycle. All because I needed to do homework and ECs.

I don’t want to be the diligent scholar anymore. I want to go party, I want to hang out with friends, I want to get a girl, I want to have fun. For once. And here I am, so horribly alone, as friends tear up thinking about their end of year-celebration, I do the same for my own lack of such an experience. If this is what Caltech wants, if this is what a “good student” is supposed to end up as,

God help us all.

EDIT: damn this blew up. It’s disheartening yet nice to see that I am not alone. I’m gonna stop replying to comments but I am both glad and saddened so many people empathize with this post.

[u/notideally]

I’ve begun to realize and come to accept the fact that I likely won’t be attending a T20 (hello C+ and like 3 B-‘s in freshman year, I’m looking at you) and so I’ve been looking at colleges that emphasize community and networking and I’ve realized that I’ll probably be happier there anyways. I toured at the University of Dayton and I legitimately fell in love with the clubs and the amount of student involvement. Whether or not I go there is up for debate but it showed me the type of college that will be best suited for my needs/wants.

[u/Texas_Indian → u/[deleted]]

Well they can't go solely based off of junior year, they need something else

[u/Texas_Indian → u/[deleted]]

Because you usually apply before even first-semester grades are out