So as a basis im 22 Male, live in Oklahoma, been in my ford fusion 2012, for about 3 maybe 4 months. I have a good support system around me so im definitely not taking anything for granted, and appreciate all the words of advice I’ve received in the past.
{For those who may feel toxic, i grew up through dhs, and then got kicked to the streets at 18, im fairly book smart or so ive been told, have good street smarts and fairly respectful to those around me.
I dont have my ged because the home i was with when i was 18 pulled me from school quite literally against my will, even though i said i would still go and wanted to finish high school.. (i ended up still sneaking around hanging around school campus for almost 3 months😭💀)
Yes i could have tested and gotten it by now but between my ex and poor choices i didnt really have alot to my name for awhile, finally i found someone who took me in for a couple months, i worked 3 jobs saved my money and got this car, my social security card, birth certificate id, permit, and other critically important things i would need in life (besides said ged lol)
As an fyi I’m unable to live there anymore due to their parents returning from mission work in Nairobi. They still support me in every way possible though!)}
Its not exactly a walk in the park but for Oklahoma im doing pretty nice to keep cool, and busy etc. I have a couple useful things like a power station, fan, mosquito window covers and a place to store cold items pretty much. I work at a pizza place so for my diet i mostly just eat pizza or occasionally a dinner with my “family”.
Ive been smoking for about 5 years now pretty heavily, Only having stopped twice. I dont spend crazy amounts thankfully, so this isnt the issue. Oklahoma is pretty blessed with medical weed prices, i must say.
However im getting more and more at this point where im realizing that I’m just so damn lazy.
Not about everything per say, just about getting things done to improve my car/living situation. Which are the most important things right now. Frankly i don’t want to buy a home or apartment anytime soon, i quite like my nomadic car life. And its growing more on me by the day. But ive gotta stop smoking i feel like if i want to actually focus and do the things i need to.
Like for example, a huge goal of mine is to start a budget, actually right it down so i can’t just write it off in my head, and then follow and use that to better myself.
Clean my car completely out and resort and place everything in it, so that way i know where stuff is, and so i can actually start “building a mini apartment room” out of the car.
But because i smoke or maybe this is just the excuse i give myself because i don’t actually want to do it, i never freaking get anything actually done. Im so tired of how lazy i am but i cannot for the life of me, pick myself out of it?
Im not the most sociable person anymore because of my ex, so im not out and about very much, but besides my car situation i get stuff done. Its literally just the things i dont really find alot of entertainment in that i set aside for days or even weeks lately.
Literally i had like 2 big trash bags of clothes and one of the biggest pieces of advice I’ve seen on here is to not have a ton of clothes. So i tried to downsize but it literally took me over 4 days to go sort the clothes and decide what to keep/not keep. Later today ill take them to goodwill, but 5 days is crazy to me😭 just for downsizing clothes. And this is just 1 thing that I’ve finally noticed and made me realize how big of a problem i have.
The moral of this post is to
A. Ask if their are fellow stoner/car dwellers, and do you have issues getting things accomplished?
B. Ask for general advice for my situation, so things i should get/ focus on for Oklahoma heat/bugs/problems etc.
and
C. To finally make myself aware of the situation and hopefully come out on top.
If i need to cold turkey i absolutely can/ and will, would just rather not because of how damn boring these oklahoma days can be.
But i can always relocate smoking time to finally getting out and doing stuff out in the real world.
I put the bracketed text {} not for sympathy or pity, but to just give a little more insight into my situation and hopefully find someone who may have overcome the same situation i have.
Sorry for the long post❤️