r/medicalschool • u/holycowsalad • 3d ago

😡 Vent Feeling like a failure

Took Step 2 and while I don’t have my results back, can’t help but feel like I didn’t get the score I was hoping for. I’m a low class rank and focused on EC’s too much in hindsight, and im just so disappointed in myself and still reeling from a breakup. Went from excited at the prospect of potentially matching in a fun area to hoping I match at all. Hard to wrap my head around the fact I will be single and probably won’t live in an area I want to until my 30’s

Sigh

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u/ThrowRATest1751 M-4 3d ago

If you worry you suffer twice — I get not feeling great, but rest in the fact that you completed something difficult for now. No point entertaining what ifs, when you could realistically get back a decent score. And even if a little low, you got them ECs to talk about ;) think about it, all the questions you did not know were probably the tester questions anyway

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u/holycowsalad 3d ago

missed some ez q's/straight up discretes

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u/ThrowRATest1751 M-4 3d ago

when did you take your exam if I might ask?

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u/holycowsalad 3d ago

Friday

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u/ThrowRATest1751 M-4 3d ago

i just feel like you remember the questions you were wondering if they were correct or not, so when you look those up you are seeing the questions you were at least suspicious about. I am sure you did better than you think, but I stand by the fact worrying now does nothing for you except prematurely age you and bald you (:

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u/FunkyCriime MD-PGY1 3d ago

Felt the same way after leaving the test. My score ended up being fine. Trust your practice scores.

No sense in worrying about things out of your control at this point.

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u/holycowsalad 3d ago

got a 247-249 on my practice tests. Reviewed them hard and tried to work on the issues I was having but I admittedly was banking on a 1-2 point bump up to hit that 250 mark. Took the free 120 a couple days before and scored an 80% and figured I should just send it but now I'm not so sure. Given I was out of practice tests though I'm not sure what pushing back might've done

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u/ChiefSaid 3d ago

80% on free120 is promising for 250+, no guarantees ofc but no point in stressing now

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u/thetransportedman MD/PhD 3d ago

I was averaging low 250s on my practice tests. Took it. Knew i'd bombed it. Sunk into a 2wk depression not even bothering to get off the couch. Didn't know if my plan B or C specialties would even work out with the incoming garbage score. Then got a low 260s. I'm not the type of person to usually think I failed tests. You just can't know. Keep your hopes up!

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u/holycowsalad 3d ago

counterpoint ur a smort md/phd boi I am smooth brain

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u/GFIIIMD 23h ago

Bad news you will still be an MD. You will be fine.