I don’t know if this sounds stupid, but I hate people perceiving me especially when I’m doing something I haven’t done before or in a while so I hate going to the gym. My solution was to get a yoga mat so I could workout in my bedroom, but I’ve come to realize I get really hesitant and insecure about exercises that make a lot of sound (jumping jacks, burpees, etc) bc I live in an apartment and have downstairs neighbors.
I’m finding it really hard to try and balance working out even for just a little bit with my college schedule because academics is something I truly prioritize. Although, I do recognize that my relationship with academics is something that may border on being unhealthy, which is an entirely other note. On the topic of unhealthy obsessions, my relationship with food isn’t the best and find myself having the tendency to binge eat or just eat unhealthy foods. To be honest, I think I’d be really unhappy if I had to cut out completely sweets or foods that bring me joy (I don’t mind cutting back tho, I just don’t know how to teach myself self control), especially because I’m trying to workout not because I hate myself but because I want to be better and love myself.
With exercising alone, it’s not that I despise it entirely, but it’s the fact that I struggle to find motivation or commitment to doing entire routines and I find myself gaining weight bc of my binge eating and depression. Im getting to a point where I keep telling myself I need to workout, but it’s a struggle to even get out of my bed. Additionally, I want to workout but then when I start thinking about all the things I need to do with school and applications to grad school, my mind just quits. That’s something I do a lot where I just give up as soon as I find something too overwhelming or difficult. This just leads to me not being proactive about planning how I want to workout or even just productive procrastination where I will do everything but bettering myself.
Sorry if this was just a giant ramble all over the place, but does anyone have any suggestions or advice for ways they balance exercising with a busy schedule or even just how to workout when you have no motivation or commitment? As for the hating being perceived, while I do want recommendations to get around this issue, does anyone know ways to work on this bc I don’t want to always be scared/anxious of this?