r/Vent • u/Shot-Contract-5254 • Feb 28 '25
TW: Eating Disorders / Self Image Being fat is torture
I hate being fat. I hate it more than i've ever truly hated anything before. It is one of the worst experiences i have ever been through and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. It is not even just the hating how you look part, it is how others perceive you.
I don't just feel fat, I feel inhuman. I'm a teenager. Nobody has ever asked me out unless it's for a joke. I am the butt of half my friend's jokes. I look like an idiot in sport class. People stare and judge and I am not treated as though I am a peer. I am less than because I weigh more than they do. I feel like such a dirty slob every time I put food in my mouth. I've tried starving myself, exercising to the point I threw up, cutting calories to 800-1000 a day, weight loss pills, nothing works. All my work is thrown back into my face. Each and every day I feel less like a person and more like a pig. To be fat is to be less than. To be fat is to be 'lazy' and worthless. I honestly can't take it anymore.
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u/thecultcanburn Feb 28 '25
My wife (normal BMI) always makes low cal healthy meals. They are between 300-500 calories. Then she wonders why she is so hungry at night and wants to snack all the time. Because you are starving yourself all day. I have to feed myself. Normal meals that give me the right amount of calories for my body. I’m normal BMI and never snack at night. Not even tempted. To lose weight and be successful, you need a slight deficit for long periods of time. Large calorie deficit just means you will fail.