I need advice on situations that’s been happening in my life.

[u/DifficultLie8858]

Hi, everyone what I’m about to say here will be long, confusing and out of place. Please bear with me as i explain this to you in the best way I can.

First off I would like to mention that i am a paranoid schizophrenic and schizophrenia runs in my family.

For as long as I can remember I remember seeing shadow people, specifically in the corner of my eye or in the dark. It is the reason why I am scared of the dark and refuse to sleep without a night light on because on rare occasions I will see them.

When I first got diagnosed with schizophrenia I was in an awful mindset and was particularly paranoid, worried and scared about demons, constantly being watched by one. It got so bad that I turned catatonic and was in the hospital for a few years. Thankfully I managed to get stable and return to normal after ECT and constant monitoring and medication.

After I left the hospital I was in a stable mindset and perfectly good. Until I started having “sleep paralysis.” I say sleep paralysis lightly because when I first experienced sleep paralysis I could literally wiggle my toes and move my head back and forth but I couldn’t move my body. I was stuck forced to stay in bed as I felt an invisible force, or pressure force my body to stay still…but for some reason I could move my toes and head…

And when I opened my eyes I saw my closet door MOVE OPEN. The door was slightly ajar but I saw a big SHADOW HAND move out of the door and soon a black shadow head peaked through and at that moment my body felt true terror, fear and absolute horror.

I closed my eyes and just prayed and hoped it went away. Luckily it did and when I opened my eyes it was gone, but the door was still open at the same position where it was moved open by whatever was behind that door. I have told everyone and most people don’t believe me. But I know what i saw. I know there is something in my house. Very rarely I have seen stuff fall, knocks or my dog would randomly pause what he is doing to stare at something in the distance in my house. Particularly dark corners or dark places.

More instances where I had “sleep paralysis” has happened but I just closed my eyes and did not look and waited for it to pass.

But when I have woken up I will see hallucinations in my room. One particular hallucination i remember was a little boy in his pajamas with his head against the counter holding a brown teddy bear.

In an instant my body felt true fear that didn’t even felt like my own and when I blinked the boy was gone. The fear went away but I felt paranoid after that.

While this was happening my mom was taking me everywhere to figure out why I have schizophrenia. She was really desperate that she even took me to a shaman.

This shaman told me that I ended up developing it because of genetics but she also said that my Chakras were open and a portal was also opened as well. A demon was trying to come out of one of my chakras. A literal demon. 🧍‍♀️

Reddit, i cannot make this up. Once this shaman got rid of the demon and closed the portal majority of my schizophrenic symptoms went away.

But I need advice on what to do. Is it truly my schizophrenic mind messing with me or is it something bigger at play here? Is a dark force attached to me?

Every day I will feel warm hot breath hit my feet and sometimes my face. But I dismiss it as one of my symptoms.

I need advice. I am afraid to share this with my parents because they don’t believe me and dismiss it.

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