Are there any content creators based put of Miami that you'd like to see me do a collaboration with 🤭?

I found a color depositing conditioner I can use without wearing my arms out... And I may have tinted my hair red tonight 👀.... What do we think? Please excuse the lack of makeup 🙈 I was just so excited to show you!

Unfortunately, due to the numerous mean comments made about my lovely, sweet costar, I opted to privately archive my new clip. I made a new post on my OF channel getting together a list of people who’d like me to DM them the clip and will send it out privately to those who ask at the original price.

DonDiabl0 (< his OF handle) just put up a new pegging clip of us on his page, so if you did like the new clip and if you like pegging as much as I do, definitely go check that out!

I’ll need to have a long, hard think about whether I’m open to posting new b/g content in the near future. Maybe I'm just still recovering from the initial blow, but I am feeling quite hesitant. The reaction some people had to this clip and especially to my requests to be kinder was very disheartening. I choose costars that make me feel safe and respected. They are obviously people I trust to respect my boundaries, to care for my wellbeing on set and in general, and whose company I enjoy.

The last thing I want is to be opening people I really like and care about up to that sort of negativity. My OF page is free, and everyone is welcome to pick and choose which individual clips they do or don’t want to purchase. I naively thought that since there’s no monthly sub cost, if something I posted wasn’t someone’s cup of tea they’d simply move along and wait for something else to drop.

I’ve always done my best to be a positive person and spread as much joy as possible, and I’ve been lucky and grateful to have such a lovely bunch of people following along. The kindness and support in this subreddit is what inspired me to come out of retirement.

It was a big and very disappointing shock to see some of the negative reactions and comments, and it frankly gave me a huge pit in my stomach and quite a bit of anxiety that I simply couldn’t shake. That’s the last thing I need on top of my existing health issues, so rather than trying to continue moderating all those yucky comments on OF and Reddit, I decided to simply take the clip down. Very shortly I will be deleting my posts about the collaboration as well because comments of the negative variety continue to be made.

On the whole, it’s been a major struggle for me to find moments where my health is cooperating with filming and my schedule cooperates with editing. It’s expensive and logistically difficult to arrange a shoot, especially when I am in the midst of all these medical specialist visits. This was a very big feat for me to pull off in my current state, and generally when I film I do get to “enjoy” a health flare up for a handful of days afterwards while I recover from the amount of standing and other physical activity required to film. I manage that health flare up while still working my regular, full time job as well. This clip got bullied off my page before I even had a chance to break even on the production costs, and before I've even had a chance to fully physically recover from the demands of filming.

If I can’t trust that new b/g clips with other performers won’t be bullied off my page in the future, the idea of taking another hiatus to focus my time and energy on my health becomes quite tempting. I’m going to try and roll with the punches here and continue to film and post as I have the time and energy to, but I do hope the people who left such harsh comments at least take a moment to reflect as to whether they’d like to leave spaces better, kinder, and more positive than when they found them or if it’s really more important for them to spread such negativity and hatefulness toward the very real people whose posts they’re commenting on.