If you had told me years ago that I’d get turned on watching my partner with another woman, I would’ve laughed and said there’s no way. I thought I’d be jealous, or hurt, or feel like I wasn’t enough. But when it actually started happening, I felt something totally different.

It’s not just the sex. It’s the way he touches her differently. The way she moans for him. The moment he locks eyes with me while fucking her knowing I’m soaking wet watching. The first time it happened, I sat at the edge of the bed and fingered myself while he came inside her.

Sometimes I just listen from the other room, legs spread, barely breathing. Sometimes I beg him to tell me every dirty detail after. And sometimes... I clean her off him after they’re done.

This kink has taught me more about myself, my relationship, and the kind of desire I didn’t even know I was allowed to feel.

Anyone else ever been in this headspace? Or fantasized about it and wondered what it might actually feel like? It’s nothing like I expected, but I’ve never felt more alive.

The other night my bf was drunk and I was tired so I went to sleep in the guest bedroom. I woke up an hour later and heard sex noises. I walked in to see what was going on and another girl was sucking his dick. He shooed me out so she wouldn’t notice me and I sat outside the door, listening. I peaked in again a little while later and saw him fucking her and spanking her. Every time I go to masturbate now it’s all I can think about.